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Topic: My mom died and I feel like I'm dying too. Can someone be nice?
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MilaBirkin
Knowflake Posts: 892
From: Cordoba, Argentina
Registered: Jul 2015
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posted November 14, 2016 09:53 PM
  
I'm 21. I feel so sad all the time but I can smile and laugh and I have a lot of hope but I feel like I'm never gonna stop to needing my mom. She is not just my mom, she is the only person that make me feel loved, complete and without her I don't know what to do. We had so many plans together, like going to dance classes, singing classes, acting classes, boxing, and more. I feel like I'm dying and I can't talk about this to anyone because I don't want to make anyone feel uncomfortable and everyone wants me to be happy. I want that too but the time is passing and everything is starting to be more intense and I can't expect, I can't say to someone “hey, please, take care of me like my mother did“. I'm a little bit cold, I know a lot of people but I'm not close to anyone.
I want a present. I need nice things in my life. My mom died with so much pain, she had terminal cancer and a virus from the hospital????, on the last full moon n October (Sun and Moon square my mom's Sun-Ascendant and my Moon). And I felt it, I felt when she was dying, I was sleeping and I woke up scared, I cried and screamed so bad and she was dying at that same moment. I've always had this type of situations in my life. And we were so connected.
Please I need something, a love reading for example, I cried today and it was mostly because of my mom but also because a guy I love and care did something I didn't like it. Or a career reading. Or a natal chart reading. I don't know.
I wish I can post the synastry with my mom but this is not the right place.
Oh, please. I need something. My mom is the only reason why I never did a crazy thing while being depressed all this last years. So, seriously, she is not just my mom.
Sometimes I feel like everything is a dream or like my mom never existed... I don't have a good memory. And that makes me sad. I don't have more than one video with her. I need her so much  . Everyday is getting worse and worse. And I don't feel comfortable talking with anyone about this.Thanks in advance and sorry if I misspelled. This is my natal chart:  This is my mom's natal chart:  IP: Logged |
furrybunny
Knowflake Posts: 1403
From: NYC
Registered: Dec 2014
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posted November 14, 2016 10:08 PM
My condolences Mila. I can't even imagine the pain you are going through. Just know everything will always get better even if you do not see it now. I can help answer a questions using intuition and tarot but I'm not super skilled like some on LL in astrology / synastry. I do notice you have sun and moon in water so that might indicate why u feel things so strongly and possibly have intutivie tendencies if you exp it frequently. Just leave your question. many xoxo IP: Logged |
Peluches
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From: my heart
Registered: Jul 2014
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posted November 14, 2016 10:11 PM
Oh, Mila, Mila, don't be sad... I can take care of you... not right now in real life, because that would be a little hard, but... I promise, I promise to love you and never let you down, I promise to try my best to make you happy again... Let's start with a tight hug, okay ? I want to know there's a beautiful, beautiful smile on your face   IP: Logged |
Peluches
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posted November 14, 2016 10:17 PM
(You can contact me by email, it's in my profile. )Stay strong, Mila  IP: Logged |
LunarLove
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posted November 15, 2016 01:40 AM
Mila, my heart goes out to you. Wow, your bond with your mom is so beautiful, and looking at your charts I can totally see that. My moon is conjunct yours, at 29degrees, and also in the 3rd house, and I feel very moved by your post.
My mom had cancer when I was 9, though she survived, but was never the same after that and that, for me was painful. I always wished to have a close bond with my mom, like you did with yours, though it didn't work that way, I still love her more than anyone has ever loved me. A deep, pain, I know this feeling- it is the lunar in us.
Looking at your chart, and your moms is really beautiful. Your mom has her leo planets in your 4th house, which is the house of the moon/mother and her sun and ascendant are conjunct your moon.
I will pull a few unicorn cards for you...
