posted August 12, 2016 06:09 AM            

Lately I have been feeling that the connection I had with God is kind of becoming weary. I used to pray a lot and be a real good devotee, or let's say I used to feel God's presence with me all the time. I felt protected and confident that nothing wrong could come my way.

But nowadays I feel the connection some what missing, I still feel like He is there with me but I don't get the chills which on seeing anything emotional used to come to me. I had gooseflesh every time I saw something touching my heart, let's say a song, or an accident, a touching video but all these traits seem to be missing now.

Why is the connection seemingly a little gone sort of? I really wish to be the same heartfelt person again, I mean, I still am but the intensity has reduced considerably. I can't pour my heart in a similar way anymore. Things don't seem to touch my heart so easily anymore, it really needs to be too heartfelt from someone's else end to reach me, a song or anything.

posted August 12, 2016 08:24 AM            

I will try to help you as much as I can.

What I get is that your expectations have been shattered and you lost a lot of trust in some people which closed you off to free flowing love.
I am also getting some fear in you, closed up emotions, not saying what you think or feel, I get like someone disappointed you or made you feel like you need to put a wall up.
This is what is closing you to the love of God you felt clearer before. So Its a matter of letting your emotions down and not being scared to be open.
There is a cliche in you,like you feel all has been said and done and you are wanting to feel somethin new.
Thats what I get like you are needing new emotions, like you saw all and need something new to pick you up.

posted August 12, 2016 09:37 AM            

Quite a lot of people I loved and knew for a long duration of time ( 12 years, 10 years or like that) i.e from my childhood left me in the cold feeling betrayed. Don't know if it was right on their part, but certainly it hurt me a lot then and now I have no sense or numbness in regard to them. Have I matured? It this maturity all about?

Yes, I too feel it has to do with my heart chakra, like I just don't feel anything at all, no love, nothing and that is so bizarre, it's like I am a completely new person now, and not in a good way, I mean I don't feel anymore…

You are absolutely right, in fact, today only I was feeling I need new positive people in my life, whoever has gone has gone. I don't even feel betrayed now, I feel like those people never really existed in my life. Maybe it is also because they have moved on and so there is no connection to that pure bond I had with them anymore.

I am trying meditation in fact I got new incense sticks and things to help me meditate or if not, then make me feel closer to God, maybe that will open up it for me and I might feel fresh and positive.

posted August 12, 2016 10:32 AM            

I am not sure if its maturing, in a way it is, you learned to let go, forgive without saying anything, you accepted the feeling is what I would say.
Its a powerful thing, freeing to forgive for your own sake it will help you feel new energy you desire.

Yes, whatever you felt to do is the right thing to do, what your heart tells you is the right thing and you need to listen to that.
Your heart is your connection to God and the new energy you want. So whatever you feel is what you should be doing.

posted August 12, 2016 12:26 PM            

Star, Page of Swords rx, 3 of Cups rx, Lovers rx, Fool

Clarifier- Queen of Wands rx

Next week you will be going through a rebirth. The pain you have been culminating till now will come to a fruition and conclusion. You may come across a fire woman who will be rude and your mind will be set on her, or she would be some sort of influence on you, or either this woman could be denoting you as you may find yourself quite relieved and may act a little bossy around.

You are going to enjoy a lot next week and probably waiting for some sort of communication that has still not come your way. It feels there is a little more waiting to do on your end. With 3 of Cups here there might me a lot of fun at your end, you may feel totally wasted along with your friends or family, or else if you're alone on the vacation this will come out real good time for you.

There may be some sort of issue coming up with a love relationship but you will not pay it much heed as in you will feel whatever happens let it be, and take a more light approach trying not to spoil your vacation.

You want to be in full fledged happy mood and enjoy your vacation to the fullest. So, even if something significant/alarming happens on your end you will take a very soft attitude towards it and all this just in order to retain your sanity.

posted August 12, 2016 12:33 PM            

3 of cups is prob the other woman around A and not fun.
I had no fun and know noone here so not going to be having any fun on the rest of my trip.

Im far away from a full happy mood so I cant feel any worse than now.

I dont see how I will have a real good time. Sorry.
It sux being alone and I have been spending most my days alone

posted August 12, 2016 12:41 PM            

Just let me know what happens after next week... I am sorry if it doesn't resonate though….

posted August 12, 2016 02:05 PM            

Will anything happen tomorrow and/or sunday that may stand out?

posted August 12, 2016 02:25 PM            

Clarifier - Hierophant

I don't know as you said that you are in a very off state right now but I got really good cards for you. Even when I use reversals all cards are upright and upbeat for you.

It feels a wave of positivity is going to hit you somehow. Something that was unfair in your life is going to find a way to express itself. Someone might contact you, I don't know if they will but someone will be very generous towards you. A person who always follows the social norms will do something good for you.

With Sun here there can nothing wrong here except for positivity. Either you will involve in team work or a setting where 3 people are involved may come to surface. You may attend some ceremony or party and will be thrilled to hear from a soulmate, not necessarily romantic but a person who understands you very well will talk to you or you will come across him/her.

posted August 12, 2016 02:29 PM            

No party or ceremony Im sure of this.

Thank you!!

posted August 12, 2016 02:46 PM            

I have to talk to him at first if it's not this Sat/Sun because his birthday will be very early next week. I think he is missing me too even if he is angry. He changed his status today in regards to me…I specially felt his anxious energy today… It feels like he knows if I think of him because he mentioned it to me, that if I miss him he comes to know… or that he feels it… I will contact him on his birthday… and I think he is waiting for that.. I just hope he doesn't fight with me when I contact him… He is very short tempered…