posted January 28, 2017 07:03 PM            

So, my decision about A has been to not have him in my life if that baby is his Bc I dont wish the L drama/ manipulation in my life.

My question, Will it come to that? to me leave A out of my life?

posted January 29, 2017 08:04 AM            

clarifiers: Hanged man (on Ace and King), 8 of swords (on Lovers), 3 of swords on (4 of swords and Judgement)

Well to be honest I have been drawing several times now, as I found this a hard draw. But no matter if I pulled just a 3 Card spread or a more Extended like this one, it seems the result was the same.

I may be totally wrong about this, but it seems like there is a strong emotional and romantic Connection, affection, even love at the Basis of your relationship/ Connection to each other.

But it also sais to me that this love doesn`t seem to go anywhere, like you are up in the air with that relationship, and eventually you feel the Need to make a choice (might even be that someone else will enter your life, but I think it has more to do with the relationship between you and him).

In a way however you will feel unequipped to make that decision, almost like your Hands are bound (the first spread had the 2 of swords, this one the 8 of swords in this Position - both depict women who are blindfolded; the Leno spread I did had BOOK: secret Knowledge, in this Position - it makes me think that you feel that either he might not be completely honest with you or that you, maybe even the both of you, lack some vital Information, and without it you cannot really make your decision).

However, you will then withdraw and take your time to evaluate the Situation, especially the triangular one, I guess, with L, A and yourself (3 of swords).

The judgement as last Card is sort of a "wake up call", you are called to make a decision, but it could mean both actually, call it quits on him and your Story or move this relationship to a new stage, more committed between the two of you.

Whatever it will be you will have to find closure on the past though, especially the hurts of the past.
Can you really forgive him what he did to you? Can you look at him with sort of fresh new eyes or will you always see L as a shadow around him?

Okay, I was dissatisified with the spread cause it does not give a straight answer, maybe it cannot be said yet, but I will give it a try and pull 3 more Cards to see what Comes after "Judgement day"

Ace of Swords - 9 of swords - Ace of Cups
(Knight of Cups)

It seems that you will have a very honest frank talk to "clear the air" and come to a decision. It will not be an easy one though, as the 9 of swords Shows anxieties, and worries, like so many thoughts going on in both your heads that you cannot find sleep.
But I get the Feeling from the Overall spread that it might be that you will talk about EVERYTHING, how much he hurt you (possibly also if he was being hurt by something), about your fears, worries etc.
It will all come out and possibly there might even be tears involved or at least it will be very emotional.

As a result however you will experience an emotional new beginning with each other. Yes you can leave the past behind and start again. It will feel like you fall in love with each other for the first time, and with Knight of Cups as clarifying Card, he might even have some sort of proposal for you, maybe for an exclusive romantic relationship?). But whatever it will be it will be very emotional, romantic and passionate.

So no, I don`t think you will leave A out of your life; however there will be a rather rough patch (possibly pretty Close to now), in which you will SERIOUSLY consider this Option, and what will make the new beginning possible is absolute honesty about both your Feelings.

I think without such an honest talk, this cannot work between you.

I hope it resonates at least a bit, it was such a hard spread.

My question:

posted January 29, 2017 09:03 AM            

I am ever so grateful with tears in my eyes.
Such true words.

Please bear with me with your reading as I am at parents now and wish to give equally nice of a reading.

posted January 29, 2017 10:24 AM            

I felt it was a very important and serious question and spread, and though it was difficult, it sort of drew me in as well, delve a Little deeper I guess.

And Course, take all your time. I don`t think my question is THAT important. Maybe I have not found the REAL question underlying it all yet.

posted January 29, 2017 12:16 PM            

What you wrote is how I numerous times had a conversation with him in my mind, and yes there would be tears and it wouldnt surprise he would also because he can be very sensitive.
The way you describe everything was like you entered our minds and wrote it all out so thank you once again. I think you were guided by higher spirits to relay this on me.

I decided to use my angel cards for you to give some cards for your next few months, these cards just give advice they dont give outcomes or future events.
Here are the cards :
-( card fell out ) - Door - On the entrance and exit of this world stand Us the Angels, doors are just ilusions of opening or closing, because life doesnt open or close. We exsist in it always.
- (popped up) Money - Why are we se obsesed with it when we have and when we dont? Be thankful for money before it comes and when you dont think about it. Thats how you feed abundance.
- Street - No shoes but with your souls this life is made of. And every path you leave, you will meet anothers path on this or another world. Because, paths exist also between stars. We angels, regulate the movement betweem them.

So these cards to me are guidance and glimpse what may come. I get a sense door and Street cards are showing you both choices to come but also paths opening to you and my feeling is in love, I get a sense that another new person may come on your path, I also get a sene with money card not only obvious as it seems that money will come but also that you may travel some place and this is one new path of your life, it may take you in a direction you have not had as planned and it may stirr you in a new direction in your life that may be a huge surprise, hence, leaving doors open for new paths.

As to your question..

posted January 29, 2017 12:56 PM            

it resonates much, both of it.
Well the second one is VERY likely, but it`s just I`d like to know if we have a Slot or not. lol

The first one, yes, I can see that, well the travel that came to mind was the one to London, I am so hesitant of booking my Train tickets for. It`s weird.
I was so reluctant JL had to Surface in my dreams last night to remind me to not "miss our appointment". lol

Not that we really will have one, but I guess I should get round doing it (Hotel is already booked as are theatre tickets, even my friend can miraculously make it there even though it did not look like it even a few weeks ago, financiallky speaking, thoiugh I was always sure she would be able to be there - and now it is me, sort of Holding back, I jsut get a bit of a strange Feeling about this. Not bad strange, though)

My life has also been quietly restructuring itself, partly due to external factors, but also internal ones, and yes it does seem like a new path opens up, or actually this path is only new because I always refused to walk further down it before and rather stood still in time.

this path might lead sooner of later to a crossroad, I actually can Picture it inside my mind.

But yes, I will only know if I walk the path.

posted January 29, 2017 01:05 PM            

This travel to UK I get a sense something there will be important in your life bringing big changes.