posted June 23, 2017 04:04 AM            

Sun CJ Uranus
Uranus OPP Uranus
Saturn OPP Saturn
Saturn RX in H4 travelling back towards NN
Neptune SQ Neptune (a long term one)

Most of these will be current around December of this year. I mean, I am working towards improving myself all the time - I am working 7 days a week in order to pay debt off (no help from anywhere else) and studying in spare time (although taking my time over this, and taking time to rest). Have no friends or family to speak of (estranged mother has cancer, dad has just retired and is not contactable most of the time), am not letting people get too close (do not want to be saddled with problematic friends), enjoying being a loner for the time being.

I have no significant other, but a huge crush on someone unavailable (Venus SQ Uranus in composite, which seems to be my life story) - however, I am just enjoying being friendly towards this person, as there is more to life than just the physical side of things. I have realized that often, a relationship can stop growing when it becomes physical - and that is such a shame, because there is so much more you could each have had to offer each other, as people. You can express your love through the little everyday things you do for them - that, in itself, is more conducive to love being given and received than a quickie, which would just upset everybody.

Mind over matter seems to be the theme of the day: "When I was a child...I did as a child, I spake as a child...but (now) I put away childish things..."

posted June 28, 2017 08:22 PM            

Have to take it apart, piece by piece.
Then synthesize.

What are the signs and houses involved?

I hope that you DO realize that this is a 'corridor' of change you'll be passing through. It will be unique from the one I went through (and others older that you) because of zodiac signs, and cluster-conjunctions that some groups were born with now. You'll have different challenges?... but basic energy may still operate the same
(Barbara Hand Clow may be able to apply the appropriate zodiac energy-- see book ref below.)

Throw a party when you get to 42 3/4! --
But! Wait!! There's more!!!
You're not completely out of the woods until you top it off at your Chiron-return around age ~50+.. Past 51, life begins to get a bit sweeter. (At least, that was my experience.) Not without challenges-- but somehow it's better.

How old are you now?
When's your birthday?

Like I said, I'm sorta swamped this week...
And then next week is a holiday here in USA.

BTW... "Too many?"
It's "supposed" to cluster-X you. It's part of the processing.... Imagine a ride through an automated carwash!

You might feel like you're going to lose your mind in the process... ... It's designed to be that way.

If you want to pick up a really good book that you'll use for these next years, I recommend purchasing this one. Let it be a textbook or a sort of manual to use on this level of the School of Life you're in.

Do you know anything about yoga or kundalini?

(There's a lot of eroticism in this book! LOL! Don't buy it if that kind of raw-ness bothers you.)

Barbara Hand Clow
Astrology and the Rising of Kundalini:
The Transformative Power of Saturn, Chiron, and Uranus
Paperback – September 2, 2013

(It used to be called The Liquid Light of Sex. The newer version I'm leaving a link to should have updated tables-- key dates and ranges to expect transit-energies to occur.)

- http://www.amazon.com/Astrology-Rising-Kundalini-Transformative-Saturn/ dp/1591431689/ref=dp_ob_title_bk

This is the 'older' version-- with expired dates (if you're younger).
- http://www.thriftbooks.com/w/liquid -light-of-sex-kundalini-astrology-and-the-key-life-transitions_barbara-hand-clow/362342/#isbn=1879181401

posted June 29, 2017 11:13 AM            

DOB: 16:15, 18/4/74, Bristol, England.

Eroticism - well, I guess I can handle that. Not too scared of it with Sun, Merc and Chiron in 8th in Aries > and Eros CJ Venus in Pisces. By people's accounts, I am attractive, and very young-looking for my age (43 - that 42 3/4 birthday party never happened!). - Though the whole "sexy" thing is tempered by my Saturn (in Gemini, H10) conjunct Mars. Yoga and kundalini I absolutely cannot get into and never have been able to. It is too guru-ish for my mindset.

I figure we all cycle through the chakras at one point or another. Several years ago, I wanted to reach the highest spiritual point it was possible to reach, and bring about the highest creativity within myself. It was something I effected (wrote some fabulous songs, although these were unrecognized). Somehow, I knew the "red" (Aries?) chakra was to come next - a period of rebasing, of the beginning of building a foundation for the next 40 years of my life. I have done so - as in, finding the domestic and career arrangements which will be a springboard in order for me to do so. And I figure the period to come next will be connected with a Taurean phase, if you like - building on any material assets that I have, buying and selling, rediscovering sexuality and eroticism - because I crave intimacy, real, mature intimacy, yet I have needed to live alone, and "find myself" first. I don't want to forget the lessons from this time, however.

Ah, yes, the Chiron Return. I am not looking forward to that one. A couple of people I knew born ca 1965 went through this recently. I have Chiron in Aries in the 8th.

Then again, I appreciate there are hard and easy transits, but I figure there are ways to get through the difficult ones. Such as: not put one's head above the parapet/ work hard/ keep continuously making efforts to move forward (one step at a time, every day)/ minimize stress or exposure to stress. I figure I have reached a stage where people are more readily readable than they previously were - or perhaps I am simply less tolerant??

posted June 29, 2017 02:24 PM            

I'm sooo sorry that you lost your Mum.

And, for your relationship that didn't pan out like you wanted. ... You want true intimacy. I understand about how 'getting physical' can ruin (or, change) a relationship you would have. ... I know too, that sometimes 'lust' is mistaken for love. Just going ahead and popping that bubble by having the sex, can take the love-colored glasses off some people. Then, it's possible to see if that person 'leaves' you. Some people make big ovations of love--- when it was just the fact they wanted into your panties, or jeans?

