posted July 15, 2016 03:47 PM            

a short back story to what happened the last few years. long story short, i basically had a mid-life crises, breakdown, a dark night of the soul. this went on once i hit my 30s. i was in a very complicated, very archetypal relationship which mirrored all of my dark shadows that i needed to integrate within my psyche. this, and other things that happened in my life, and the friendships i had as well which catapulted into all this inner work, going within journey.

i left my very stressful, demanding job to save myself. i became really sick physically, mentally, and emotionally. i had adrenal fatigue which is an imbalance of the stress hormone cortisol -- plus i felt i also suffered PTSD (childhood traumas being triggered, came up)

at first, this going into the pits of the 'cave' happened for almost 2 years... then i came back to work, then another breakdown happened this last time around (so overall i've been going through this for over 4 plus years, with that gap in between). ever since then, i've been literally fighting for my life. the first year or so, it was very intense. there was this feeling of 'soul death' ....long story short, i stumbled upon the works of Carl Jung, which totally gave me light (insights) as to what the heck is going on with me!! that totally pushed and helped me to getting out of this 'cave'. over 2 years later, here i am, still struggling a bit, but healthier, and i feel like i am becoming back to Self once again.

throughout this journey, i wasn't healthy and did not have the energy to seek for another job, so i gave myself the time to heal. in between, when i would have the energy to even search for a job, i went to a couple of interviews. one of them (the one i really wanted) almost offered me the position, but then something happened where the company had to reasses the position, so that didn't work out.

so there is this feeling of 'bad luck' or almost there, but no cigar sort of theme happening with me in regards to my job search. i want to SEE what is going on in my transit chart that would validate this? if so, when will i ever get things running again? i used to be very, very good with manifestation, and making things happen. that was part of my career. and i LOVED doing it. but ever since this hard times in my life, it's SO hard to even motivate or gather energy to make something happen. I miss it, and would love to regain it back.

thank you

*PLEASE DON'T QUOTE

posted July 15, 2016 04:16 PM            

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Originally posted by Faith:
This will probably get moved to Personal Readings and then I will try to help.

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thank you Faith!! (love that name, so fitting coz i need it!!)

i will send you a reminder, if Randall chooses to move it

posted July 15, 2016 05:14 PM            

Don't worry, this is all TRANSITS. I figured that out just today. I was thinking, "is my life destroyed," but then I somehow saw my chart afresh and recognized that it was various bumping and grinding from the T-square. Like you, I was a very good manifester and I was in a pretty high-vibe place when everything turned to sh*t!!

I love your critical degree 12th house Leo Jupiter--it tells me that your struggles with mental health and negativity during this rough patch will only make your ability to manifest in your career and life stronger and more creative in the future.

posted July 15, 2016 10:04 PM            

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Originally posted by Lucia23:
Do not fear!! It's that cardinal t-square/grand cross energy that's been hanging around for a few years putting a vice grip on the charts of those of us who have key cardinal planets. For you, t-Uranus has been opposing your natal Moon-Pluto (moving closer into an opposition with your Pluto, further from the Moon). T-Pluto has been grinding around your Venus, and, although your natal Saturn-Venus contact is a trine, not a really rough aspect like a square or conjunction, Saturn-Venus contact can be challenging and painful and T-Pluto has set this off. Basically, your 1st house Virgo Saturn got rattled up, its nerves frayed.

Don't worry, this is all TRANSITS. I figured that out just today. I was thinking, "is my life destroyed," but then I somehow saw my chart afresh and recognized that it was various bumping and grinding from the T-square. Like you, I was a very good manifester and I was in a pretty high-vibe place when everything turned to sh*t!!

I love your critical degree 12th house Leo Jupiter--it tells me that your struggles with mental health and negativity during this rough patch will only make your ability to manifest in your career and life stronger and more creative in the future.

Hang in there.

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This is excellent, Lucia.

"T-Pluto has been grinding around your Venus"

Venus rules your MC so this is particularly telling....Pluto on the MC ruler shows extremes, hardship, transformation, endings.

Then, Venus' ruler Saturn is opposed by transiting Neptune.

Your Venusian moon is opposed by transiting Uranus.

It's all going down at once, with the planets associated with your MC.

You may feel stuck, but I think that feeling is challenging you to change things in preparation for your progressed Venus coming into a conjunction with your natal sun. I feel that this could be a time when all the hard lessons you are learning now will be converted into beauty, wisdom, experience that makes your progressed Venus just GLOW, and your Venus-ruled MC will light up accordingly.

It's not hopeless now, but there's a chance that life is protecting you from getting locked into something prematurely.

Your progressed moon in Pisces (is conjunct my moon so HI ) is highly sensitive and conjunct your natal south node, picking up a lot of resonance from the past and also revitalizing your sensitivities and sharpening your instincts. This is going to come in handy when your progressed moon heads into Aries and you have some of your mojo back...along with that deeper understanding of how your sensitivity functions, what it can do for you, what it is demanding from you in terms of limitations (meaning, you may have to be super picky about which job you want, and THEN once you are in the right niche, THEN the luck and manifestation begins!)

