posted May 24, 2017 02:46 PM            

Recently, I've felt like I've hit what many consider 'rock bottom', obviously this spiraled me back into the depressive state that I suffered through in high school. I had panic attacks and suicidal thoughts, and truly thought that there was no point anymore.

I've come to realize when you hit rock bottom, the only way to go from there is up. Granted, I still suffer from depression and other things, obviously those aren't so easy to get rid of. But step by step, day by day, I know that I can and will improve, and that I am improving. I'm taking the bull by the horns, I refuse to give up after not seeing progress like I usually would. I'm going to stick through this because I deserve happiness.

And so do you! Each and every one of you deserve happiness, and I will send all the positive vibes in the world to assure that you achieve it, no matter how long it takes! Please remember that it will always get better, you will get better. That one thing thats soured your mood for the past week is just a small pawn in the chess game we call life.

So remember, when you're at the bottom, the only way left to go is up. I hope you all have a wonderful, blessed day. I'm so glad I was given the opportunity to be part of this community, and I hope to stay a part of it for a very long time.

posted May 24, 2017 02:55 PM            

thank you for your lovely message of hope. And I am sorry you had to hit the bottom, but you are wise. You know that sometimes we have to get into the bowels of it before we understand our emotions enough to take back our power.

posted May 24, 2017 07:06 PM            

I'm 70% better but sometimes I fall for minimal things,sometimes a tiny thing brings me negativity,makes me remind that past! so for a couple seconds I feel suicidal again.I breath and scream and try to calm down until it pass!

I feel a shift of energy!even though things on my life are miles away from what I desired I'm feeling so hopeful, like I never been before.
I grew up without dreams,I was totally numb back then,just walking like a zumbi but all that pain that came to the surface awakened me!

Thnx for the message!
All the best for you and let's spread positivity in the world,we need it