posted February 10, 2016 06:14 PM            

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So, I have a long winded explanation of what I'm asking, but I'm really hoping for your interpretations. Life has really been kicking me when I'm down lately and I'm hoping you can get me in tune with my next Saturn transit.
In September 2012 when Saturn conjuncted my moon exact I lost my father in an unexpected way. This is in the second house and it completely derailed my life. I had to take a break from school because I lost my financial support (father) and started to come to terms with how the rest of my family is structured, which isn't so hot. My mom is mentally ill and upon losing my father, our family crumbled. Ever since then I've been picking up the pieces -- making friends that can replace the family I'm missing and trying to build a good relationship. I'm also financially supporting myself through school which is a heavy process as there are no government loans for what I'm doing.

The next time Saturn hit it conjuncted Pluto. My boyfriend at the time became rather sick of me being depressed my father had passed away (December 2015) and split up with me. We had a rocky back and forth relationship for a while as I pretended to be less affected with the death of my father than I was and eventually we broke things off when Pluto was transited again by Saturn.

Now Saturn has crossed my imum coeli into the 4th house, where it's natally placed. When it crossed that axis I moved to a new city to start school and it was a rough time, but it seems to keep getting rougher. When it started to opposition my Venus I realized the relationship I had devoted myself to was an abusive one and I left.

My 4th house is very busy and so is my 10th opposite to it. In the next 2 years or so Saturn is going to hit my Uranus/Saturn conjunction and oppose my Venus, Mercury, and eventually my Sun conjunct Chiron.

Does anyone have an idea of what this holds in store for me? Should I brace myself? Should I expect all kinds of childhood abuse issues I've suffered to come up in this process? Will it put a huge damper on my love life? Will it alter how others see me for some time?

More than anything right now I'd like to be working hard, studying hard and loving others in a very deep way but I'm starting to worry Saturn has other things in store for me. I feel like I've made so much progress since I lost my dad (being financially independent and learning a lot about my own self worth and what I will accept from others, especially in relation to childhood trauma I've suffered).

What do you think y'guys? Can you tell me anything good? Can you tell me anything useful?

posted February 11, 2016 04:05 AM            

I am not an expert in astrology. You have several planets in your natal that are retrograde. This is an challenge on its own. The planet I always focus on is Jupiter. Jupiter is not in the retrograde motion in your natal.
Transit wise Jupiter is in our 1st house. It is in a retrograde motion. As you are familiar with retrograde planets I see this here as a support from the stars to define yourself.