Okay I asked for any guidance for you during this grieving time:Try Something New: "You'll only know that you can do something if you try!" Forgive:
" Its time to let go of anger and blame." Love From Your Parents: "No matter what, your mother and father love you as much as they can" I hope I helped a little bit. You are in my heart and my thoughts during this time and onwards. IP: Logged |
GeminiKarat
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From: Austria
Registered: Jun 2014
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posted November 15, 2016 07:13 AM
My deepest condolence.  IP: Logged |
LunarLove
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posted November 18, 2016 02:10 AM
Just checking in Mila, the moon is in cancer now. ❤️IP: Logged |
EmpressMendez
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posted November 18, 2016 06:34 PM
I'm deeply sorry for your loss . I know how that feeling goes..it happened to me when my daughter almost died (God forbid). Try to meditate and connect with your good and light spirit guides. There are many helpful videos on Youtube which may aid you for this. I worry a lot about my family especially my mother because she is just as you described to me. If you can post your natal chart and hers with transits I might be able to clue you in a bit, perhaps. I can only try. Sorry for your loss again and best of luck =( ------------------
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Kannon McAfee
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posted November 19, 2016 06:57 PM
Mila, I wish I could do more for you than just offer words. You are grieving, and it may take a while. Let the grief transform you, but not overwhelm you. Make sure you do little things to take care of yourself that could go a long way towards feeling better sooner. When we grieve the body feels it. See if you can find a trusted natural healing professional to help you through the process.I do energy healing. It has helped some people even at a distance. Read about it on my site and email me if you are interested. It helped me out of a terrible time when someone did this energy healing for me. I don't think words will help much, but I wish you comfort and peace as you grieve. Talk to your mother. Ask her to show you she is okay so you can go on. Your connection is strong. She'll let you know. ------------------
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CapriciousCapricorn
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posted November 19, 2016 09:08 PM
Dear Mila,Only time will heal. You will see that it's true..with time. What I can advise is not to spend too much time on internet forums, and internet in general. It sucks you in and doesn't really help, although it might seem like it does. I know you are looking for explanations, and even for some good predictions or just a simple confirmation that everything will be ok. But faith alone is enough to ensure that everything WILL be ok. Be strong. Be optimistic. Believe in goodness in the world, believe in love. Believe in better future. You will pull through. When you wake up and don't look forward to the day or when you go to bed and are glad the day is finally over, remember that this was just a bad day. Tomorrow will be better. If tomorrow turns out to be the same - tell yourself again that tomorrow will be better. Because it will be, eventually. If not tomorrow, then the day after, or most likely many many days after but it will be. Give yourself time to grieve and JUST take your time and try not to force yourself into feeling how you want to feel. I'm sure everyone reading your post badly wants to help you somehow but it's not always that we are able to, no matter how much we want to. All of us at some point in our lives are forced to find inner strength to keep us going. You will find yours. Stay positive and don't despair. IP: Logged |
appleberry
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posted November 22, 2016 03:02 PM
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MilaBirkin
Knowflake Posts: 892
From: Cordoba, Argentina
Registered: Jul 2015
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posted December 26, 2016 12:20 PM
Thank you very much  .
It means a lot to me.
I've been doing things, I don't spend so much time on social media or in this forum as before. I'm taking a breath. That's why I didn't reply but now I found this and will reply later, when I'm came back to my home.
THANK YOU, THANK YOU.IP: Logged |
MilaBirkin
Knowflake Posts: 892
From: Cordoba, Argentina
Registered: Jul 2015
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posted January 01, 2017 01:35 AM
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Originally posted by furrybunny:
My condolences Mila. I can't even imagine the pain you are going through. Just know everything will always get better even if you do not see it now. I can help answer a questions using intuition and tarot but I'm not super skilled like some on LL in astrology / synastry. I do notice you have sun and moon in water so that might indicate why u feel things so strongly and possibly have intutivie tendencies if you exp it frequently. Just leave your question. many xoxo
Thank you very much. I know its been like a month since you wrote me and I'm sorry, I apologize to everyone who were nice with me in this forum but I needed my time.
I'm not sure to ask you something, if you will read this or no . But anyway, thank you . Happy new year. IP: Logged |
MilaBirkin
Knowflake Posts: 892
From: Cordoba, Argentina
Registered: Jul 2015
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posted January 01, 2017 01:36 AM
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Originally posted by Peluches:
Oh, Mila, Mila, don't be sad... I can take care of you... not right now in real life, because that would be a little hard, but... I promise, I promise to love you and never let you down, I promise to try my best to make you happy again... Let's start with a tight hug, okay ? I want to know there's a beautiful, beautiful smile on your face
Ohhh . You are so so so sweet. Thanks a lot! This made me smile☺☺. I really appreciate it. I hope you have a very nice year. You seem a nice person. Thank you, thank you. IP: Logged |
MilaBirkin
Knowflake Posts: 892
From: Cordoba, Argentina
Registered: Jul 2015
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posted January 01, 2017 01:48 AM
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Originally posted by Peluches:
(You can contact me by email, it's in my profile. )Stay strong, Mila
I will have that n mind. IP: Logged |
MilaBirkin
Knowflake Posts: 892
From: Cordoba, Argentina
Registered: Jul 2015
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posted January 01, 2017 01:53 AM
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Originally posted by LunarLove:
Mila, my heart goes out to you. Wow, your bond with your mom is so beautiful, and looking at your charts I can totally see that. My moon is conjunct yours, at 29degrees, and also in the 3rd house, and I feel very moved by your post.
My mom had cancer when I was 9, though she survived, but was never the same after that and that, for me was painful. I always wished to have a close bond with my mom, like you did with yours, though it didn't work that way, I still love her more than anyone has ever loved me. A deep, pain, I know this feeling- it is the lunar in us.
Looking at your chart, and your moms is really beautiful. Your mom has her leo planets in your 4th house, which is the house of the moon/mother and her sun and ascendant are conjunct your moon.
I will pull a few unicorn cards for you...
Okay I asked for any guidance for you during this grieving time:Try Something New: "You'll only know that you can do something if you try!" Forgive:
" Its time to let go of anger and blame." Love From Your Parents: "No matter what, your mother and father love you as much as they can" I hope I helped a little bit. You are in my heart and my thoughts during this time and onwards.
