posted October 28, 2015 03:00 PM
Thank you sooo much, NYCDodger. 
I just spent 7 whole hours peeking under the covers of your Beautiful chart... (I'm a beginner at this, and not trained nor certified yet. I like to try though. Making mistakes is part of learning?)
Humanitarian!!!!! Incredible imagination, warmth, and vulnerability is there deep inside you. Natural healer nurturer. What an awesome human being there inside you!!!
You like the whole house system?... but when I saw your Aquarian Ascendant is 9.59 Degrees, which places your Leo Sun 4.42 IN the H6 Placidus (Sixth House), that's a sensitive place for the Sun to be in-- Your ability to "feel" healthy (and ultimately maintain being healthy) may depend upon your feeling emotionally-mentally satisfied in your surroundings and in relationships.
Focusing care and nurturing towards yourself, your body, your physical habits and routines may be key to your ability to stay in-balance emotionally (~and, vice versa). Thing is that you (Sun square Mars) can just push and push and push yourself into exhausted states (Sun in 6th exacerbates that!!), and you NEED to take "rest" times out for yourself to charge back up again. Can make up and down rhythms to your feelings of having energy. With that Taurus cusp of 3rd (or IN the 3rd), you may wish to monitor your Thyroid health? (Maybe even an autoimmune situation with it??)
I've gotten to know some 6th House Sun charts over the past year, and these are some of the Spiritual Servant Leaders and Humanitarians in our Society. Your Aquarius Rising, your North Node Aqua 12th, more indicators the you were born here with a mark of destiny for 'spiritual greatness'... But to do that, the universe will probably arrange situations that will try to break you down and ~bust your balls~~ (you have a naturally strong ego-- SouthNode and Sun in Leo, and for your Soul to fulfill its mission, the strength of ego-energies will have to be eroded so that you can get down to the Core of who you are and what you were sent here to do.)
AND also please take care of your sensitive self-esteem levels... Don't let them dip too far down. I know some Leo's who are fantastic persons (and add a charming Libra Moon to that~~ *o swoon?*). Really deep down inside some of them don't KNOW just 'how fantastic' they truly are in a really-REAL way (not show~personality way...) I have found some to be truly good people who need time to shrink behind the curtains every once in a while, where they can find themselves so exposed and vulnerable. They need protection and care in this state of being.)
I had a Leo brother, who also tended to over-control females in his life (even down to domestic abuse situations). His 'control' was just his way of trying to 'take care' of the females in his kingdom (and whoah... even though I Believe he always tried to be fair, he would miss that mark then 'wonder' what happened when love and affection stopped flowing toward him. In order to have a kingdom, you've got to keep your subjects happy!! LOL).
You have that solid Mars Taurus opposing Pluto-Juno Scorpio 9th... song, *Macho-macho Man!!* Sexy, but sooo frustrated... Also asteroid Sappho (deals with the romantic soul notions, and also with same-sex leanings for a few people-- not saying you) is attached to that Mars-energy. Vesta (spiritual devotion, security) (H3 writings that are spiritual, or feeling sense of inferiority intellectually, as Mars there slows down your thought-processes so you can ground them) is also Taurus (needs that sense of 'stability' in the environment and trine your Saturn Capricorn (such self-discipline and being a hard worker is available to you)...
You could really perhaps use much more 'force' than is needed in your close relationships (and don't realize that you do-- that's why it's really important to listen to the feedback you get, try as much as you can to be sensitive of maybe becoming 'flip' in your responses to feedbacks (Venus Cancer squaring Libra Moon--- sometimes without realizing it, a Libra Moon can come off a bit too brusque for people), and acknowledge people's responses when you receive them... sometimes there can be overlooking when you really really didn't mean to, and then wonder why someone got ticked...
Sometimes we all can do things we're not aware of doing-- I say that it would be unrealistic and impossible to expect self to be 100%, so ~cut yourself some Beautiful slack and 'just' keep on self-forgiving in a liberal way, and keep on keeping on...
If you know you have good intentions, give self credit where credit is due. Libra Moons are romantic, charming, sensitive, affectionate. But all the peacefulness and niceness you would want also comes up against what may 'seem' to you as pretty-erratic behaviors-- which then could bring out your own pattern of eccentricities, with jumping to conclusions too instantly and cutting valuable people and situations off (in your head and heartspace) before they had a chance to really help ground and stabilize you, give you the info you needed to make yourself 'feel' good in your life, less 'hurt' inside. It IS very 'important' to 'feel' as though people genuinely like you... so don't jump and push them out of your lovespace too soon.