You are kind of in a monk phase now, I do see that, and if you can just have that in perspective as you calmly look around and contemplate your next move, I think you might get more out of this time period than if you were to fight it or think you are flawed or whatever theories you come up with.

No, you are a little stuck, but it's nature's "retreat"....it's a time for taking stock of everything you are and what you love and need....before taking a much bigger leap in the near future. (When your progressed Venus is conjunct your sun, and your progressed moon moves past Mars and into Aries, joining your sun and Mercury there. THEN it's more of a time to get moving.)

I'm not a real astrologer, but it looks like that to me!

Use this energy as you have been, to recover, build inner strength and clarity, and positivity.

posted July 15, 2016 11:18 PM            

i guess i just have to keep bumpin' and grindin' with Venus and Pluto on top of each other

Faith, you said "It's not hopeless now, but there's a chance that life is protecting you from getting locked into something prematurely. "

i actually felt this a couple of times this week and in regards to why i have bad timing with jobs atm. .... i do feel i am being guided by spirit. It's just frustrating, because i do want to get out of this 'monk' phase already! it's been a couple of years.... gosh

posted July 16, 2016 09:35 AM            

I would just say, experiment with progressing your chart, see when progressed Venus is right on your sun. Then see when your progressed moon is conjunct Mars, and when it enters Aries. All happening next year, I think?

posted July 16, 2016 10:16 AM            

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Originally posted by Lucia23:
Do not fear!! It's that cardinal t-square/grand cross energy that's been hanging around for a few years putting a vice grip on the charts of those of us who have key cardinal planets.

Hang in there.

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question when you said key cardinal planets? i think i have more a fixed sign planet ruled in my natal chart

posted July 16, 2016 10:30 AM            

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Originally posted by Faith:
I tried to duplicate your chart but can't figure out where you were born.

I would just say, experiment with progressing your chart, see when progressed Venus is right on your sun. Then see when your progressed moon is conjunct Mars, and when it enters Aries. All happening next year, I think?

Your luck could change before then! I just think that will be a better time for you, career-wise, even if you are already employed.

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Faith, i did a transit same day for July 16, 2017 ... and my prog venus is right on top of my natal sun. i don't know how to read about my prog moon conj my natal mars though.... here's my chart and birth place... thank you

posted July 16, 2016 01:16 PM            

1) On October 17th of this year, your progressed moon will be conjunct your progressed Mars @ 21 Pisces, trine your progressed Uranus @ 20 Scorpio. On that day transiting Mars will be conjunct your Venus, the transiting sun will be @ 24 Libra conjunct your moon, transiting Venus @ 28 Scorpio sextile your pr ASC and trine your pr moon. I would try for an interview close to that date! A day or two before makes the pr moon-Mars conjunction more exact, a day or two after makes the transiting sun more exactly on your moon.

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2) May 27th-28th, 2017, your pr moon enters Aries. At that time:

28 Aqua, your pr Venus on your sun
26 Aries, transiting Uranus
24 Gemini, transiting Mars
26 Gemini, your progressed MC
-- moon transiting Gemini on the 27th
27 Leo, transiting NN
25 Sag, transiting Saturn

Harmonizing planets forming Grand Sextile with your moon!

Keep an eye on the end of May!

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3) April 18th, 2017, your progressed Venus will be conjunct your sun exact.

In that time frame, you have transiting Saturn squaring your progressed moon and Mercury. Saturn square mercury can make for some strenuous yet constructive and impressive thinking.

You also have Jupiter transiting trine your progressed moon-Mercury.

Transiting Venus at 26 Pisces will be exact on your pr DSC exact that day, along with transiting Chiron at 26 Pisces, and your pr moon. Transiting Mars at 26 Taurus is sextile all that. Hmmmm

I don't know what it is, but it looks significant, too.

posted July 16, 2016 01:44 PM            

I will look forward to those dates. Your insights and help are literally giving me faith with all this!

posted July 16, 2016 02:09 PM            

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Originally posted by bluestskies88:
question when you said key cardinal planets? i think i have more a fixed sign planet ruled in my natal chart

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posted July 16, 2016 02:16 PM            

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Originally posted by Lucia23:
Your Venus, Moon and Pluto.

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oh ok. cardinal signs are the signs that DO correct? get things done? initiate things?

@ faith -- you said earlier .... Then, Venus' ruler Saturn is opposed by transiting Neptune.

what does Venus ruler Saturn mean? My Saturn is in Virgo, which is ruled by Mercury.

posted July 17, 2016 11:25 AM            

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Originally posted by Faith:
Because your Venus is in Capricorn, it's ruled by Saturn.

Some say "disposited by" Saturn.

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i see....thank u