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posted April 22, 2016 03:33 AM            

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Opening a new thread, that one good very long

.. I am not even sad after hearing from him, I think I just stopped caring and I feel quite numb.
He seems sad he cant make it. I replied to him but I think I came off not interested as I was, not interested in his messages.
It wasnt really that late I wasnt up from bed, I woke up from a nap and then saw his messages and then stayed up a bit more.. it was bearly midnight.
Actually, you werent off, as you asked how it will go when I see him, you didnt ask about seeing him in May.
He may still come but it just wont be when he thought it would be.

for you..

1. I get you getting a reply within 5 days, this could also include friday. I think they are just still swamped with paperwork.

2. I will list in order I feel you getting them.
1- W : I get soon, a few weeks at the most (2-3)
2- C : this one also feels fearly soon, couple of weeks.
3- AF : this one feels mid may but it doesnt feel that strong really,
4- AW : I am not sure you will get this one, sorry.

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posted April 22, 2016 09:26 AM            

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posted April 22, 2016 10:26 AM            

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What do you mean block where I live. How would he do that?
Im not understanding what I am getting cought up in

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posted April 22, 2016 10:33 AM            

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posted April 22, 2016 11:09 AM            

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No i said he went abroad because he felt bad where he lived

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posted April 22, 2016 11:26 AM            

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posted April 22, 2016 11:29 AM            

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posted April 22, 2016 12:37 PM            

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I think his exact words were
" I felt I was rotting awaythere and had to do something to make a change"

Oh yes, it would be so nice to meet you.
Let me ask, how do you get to your lucid state?
I am sure it takes a lot of practice but what exactly do you do? if you dont mind sharing.

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posted April 22, 2016 12:41 PM            

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posted April 22, 2016 12:49 PM            

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Yes I am sure it would go better, I mean, not to give any excuse to him
but ok, all we have is damn communication, via texting.
He lives in another country now, wakes up 5 am, comes home 10 pm.
He lives with his mom.
There are many things in his past that contribute to his way of acting..
its not always all black and white how people seem to see it.

And no, I wont just turn my back on him. I have known him too long to do that, we have a lot of history and I did my fair share which I am not innocent at all. Just because I ask something ( I dont mean you )
doesnt mean this defines my life or my relationship with him. A look with cards or whatever into the situation can never give the full picture.

Sorry for my rant. :/

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posted April 22, 2016 04:25 PM            

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At this point in my life not really.
I feel if I were to do that he would think I am following him around like a puppy.

I would want to if I find an apportunity but jobs abroad and everything. Idk..

I dont see it as a good idea now. I live alone, there is rent and bills, not much to go on for saving money.

How are you doing?
Feeling better?

Do you possibly use any email?
I want a break from this site but wish to keep in touch.

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posted April 22, 2016 04:41 PM            

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Send any time.
Thank you 😊

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posted April 22, 2016 04:44 PM            

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Poof!

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