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posted May 06, 2016 11:51 AM            

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I just did something crazy

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posted May 06, 2016 11:53 AM            

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Yes?

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posted May 06, 2016 11:58 AM            

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LOL, I am going to wait a bit until I say what it is... but I will share in a bit

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posted May 06, 2016 01:29 PM            

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My curiosity is definitely piqued!

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posted May 06, 2016 01:51 PM            

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Crazy? Do tell

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posted May 06, 2016 02:21 PM            

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LOL ok I will share, I sent this message to someone;

i will just be honest, because i would rather have you think that I am weird than push my insecurities onto you. and i say this with no expectations... but however many years ago that time we hooked up, i honestly did have it in my mind that you were my soulmate.yes, there were large amounts of lsd involved.. lol.. but i saw it, i felt it, and it made sense to me. but i was so insecure, that it was impossible for me at the time to even be normal or nice to you. i don’t know if you felt how i was feeling, or if it was a total delusion on my part..., i really don’t know and either way it is really is okay. but i felt like you were almost the male version of me, and i felt like it was some destined, beautiful thing.. until my ego came back into play, and i felt threatened and insecure and didn’t have enough clarity to be able to see what was happening, so i acted out of that place of ego and treated you poorly. i don’t know why but everytime i write something to you i feel so exposed, and i hate the feeling. and that is why i want to block you, because it is honestly the most uncomfortable feeling for me. anyways, i am sorry for acting out of insecurity towards you. i just wanted to be totally honest with you, if for no other reason than maybe it will give you some sort of confidence boost to know that you had so much of an effect on me . if you do want to respond, i would really like to know if what i felt you also felt… i can handle the truth, but if you don't feel like responding i'll respect that and either way i wish you the best and genuinely hope u find happiness

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posted May 06, 2016 03:24 PM            

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maybe it wasn't as exciting as I thought, lol. Felt like a huge deal to me to get that off my chest after so long

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posted May 06, 2016 03:29 PM            

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Is that O's best friend?

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posted May 06, 2016 03:31 PM            

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It's the Mercury retro that does that....reaching out to old flames or friends

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posted May 06, 2016 03:34 PM            

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Originally posted by Orange:
Is that O's best friend?

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LOL god you are too good of a private detective!!!!

yes, it is. his EX best friend... but I was actually with him before O... and I still don't have closure so I am happy to get it, whatever that looks like. I don't expect to be with him or anything, but I want clarity on what went on

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posted May 06, 2016 03:48 PM            

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Sorry if I intrude, I dn't know well the situation, but from what I read here, it's really good that you took if off your chest, just for the sake of it, because most importantly you didn't say something wrong about him, you only told him good things, so you should feel pretty relieved and calm right now and cudos for your strength doing that!

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posted May 06, 2016 04:31 PM            

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sometimes it's good to get things off our chest. It's hard when there is no closure or unfinished business especially feeling the way you did about him. I totally understand why you did it.

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posted May 06, 2016 04:41 PM            

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Oh man, do you guys have Moon-Pluto or Moon-Saturn and Moon-12th house synastry? Sounds like something someone could have written to me, or I to him. Never happened though.. I commend you.

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posted May 06, 2016 05:22 PM            

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Oh man, do you guys have Moon-Pluto or Moon-Saturn and Moon-12th house synastry? Sounds like something someone could have written to me, or I to him. Never happened though.. I commend you.

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we have
Pluto square Moon
Pluto square Venus &
Saturn trine moon

great, lol I am feeling lighter to have gotten it off my chest.. it was not easy to say but it was like a physical release to say those words

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posted May 06, 2016 05:26 PM            

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Originally posted by mar1982delta:
Sorry if I intrude, I dn't know well the situation, but from what I read here, it's really good that you took if off your chest, just for the sake of it, because most importantly you didn't say something wrong about him, you only told him good things, so you should feel pretty relieved and calm right now and cudos for your strength doing that!

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thank you so much my sweetie <3 I alway value your opinion and input! yes i am very happy to have gotten it off my chest.. it feels good!

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posted May 06, 2016 06:26 PM            

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Originally posted by missblyss:
thank you so much my sweetie <3 I alway value your opinion and input! yes i am very happy to have gotten it off my chest.. it feels good!

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Aw, you are welcome, I ve been there in a way, so I think I understand at least partially, if not completely (I don;t know the specifics, I mean, to compare to my past experience!) . I am glad that you feel this way, too, it's such a relief, isn;t it? And anyway, you said it right, if nothing else, it was a confidence boost for him, so why not do this after all? It helped both of you, one way or another, other than that, the future is unknown! (at least to me, who I am not an intuitive, hahahaha )
Thanks for your kind words, I really appreciate them, even more coming from you, lol

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posted May 07, 2016 01:50 AM            

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Kudos! Very cathartic and cleansing. Love it!

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posted May 07, 2016 10:57 AM            

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Originally posted by SpiritualSadie:
Kudos! Very cathartic and cleansing. Love it!

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hehe thanks my sweets!!! it does feel SO very cleansing. my update is that he did read it and hasn't responded. Interestinly enough, his brother and my best friend's brother are graduating college together now.. So my best friend happens to be seeing him... Haha Will see if she gets any intel.

Want to know what prompted the message? When I found out my friend was with him, I told her "tell him to send me a d*** pic" LOL.. (SHUTUP ARIES VENUS)

Then I realized how immature I was being, to objectify him in such a way. it showed me the real unresolved feelings i have towards him...SO that is what prompted the self-evaluation that led to the message

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