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missblyss
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posted December 03, 2015 08:49 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for missblyss     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Greetings and love,

Coming to ask for some tarot/ energetic wisdom from you all, leave your questions and I will happily exchange once I am at home with my deck (approx 1 hour from now). Posting this from my phone as I'm swimming in pain wondering if I've been so deluded?

I've discussed before the story with my ex. (My daughters father). We were married and although we had a passionately committed relationship, I began to wonder if he was right for me. He got us both into federal prison for alien smuggling week one of dating, had a tendency to scream at me, and had a bit of a drinking problem that would wane at times.

Throughout our relationship I did vent about him to others and made a few connections with other men (emotional not physical). Not sure if he cheated or not.

Anyways, I left him because I found a fake gun on him. He was also yelling at me a lot in front of our daughter. I asked him to go to couples therapy but he refused and went out partying for months on end until getting arrested again.

Although I'm sure I made mistakes, my role in this scenario was definitely more of the "innocent one".

A few months ago I got a free reading from a woman on Facebook. She told me that it was my karma to be a single mother without his support because I never told him that I wanted to get pregnant. this was kinda true, we were having a lot of unprotected sex.. And I do recall one of the times wishing to be pregnant! But overall, I didn't really want a pregnancy.

She also told me that I was manipulative and that I played games with him and that essentially I was just getting what I deserved by having our marriage fail...

It is my only intention in life to be a good person, of course I make mistakes and act out of negative emotions, but I really do try so hard! Hearing these things sent me into a deep depression for 4 months where I was borderline suicidal. It changed my perspective. I felt that I was a horrible partner and that I hurt my partner and that he was right for not wanting to be with me...

I am just getting over this depression, but it's still hard for me to make sense of it all. I know I wasn't perfect, but could I really still have been that bad?

Would love any help or guidance and, like I said, will gladly offer readings in exchange.

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missblyss
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posted December 03, 2015 08:54 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for missblyss     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
I went from thinking that I was a passive pushover and that was why I let him yell at me... To thinking oh wow silly me I really did deserve this all along!

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posted December 03, 2015 10:59 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for DreamCatcher     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
HI Miss-
I will exchange with you

I'd like to know about this guy "J" that I see at work...I'm wondering if there's major chemistry or if I'm imagining it? I'm normally not delusional, LOL it feels like something is there? But I can't tell....Is he attracted?

BRB with your insight

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posted December 03, 2015 11:27 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for DreamCatcher     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
You're not a bad person. We all come here with KArma, good & not so good. The important thing is that you have recognized where you may have not acted as nolbe as you hoped, but you are taking steps to correct it. It is not your destiny to suffer pain due to your past. Move forward with a sunny outlook. All is going to be ok!! You don't "deserve" anything negative!

You have learned, correct? That's all you can do, mlove forward with good intentions and you will be rewarded.

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missblyss
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posted December 03, 2015 11:42 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for missblyss     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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Originally posted by DreamCatcher:
You're not a bad person. We all come here with KArma, good & not so good. The important thing is that you have recognized where you may have not acted as nolbe as you hoped, but you are taking steps to correct it. It is not your destiny to suffer pain due to your past. Move forward with a sunny outlook. All is going to be ok!! You don't "deserve" anything negative!

You have learned, correct? That's all you can do, mlove forward with good intentions and you will be rewarded.


Well I suppose I just feel confused if I was in the wrong or not. I felt like venting to people about him screaming at me was justified because he would say hurtful things and I needed a sounding board to know if it was true or not...

As far as the pregnancy, we were engaged for 3 years and having unprotected sex multiple times per day, is it true that because I once had a thought about wanting a child that it justifies him not being there?

I guess I'm really just trying to understand if I am justifying my actions... I never was intentionally manipulative with him.. I mean sometimes I would look at him like he was a bad person when he screamed at me hoping that he would realize he was being horrible and stop? Sometimes I would talk about guys that thought I was attractive so that he would see other people thought I was good looking.....

I am not really sure so it is hard for me to say whether I learned or not. Am I obligated to say every single thing I am feeling to someone who I know will take those feelings personally and verbally attack me?

When I left it was because I was finally feeling empowered to not let him yell at me, but the reading i got kinda suggested that i did things to warrant the yelling and name-calling

- Nursing my daughter now but will do your reading in a few minutes!