Thank you so much for all of this! For your words, for sharing, for the cards. Thank you, thank you, thank you! It means a lot to me. I like our Moon conjunction .
I appreciate everything! I wish you a happy new year beautiful person. IP: Logged |
MilaBirkin
Knowflake Posts: 892
From: Cordoba, Argentina
Registered: Jul 2015
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posted January 01, 2017 01:54 AM
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Originally posted by GeminiKarat:
My deepest condolence.
Gracias . IP: Logged |
MilaBirkin
Knowflake Posts: 892
From: Cordoba, Argentina
Registered: Jul 2015
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posted January 01, 2017 01:59 AM
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Originally posted by EmpressMendez:
I'm deeply sorry for your loss . I know how that feeling goes..it happened to me when my daughter almost died (God forbid). Try to meditate and connect with your good and light spirit guides. There are many helpful videos on Youtube which may aid you for this. I worry a lot about my family especially my mother because she is just as you described to me. If you can post your natal chart and hers with transits I might be able to clue you in a bit, perhaps. I can only try. Sorry for your loss again and best of luck =(
Thank you very much . I wish you the best for you and your family! quote:
If you can post your natal chart and hers with transits I might be able to clue you in a bit, perhaps. I can only try.
I don't know how to do that . And I don't know if you will see this .
Anyway, happy new year!
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MilaBirkin
Knowflake Posts: 892
From: Cordoba, Argentina
Registered: Jul 2015
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posted January 01, 2017 02:01 AM
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Originally posted by Kannon McAfee:
Mila, I wish I could do more for you than just offer words. You are grieving, and it may take a while. Let the grief transform you, but not overwhelm you. Make sure you do little things to take care of yourself that could go a long way towards feeling better sooner. When we grieve the body feels it. See if you can find a trusted natural healing professional to help you through the process.I do energy healing. It has helped some people even at a distance. Read about it on my site and email me if you are interested. It helped me out of a terrible time when someone did this energy healing for me. I don't think words will help much, but I wish you comfort and peace as you grieve. Talk to your mother. Ask her to show you she is okay so you can go on. Your connection is strong. She'll let you know.
Thank you so much for your help, for your words. It means a lot to me, seriously! The support I have in this forum it means so much to me. I'm so grateful.
I will have all that n mind. Thank you. Happy new year .
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MilaBirkin
Knowflake Posts: 892
From: Cordoba, Argentina
Registered: Jul 2015
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posted January 01, 2017 02:05 AM
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Originally posted by CapriciousCapricorn:
Dear Mila,Only time will heal. You will see that it's true..with time. What I can advise is not to spend too much time on internet forums, and internet in general. It sucks you in and doesn't really help, although it might seem like it does. I know you are looking for explanations, and even for some good predictions or just a simple confirmation that everything will be ok. But faith alone is enough to ensure that everything WILL be ok. Be strong. Be optimistic. Believe in goodness in the world, believe in love. Believe in better future. You will pull through. When you wake up and don't look forward to the day or when you go to bed and are glad the day is finally over, remember that this was just a bad day. Tomorrow will be better. If tomorrow turns out to be the same - tell yourself again that tomorrow will be better. Because it will be, eventually. If not tomorrow, then the day after, or most likely many many days after but it will be. Give yourself time to grieve and JUST take your time and try not to force yourself into feeling how you want to feel. I'm sure everyone reading your post badly wants to help you somehow but it's not always that we are able to, no matter how much we want to. All of us at some point in our lives are forced to find inner strength to keep us going. You will find yours. Stay positive and don't despair.
Wow, thank you for your advice. I appreciate it, I really do.
I didn't spend time in social media all this weeks. I actually don't like them but I take my time , I don't feel ready for some things, that's why I'm writing replies now and not a month ago.
Seriously, thank you. You are great.
Happy new year . IP: Logged |
MilaBirkin
Knowflake Posts: 892
From: Cordoba, Argentina
Registered: Jul 2015
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posted January 01, 2017 02:07 AM
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Originally posted by appleberry:
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Now I'm curious about what you wrote. IP: Logged |
ScorpieScorp
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From: USA
Registered: Aug 2013
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posted January 01, 2017 04:16 AM
Mila, I am so very for your loss, my truest condolences. As you grieve, you will go through many phases, but do reach out to friends and family and this forum--they want to be there for you, really they do.This forum has been a lifesaver for so many, I love the kindness, compassion I see on here...very beautiful. I'm wish healing and love for you... IP: Logged |
Peluches
Knowflake Posts: 1395
From: my heart
Registered: Jul 2014
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posted January 01, 2017 09:58 AM
Mila, A Very Happy New Year to you !
I hope with all my heart that 2017 will be full of love and happiness for you ! And thank you for all your replies  IP: Logged |
lilithpluto
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posted January 01, 2017 10:43 AM
Hugs.. ❤️ Hope u will feel better soonest ...Happy New Year!! IP: Logged | |
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