posted December 09, 2015 09:09 AM            

I haven't really posted my chart in personal readings before, so here goes. I've been having a lot of health issues for years now, and I imagine they're mostly due to whatever's been going on in my mind. I've had a difficult life and a lot of trauma so I've been seeing a therapist to try to work through it.

Lots of the time, I feel a constant low-level anxiety and often have trouble getting through the day. Maybe it's hypervigilance(?). PTSD is strange.

Mostly, I've been exhausted. I often wonder why I seem to get burnt out and "disappear." For example, months ago I was very active on the forums here. I was doing lots of chart readings for a while, and then suddenly I was tired and felt "tapped out" so I "disappeared" for months. I feel guilty because I posted a lot here for a brief period of time, but then I lost all of my energy. I stopped doing readings (natal chart, synastry, composite, horary, etc) even though I had a lot of requests. Maybe it was the pressure?

I went through all sorts of medical testing last year and had no conclusive results so my doctor mentioned the possibility of an auto-immune issue. Of course, I was tested for that as well and ended up at a dead-end again. Also, my husband and I are planning to move to a bigger place and we're talking about kids, but I'm feeling scared about it. Like, would I even BE a good mother? Do I WANT to be a mother? Must be partially due to Saturn moving through my 7th house.

Either way, that's a good example of what tends to happen to me and I'm having a difficult time finding the right balance and figuring out what's wrong with me health-wise.

I know my chart pretty well- I have Moon-Jupiter in Scorpio in my 6th house,so it definitely seems that my moods affect my health. Moon opposite Chiron could also have an influence. My chart ruler (Mercury) is in Capricorn in my 8th so I do tend to tend to be greatly influenced by Pluto transits and 8th-house themes. My chart is kind of weird to begin with since I have the grand trine in air signs (AC, Venus, & Mars) but then I have those Scorpio planets and 8th house Sun-Mercury. My Sun is at a critical degree (29.52 Sagittarius) and kind of sits between the 7th and 8th house so I also have a Sun-Neptune conjunction in the 7th. Anyway, I could go on and on about my chart so I'll stop here.

Here it is:

Thoughts?

Nelys

posted December 09, 2015 03:11 PM            

I personally think you are between two thresholds: your physical and spiritual body are often at odds. You need to come to a point where you are totally secure being in your spiritual self in order to feel aligned. You have a lot of power there - I believe it is your strength.

At first glance i see the grand kite formation heading towards your 7 and 8H. I think you are a person of deep deep spirituality above all else. It is an ancient kind of spiritual power, so it is difficult to feel confident walking around among the people in this age...