posted October 19, 2016 07:50 PM            

I'll do 5 pretty in-depth (a paragraph or two) readings for the first five people to leave a q, or if the list fills up quickly and you didn't make it on but would like a reading, we can exchange!

1. erickaf
2. Caprika
3. whisperx
4. pixieangel (will be back soon!)
5. dustib (will be back soon!)

Getting started now!

posted October 19, 2016 07:56 PM            

On my love relationship.
I wonder what the future holds for it.

posted October 19, 2016 08:30 PM            

Hi girl!

Okay, first of all: when I started pulling your cards one of my favorite songs came on. It's a song that talks about being...feeling like you are the luckiest person, but not believing it. Much like you're just stunned and aghast at the fact you could have something so awesome happen to you. I'm not sure if that resonates at all, or if you guys met really serendipitously and things felt too good to be true, but I love this song and that it came on because it always makes me imagine really surreal romantic feelings about someone...but it could also mean that you were both blind to the things that eventually ended up breaking you apart from one another.

Okay, onto the cards. For one, I pulled all wands for you, which are rules by fire, so keep that in mind. A sort of exciting, consuming, prone to growing and spreading and not being easily contained sort of elemental spirit. It also indicates the query exists mostly in the mind at this point, something that is just starting and has not yet happened. So maybe you're just starting to think about a future together again and what that might mean.

4 WANDS - 8 WANDS - 2 WANDS

The 4W is actually a really good card, and it usually means some sort of completion of something has happened. Kind of like...time to party, good **** is happening soon! 8W is sudden change though, did you recently break things off with M? It's a card that speaks largely to movement, changes, news, or clarity FINALLY on something that had been unresolved or bothering you. It's like a lightning strike effect (literally the imagery used in the deck I use), and can also kind of speak to like...things just being blurted out or happening without much thought put into it. I really feel like things with M literally swept you both off your feet and things hurtled forward at too fast a pace to be sustainable. Is that right at all? The 2W in the future points to determination and direction and deals heavily with the mind and how you think about/treat yourself. It also speaks to a decision you have to make, literally a fork in the road. I want to say that there is something about the way YOU were in the relationship that really made you question yourself or who you were becoming, and that's why things ended. The 8 + 2 also both deal with travel, is there something that would be pulling you away from M either physically or mentally somehow? Getting lost in your thoughts (could even be you came to a crossroads with M because of a big mental discrepancy like ummm religion or not agreeing on wanting to start a family, something big) or literally having to relocate? Maybe someone is foreign or can't stay put or something? Those would be the physical manifestations of the pairing. I think it's more about you really thinking about WHERE to take this relationship next though.

posted October 19, 2016 08:52 PM            

Hi lovely!

A song also started right when I was pulling for you--I'm really into music and the ambience and power it has for situations, so, like when a song started for erickaf, I thought it was unusual a new one started for your reading as well. You can disregard if you're not into this sort of thing, but check out Let Me Down Easy by Max Frost. It's a song about questioning yourself and whether or not the other person is going to cut things off/always being in suspense, which seems fitting for what you've said.

Onto the reading....

PAGE OF WANDS - THREE OF WANDS

fell out as I was shuffling. I assume these stand for you and M. Page of Wands is all about action, excitement and passion. Someone who likes to start things, but maybe not finish them, who has interests all over the place and a true joie de vivre, someone visionary and a true force to be reckoned with. Three Wands is someone who has had a lot of support from others, but who needs to learn to rely on themselves more. Goals and hopes for the future probably aren't super clear for this person, but they need to figure it out and do it soon if they want others to also be able to plan to be with them too. It's a sort of muddy, not so much forward-thinking card, just sort of "waiting for something to happen" without pursuing anything sort of mentality.

