posted July 15, 2016 03:19 PM            

What is your question?

Mine would be:
What is the underlying reason for my psychosomatic condition currently (once again imagining I cannot swallow properly, which is total crap, but leads me to observe myself so intently that any normal and natural physical reaction is warped and prohibited, which fuels my hypochandric tendency. Well at least i know this abuot me. Just curious why now?)

Maybe the underlying question is: What is (psychologically) "hard to swallow" or to incorporate for me at the current time?

posted July 15, 2016 04:37 PM            

-Will I be able to do my drivers license examn on 3th august?

posted July 15, 2016 04:47 PM            

Hmm, it doesn`t look like it to me.
Maybe there will be some re-scheduling?

I tried with tarot

5 of pentacles - 9 of swords - Judgement

I think that is a NO, too, and I think with Judgement coming up, there will be certainly a rescheduling taking place.

I asked will you make your driving licence at another date near to the 3rd?

tree - heart - Rider

posted July 15, 2016 04:58 PM            

10 of pentacles clarified by Lovers - High priestess - 7 of pentacles - 5 of cups

Maybe you have already "swallowed" way too much about something, and there is no more place inside yourself to swallow. This probably has to do with your financial life, or work, or maybe family, do you have kids? Ill say family related doubts, regrets, a lot of loneliness, all those themes, something about them makes you sad and instead of letting it all out, you close them inside of yourself. U know what I mean? Its like you are kinda afraid to express yourself, maybe cause you find it childish or u think that if u let these sad things express out of yourself no one will listen to you

does this make any sense to you?

posted July 15, 2016 05:00 PM            

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Originally posted by thequeen:
nvm, sorry for not keeping track.
... can we exchange on another one if you are up to it. what does A feel about me? if not it's totally cool

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sure! my question would be, will I hang out with T this weekend?

posted July 15, 2016 05:03 PM            

6 of wands - 10 of wands clarified by 7 of swords - Star - 10 of swords

Hmmm I dont really like this.. its like he feels you are just one of his conquers. Its like a trophy wife. "Look who I got to conquer, yall should adore me for this". But now things are getting tough for him with you, something normal between two people, where things get kinda hard or not so easy and there has to be balance, harmony, commitment. But he doesnt seem to be really commited to you or commited to solving any problems between you two. And anytime something kinda bad or slightly inconvenient happens, you can see him "running away", sneaking off. His mind is probably on other things and its like he doesnt see reality with you...

posted July 15, 2016 05:13 PM            

I think it is the rescheduling in your spread, and how intereting that I got the 5th august, too!

Anyway, yes I think your spread does make sense, I feel I am presently a little too much under observation of my mother again. Happens from time to time; well I have great parents, very supportive, but sometimes it feels like it is too much, like I canīt ever even say `No` to their offers to help, without hurting especially my mom badly.
And sometimes I get tired of this. (on the other hand I know she means well and she has great advice and can help me especially with house-hold things I really suck at. lol But sometimes her Virgo-stellium clashes with my Sag-stellium badly. ).

Apart from that I wonder if maybe despite all that expectation and joy about my brother`s and his girlfriend`s upcoming baby-birth, on some level I regret not ever having had one myself (not that I really wanted in past years!) and being very aware of that I am never going to have a child.

It`s noone else`s fault but my own, and I think my greatest fault was not making a wrong decision but never making a decision AT ALL!!!
Instead I spent years of my 20`s and even 30`s with stuffing as much food into my mouth as I could find, just to not feel anything or having to face making a decision about my private life or something like that.

I wonder if there is a direct relation between that, I mean I was putting stuff into my mouth and throat for years (which was unhealthy), but now I sometimes have the feeling as if I could not swallow one more thing.
I guess I need to be a bit careful to not slip from one eating disorder into another one.

There`s also, I guess, on another - non-family-relation-level-, well too many things I did not say. I just swallowed it all down.
So being more communicative now might directly indicate that as well, not being able to stuff it all down anymore.

posted July 15, 2016 05:19 PM            

I understand you, do u have an aquarius south node or smthing like that? hahaha cause thats what an Aqua SN would do, Nothing. In any case, you are still living and still have chances to make decisions

Im happy I kinda helped you with this and the good thing is that you are conscious of everything that goes in your life

posted July 15, 2016 05:24 PM            

no, no Aqua-SN. Just Aqua-Moon, Gemini-SN on DESC though. Neptune on ASC. Decisions are not my forte! lol

But you are right, instead of regretting the chances I missed, taking those that still present themselves.

I think I feel my life changing, and it is a challenge for me, as it demands a different way of acting from me, without safety net, trusting my instincts and feelings for once, and I donīt really have a concept of this, a plan, or to-do-list, I can tick of.

posted July 15, 2016 05:25 PM            

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Originally posted by lilypad18:
@Ceri yeah, its actually really interesting cause you couldve easily said 4 or 2 or 1 hahahah

I understand you, do u have an aquarius south node or smthing like that? hahaha cause thats what an Aqua SN would do, Nothing. In any case, you are still living and still have chances to make decisions

Im happy I kinda helped you with this and the good thing is that you are conscious of everything that goes in your life

@thequeen, ohh, sorry for not being completely resonating with whats going on, weird how I picked up ur energy instead of his

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posted July 15, 2016 05:27 PM            

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Originally posted by Ceridwen:
Lily,

no, no Aqua-SN. Just Aqua-Moon, Gemini-SN on DESC though. Neptune on ASC. Decisions are not my forte! lol

But you are right, instead of regretting the chances I missed, taking those that still present themselves.

I think I feel my life changing, and it is a challenge for me, as it demands a different way of acting from me, without safety net, trusting my instincts and feelings for once, and I donīt really have a concept of this, a plan, or to-do-list, I can tick of.

It`s just a feeling of course, might be wrong, but just that feeling of change being imminent. Fixed Moons do not like changes too much. lol

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well, I beg to differ hahaha changes are good and usually for the better, but yeah its hard to change sometimes

posted July 15, 2016 05:29 PM            

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Originally posted by thequeen:
[QUOTE]Originally posted by lilypad18:
[b]@Ceri yeah, its actually really interesting cause you couldve easily said 4 or 2 or 1 hahahah

I understand you, do u have an aquarius south node or smthing like that? hahaha cause thats what an Aqua SN would do, Nothing. In any case, you are still living and still have chances to make decisions

Im happy I kinda helped you with this and the good thing is that you are conscious of everything that goes in your life

@thequeen, ohh, sorry for not being completely resonating with whats going on, weird how I picked up ur energy instead of his

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posted July 15, 2016 06:45 PM            

mine: What are T's feelings for me?

posted July 15, 2016 07:22 PM            

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Originally posted by mooninaries94:
I mean he may be trying to get from you, your feelings, seeing if you are also interested, before open himself.

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ohh okay I get it now