Give it and you time to breathe, and settle... You WANT good connections. LET people love you, but not walk all over you either.
Pay attention to that dance of female energy (we are both masc/femme) in relating with people. And I would add even relating to your OWN inner world of self.
Uranus is a key to your chart... (It's your chart ruler Aquarius, this MAY be located in your 11th placidus? and Uranus 11th IS the Aqua natural house-- your social groups, society, humanitarian service, your accurate intuitions, your rebellious chaffing feelings inside. With Sun quincunx Uranus, the keywords to that says 'stagnate or grow'...Betty Lunsted talks about career matters with this one aspect-- That in a way a person with this doesn't bother with society values, yet deep down inside it does irritate you-- but maybe not enough for you to become 'conscious' that THAT is what is happening. Now, you may not "feel" like the answer is to 'look' for what society wants and values and to sorta moooove your energy more-towards an understanding of 'what' those values 'could' be, and with Uranus in Capricorn, this could lean towards more practical things. To take that GORGEOUS talent you have at Care and tapping into cosmic imaginations, and somehow 'fold' that in (like cooking) INTO forms that Society will be able to USE to better itself. With Capricorn on the cusp of your 12th, you are an awesome behind the scenes person, and you need to Believe in your talents and abilities and ability to effect change for Good in Humanitarian efforts (which your chart shows Beautifully).
So... You work TOO hard! AND you have that tendency to doubt your self. You need your partners to have stability, yet have experienced wonky situ's dealing with those female energies (both in you, and others). No matter what 'seems' to be happening, remember to cultivate TRUST in yourself and in being sorta different, and to TRUST in things unseen (like the Universe's Love for you, and it works ON your behalf to help make your life Better even if it looks like things go to hell in a handbasket. Being able to cultivate that trust could help your health-issues as they become important. Guard your health... it's your wealth, stay happy... it's also nourishing to your emotions, thus body.)
Do things to try to take care of the physical body's nerve-systems in you. Feed yourself food and rest. When you push too hard, those headaches and physical issues may become more prominent. Yes I know.... (I have workaholic tendencies too-- AND I have a sixth house sun. I ~might know what I'm talking about here...) Oh, as my stomach clenches LOL, Keep your stomach from too much acid generating foods, perhaps.
With that Mars opp Pluto, those people can tend to 'implode' their anger. And you might not even 'realize' that you may have those kinds of angers held back inside you. It's great that you funnel those INTO your Creative urges... You'll come out with some fantastic art (music, ~whatever) you can share with the world. You have just the right amount of sandpaper in your chart to produce Beautiful pearls in that oyster-shell you can tend to retreat into. A push-pull with loving to be around groups, yet not. Wanting relationships, but not trusting. Not fully-understanding YOUR OWN feminine/masculine balance. You've got sooo much empathy, and talents for creating 'healing' environments for yourself and Others. ... You had mentioned music somewhere.... Music, sound, is a wonderful way to help heal the woes in society... You can be a 'stabilizer' for you already have probably known a lot of instability in your life? Jumping in and out of love, of being inlove, of jobs, of groups?(Venus Opp Uranus) And with Jupiter Opp Saturn, you get (right now) to establish who YOU are as opposed to what the rest of 'authority' told you you could or couldn't do. Don't be afraid of looking down deep inside yourself... sure, we ALL have shadows, but beneath the shadows.... So Much Light to Behold.
So, let that rocking-momentum, back and forth, become a shifting for the silt. Embrace EVERYTHING about yourself. It's ALL Good... The big, the bad, the ugly, the questionings??? It's ALL working towards the process of Good in YOUR life, and will Benefit the MANY Lives that you have been slated to Touch through your Creativity.
Remember the Balance... Creative then Practical, too Practical get Creative. Too Creative, get grounded, Too grounded go Creative.
I love all those 9th House Placements, and your Beautiful chart. Believe, and Serve The World... It WILL make you sooo Happy to "find" that.
(music) Change the World (Eric Clapton, lyrics) [3:56] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Atlz3qj0K68
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I worked on this some more, it is NOT perfect!!!, but it's time for me to stop and maybe go out for a walk. I tend to give people TOO MUCH info, when actually what you were "asking for" was some emotional validation and feeling.
So I apologize if the above is "too much"... I'm an informationslutttt!! LMAO... Lots of data is simply "food"... So I'll not 'delete' what I wrote to you.
I just hope it was helpful in some way. I REALLY enjoyed looking into your chart and possibly your inner World.
I hope you feel better soon! {{ 
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Lindaland
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