posted September 03, 2016 05:43 PM            

sorry I just hang up the phone and wanted to do a reading for you.

posted September 03, 2016 05:53 PM            

he just told me he is coming home tomorrow, and that as soon as he gets home hell call to hang out IM SO EXCITEDDDDD hahahahahha

hey Ceri I actually have a question

posted September 03, 2016 06:05 PM            

Yes definitely, success is destined! However I think you should use that crosstrainer for ensuring the success.
For some reason the cross made me think of working out for reaching your goal (or just putting some effort in there).

posted September 03, 2016 07:52 PM            

Okay so, something along the lines of something ending, some phase, and that it's going to be for the better, fated, and the situation changing will give u th power to go along with it and to calm yourself down too. Or maybe not even calm down, just have some rest in your mind,

was it shared?

posted September 04, 2016 06:55 AM            

The dream was basically about P and me having "the Talk". lol
We have been practically pushed together by third party, who apparently had had enough of us sneaking around each other. The talk, well there were still some things left unsaid, but a lot was being brought up to the table. Mostly about the past, about lost chances, missed opportunities, misunderstandings, confusions, our feelings, the acknowledgement of the current situation of course, but also about feelings still running between us, though having changed (becoming more "real-life feelings" than what was before), but I am hazy on that part, I think this might have belonged to what was still not verbalized.
It was a very serious sincere honest talk, but also emotionally exhausting because of the sincerity involved and the realism of course, too.
There were also tears (mostly on his side interesting, though I think I cried a little, too), and a kiss happened, yes.
At the end of it he got up saying he had to go back to his wife and kids (to get them home as it was past his kids bedtime, it was a very everyday-kind of thing somehow, but I got the feeling it was not that big proclamation to never wanting to see me again, but more like putting the past to rest so we could move forward from it, being on the same level of awareness, and leave it behind. Though at the same time the sense of connectedness was almost stronger than it was in the years before, but in a calmer, more earthy and grounded way somehow, and with the knowledge that there were still things we would have to talk about, but not at that time.)

Anyway he got up, after saying he had to go back to his wife and kids and was looking at me like he expected me to say something or do something, but I just smiled at him and said: "You are a good man, P."

And that was the dream.

Now, why do I think that there was something peculiar going on that set it apart from other dreams?

1. the feeling of realness

2. the same athmosphere as the last dream, in which he was showing me the toilets in a house, and just a week later or so on the concert it was in front of the toilets that we met each other. lol

3. Well, he has been growing a fullbeard for weeks, but in the dream I clearly noticed that this full beard was gone, it was more like having stubbles.

Which made me think my subconsciousness changed reality in the dream as dream Selves do.

However when I woke up and checked my computer, I saw he had posted a picture of himself saying
"The beard is gone".

So in between the afternoon/ evening I had that dream and the following morning he must have had his beard cut, and in a style as I exactly dreamed it.
Which sort of made me think it was a weird coincidence.

the 9 of swords in this instance makes sense to me, as it is a card dealing with dreams/ nightmares/anxiety/ much mental activity and approaching the end of a mental cycle - and that was exactly what the dream was about on a level.

posted September 04, 2016 01:49 PM            

update: the 2 of cups u saw with me and T, weren't accurate, I'm done with him