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missblyss
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posted December 03, 2015 11:52 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for missblyss     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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Originally posted by DreamCatcher:
HI Miss-
I will exchange with you

I'd like to know about this guy "J" that I see at work...I'm wondering if there's major chemistry or if I'm imagining it? I'm normally not delusional, LOL it feels like something is there? But I can't tell....Is he attracted?

BRB with your insight


First and foremost it seems that there is a light-hearted, joyful energy between the two of you. Not sure if you guys have spoken much yet, but it seems that the two of you will have a similar sense of humor and be able to make each other laugh . The next card I am getting shows that there is a connection between the two of you, but to be conscious of not turning away from it out of some sort of a fear.... Don't go the route of thinking OH he couldn't like me and then turning a cold shoulder, or something along those lines.. because it appears that there is a connection, as long as both of you don't get fearful and turn away from it.
It seems that a good route to go to further this connection, should you choose, is to offer support. You say that the two of you work together, so don't hesitate to help him with anything you can... it will further facilitate a nice connection between the two of you. And your original question, yes he definitely is attracted to you.. Haha suppose I got a bit more into it, but hope that resonates/ is helpful

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posted December 03, 2015 11:55 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for DreamCatcher     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Well, in my opinion it was not right of that reader to basically be telling you that you did something that warranted verbally abusive behavior.
It does not matter , nobody desserves to be treated that way. You know in your heart that you need to move forward and not keep looking back. Take the reading with a grain of salt!! Enjoy your daughter

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posted December 03, 2015 11:57 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for DreamCatcher     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Great read! I am doing that right now! "I'm imagining things, he doesn't like me" LOL

May I ask, sorry but I always want details , LOL..like WHAT is he so attracted to, like what he sees when he looks at me ( you give such good reads)

Oh , and do you see him turning away from the connection?

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posted December 03, 2015 11:59 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for DreamCatcher     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
double post, sorry

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missblyss
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posted December 04, 2015 12:11 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for missblyss     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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Originally posted by DreamCatcher:
Great read! I am doing that right now! "I'm imagining things, he doesn't like me" LOL

May I ask, sorry but I always want details , LOL..like WHAT is he so attracted to, like what he sees when he looks at me ( you give such good reads)

Oh , and do you see him turning away from the connection?


Do you have a bit of a mischievous grin at times? lol It seems that your smile is kinda enchanting to him, but also that he just generally admires the way you carry yourself and how you get things done. In his eyes you appear to be a capable woman.

It seems there will be a careful dance between the two of you, if you begin to think that he is not into you and start putting out negativity to kinda protect yourself, that will push him away. So just be conscious and open to let the positivity flow between the two of you. You will KNOW if there is a real reason to be cautious, like you will know without a doubt, so you don't have to have that fear or have your guard up. Trust that your alarm bells will RINGALING if need be...

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posted December 04, 2015 12:22 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for DreamCatcher     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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Originally posted by missblyss:
Do you have a bit of a mischievous grin at times? lol It seems that your smile is kinda enchanting to him, but also that he just generally admires the way you carry yourself and how you get things done. In his eyes you appear to be a capable woman.

It seems there will be a careful dance between the two of you, if you begin to think that he is not into you and start putting out negativity to kinda protect yourself, that will push him away. So just be conscious and open to let the positivity flow between the two of you. You will KNOW if there is a real reason to be cautious, like you will know without a doubt, so you don't have to have that fear or have your guard up. Trust that your alarm bells will RINGALING if need be...


Interesting..LOL I've been told I have a mischievous grin.
Did you have another ?
I'm wondering: does he think I'm interested?

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missblyss
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posted December 04, 2015 12:41 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for missblyss     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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Originally posted by DreamCatcher:
Interesting..LOL I've been told I have a mischievous grin.
Did you have another ?
I'm wondering: does he think I'm interested?

I think it's a kinda flip floppy thing. Probably similar to how you're feeling.. One second he thinks you might be, then he thinks NAWW she couldn't be!

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missblyss
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posted December 04, 2015 02:00 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for missblyss     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Just wanted to update-
my ex just sent dick pics

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posted December 05, 2015 11:56 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for DreamCatcher     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
quote:
Originally posted by missblyss:
Just wanted to update-
my ex just sent dick pics

Really? ! Did you respond?

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