ACE OF PENTACLES (Rx) - 4 SWORDS (Rx) - 6 PENTACLES

The Ace of Pentacles is all about beginnings, but reversed here I want to say that there is something about you and M that didn't really take root in order to seed into the prosperous commitment it could have been. There is something not grounded about you two (of course, you said this was a turbulent up/down relationship, so that makes sense). Four of Swords reversed indicates the same, a time of unrest and sort of rocky happenings. Generally in romantic readings I like to think of the 4 of Swords as an indication that you need to pull back a little bit and potentially even create space by taking a break to figure things out, but that it will be temporary (unless the future card isn't a great one). In this case, the 6 of Pentacles is a fairly good card, focusing on a sort of exchange between the two of you if you can both outline what you expect from one another and are happy with what the other one needs. Compromise, and being okay with it, really. Though I would warn against the roles you feel you have to play in this relationship since the Ace and the 6 both point to monetary sort of things, which historically were like...the man being the breadwinner and the woman being the housewife who made a comfortable home for him (or whichever way this plays out, I'm never sure if people on here are in hetero or same-sex relationships, but the roles generally apply to the balance in relationships).

posted October 19, 2016 09:13 PM            

I think A is actually pretty upset and didn't feel like you were putting enough work into the relationship. S/he may have moved past that, but I think A sees you as a sort of threat, someone more attractive than they are, and s/he's scared that you're going to move on faster and that it's going to hurt, but that it's manifesting more as a bit of passive-agressive anger which is hard to see as full-blown anger/insecurity, but you feel it, even if you're not experiencing that firsthand. S/he's really holding themself back with this, to be honest. It's a very hostile, "stuck" sort of feeling I'm getting, A just dwelling in the negative and not allowing themself to move out of that black cloud. Almost like A wants to feel a combo mad + miserable because at least it lets him/her feel something rather than having to deal with sadness.

DEVIL - 7 PENTACLES (Rx) - PAGE OF WANDS

posted October 19, 2016 09:39 PM            

you did read correctly that our relationship didnt start off on an even balance and something was missing from the start, it was some outside influences that didnt let the relationship take off completly.

posted October 20, 2016 04:31 AM            

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Originally posted by calliope23:
erickaf:

Hi girl!

Okay, first of all: when I started pulling your cards one of my favorite songs came on. It's a song that talks about being...feeling like you are the luckiest person, but not believing it. Much like you're just stunned and aghast at the fact you could have something so awesome happen to you. I'm not sure if that resonates at all, or if you guys met really serendipitously and things felt too good to be true, but I love this song and that it came on because it always makes me imagine really surreal romantic feelings about someone...but it could also mean that you were both blind to the things that eventually ended up breaking you apart from one another.

Okay, onto the cards. For one, I pulled all wands for you, which are rules by fire, so keep that in mind. A sort of exciting, consuming, prone to growing and spreading and not being easily contained sort of elemental spirit. It also indicates the query exists mostly in the mind at this point, something that is just starting and has not yet happened. So maybe you're just starting to think about a future together again and what that might mean.

4 WANDS - 8 WANDS - 2 WANDS

The 4W is actually a really good card, and it usually means some sort of completion of something has happened. Kind of like...time to party, good **** is happening soon! 8W is sudden change though, did you recently break things off with M? It's a card that speaks largely to movement, changes, news, or clarity FINALLY on something that had been unresolved or bothering you. It's like a lightning strike effect (literally the imagery used in the deck I use), and can also kind of speak to like...things just being blurted out or happening without much thought put into it. I really feel like things with M literally swept you both off your feet and things hurtled forward at too fast a pace to be sustainable. Is that right at all? The 2W in the future points to determination and direction and deals heavily with the mind and how you think about/treat yourself. It also speaks to a decision you have to make, literally a fork in the road. I want to say that there is something about the way YOU were in the relationship that really made you question yourself or who you were becoming, and that's why things ended. The 8 + 2 also both deal with travel, is there something that would be pulling you away from M either physically or mentally somehow? Getting lost in your thoughts (could even be you came to a crossroads with M because of a big mental discrepancy like ummm religion or not agreeing on wanting to start a family, something big) or literally having to relocate? Maybe someone is foreign or can't stay put or something? Those would be the physical manifestations of the pairing. I think it's more about you really thinking about WHERE to take this relationship next though.

All in all, what I'm getting is that things felt so right that they escalated quickly, then things changed quickly, and now you're questioning if what the relationship has created for you is really right at all. So I pulled a clarifier, which is Strength. Literally telling you to believe in yourself and what your gut is telling you. Be patient and composed with your decision, have self-control and focus...trust yourself. And curb temper, or the temper between you and M! Because everything you need to know and the power to do it is already within you, you just need to recognize that it's there.

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