Are you male, or female? What is your orientation?

I haven't set up your chart yet... but I can see from a quick look in my ephemeris that you have Sun Aries near your Chiron. 8th House you say? ... and you write music? Chiron can be medicinal (in its own way) and help you write 'the songs that make the Whole World sing?' (song!! LOL). AND, it sextiles the ruler of that Chiron... your Mars in late Gemini. That's an aspect of opportunity.

Haven't set your chart yet.

So! .... Why not throw your OWN Party!!! YaY! You made it through, and your not in jail!!

Speaking of sex and sexy??? Your birthday co-incides with the birthday and the year that I had begun a 3-year monogamous relationship (while I was in college), with a man who was a musician and teacher, studying to become a classical pianist. I was a second-semester freshman, and soon to meet with this man that autumn here.

So! Thanks for the memories!!!

Wow.... LOL. There was a bit of a competitive streak in us. He thought he was all-that!!!

One day we (him, me, our friends) wanted to go to a nearby ice-cream shop. The car wouldn't start. I kept trying to tell him how to jump-start by popping the clutch. He wanted to do things 'his' way. A group of us would push the car to try to get some speed. Each one of those 'guys' tried, and couldn't do it. Finally, they allowed ME to try.

No problem. I popped that clutch like a pro! THEY said I did it because they PUSHED the car faster, so I had advantage?

Well, we got to the ice cream place. A few hours later, after a nice time, we went to get back into the vehicle. But THIS time, the parking lot was in a difficult place to roll (push) a car.

Of course, the car didn't start. EACH one of them got behind the wheel, and tried to pop the clutch to start the vehicle. EACH one of them failed!.... So. I get in. Tried it. It started Beautifully for me.... and I left them behind in the parking lot!!! I went for a ride all by myself. Laughing soooo hard!

Who says a woman can't pop a clutch?!!
Not them anymore.

Take Care! Write that Music....

posted June 29, 2017 04:09 PM            

I have a few reflections on your chart.

you mars/vensu and mars/moon midointis conjct to sedan which indicates that truth is very important in relationships and in all socil activity. your not a moralist but you look for actions and words to reflect each other.
chiron is square to Lilith which shows that you have a analytical subconsiocus. this gives a inquisitive and critical outlook.
this aspect can make you very short tempered with hypocrisy and you make have problems keeping you feelings to yourself when you see someone with obvious contradictions in their life style or world view.

as the chiron and sedan midpoint is conjunct you sun,this inquisitive searching for the "truth" in all realms characterizes you.

the moon/venus conjunction gives a very affectionate and emotionally expressive aspect to your personality though with Neptune square you likely keep your emotional feeling private most of the time.

with Uranus opposed to the sun and chiron, again your analytical nature is strong and you always look to innovative ways to lead your life. you are quite far sighted but can be impatience. the oppositi0n to chiron indicates that you sometimes have no tact and have lost friends or alienate others with your blunt but correct analysis of their personality characteristics.
this aspect makes you very independent.

with mars conjunct to Saturn you also have a very steady and "devoted" nature. this gives persistence in light of any obstacle.
actually with Saturn conjunct to mars and also sun opposed to Uranus but have you share of mood swings.

but there seem to be some emotional"demons" in your chart as nessus is conjunct your south node. and the mars/node and Saturn node midpoints. this is indicative of a very restrictive emotional environment as a child. it tends to show a domineering father who constant tried to emphasize your shortcoming. frankly it can be characterized as a emotionally abusive environment .

it would think you may have emotional issues from your childhood that contribute to your acceptance of a somewhat solitary existence. you may have self esteem issues

you also have ixion square to psyche and the midpoint is opposed to nessus. this also shows a abusive environment in childhood. this is a bit insidious because love and pain were often combine emotionally.it is a bit S/Mish, not so much in your nature but it can show abusive violence ,as any displays of love were followed by ridicule or abusive behavior toward you.

this could have a residua affect so that you have a difficult time expressing your emotional attraction.

rahu

posted June 30, 2017 05:49 AM            

Thanks for the feedback...I am a straight female.

The below are all true:

*you mars/vensu and mars/moon midointis conjct to sedan which indicates that truth is very important in relationships and in all socil activity. your not a moralist but you look for actions and words to reflect each other. chiron is square to Lilith which shows that you have a analytical subconsiocus. this gives a inquisitive and critical outlook.
this aspect can make you very short tempered with hypocrisy and you make have problems keeping you feelings to yourself when you see someone with obvious contradictions in their life style or world view.as the chiron and sedan midpoint is conjunct you sun,this inquisitive searching for the "truth" in all realms characterizes you.*

Yes...I am very deep and meaningful...things have to be truthful otherwise what's the point?

*the moon/venus conjunction gives a very affectionate and emotionally expressive aspect to your personality though with Neptune square you likely keep your emotional feeling private most of the time.*

I am deeply affectionate and very loving. I wish I could have someone who I was equally crazy about who could reciprocate...It's difficult to find the right person as I am always very critical...for example, I am physically attracted to very few people.

*with Uranus opposed to the sun and chiron, again your analytical nature is strong and you always look to innovative ways to lead your life. you are quite far sighted but can be impatience. the oppositi0n to chiron indicates that you sometimes have no tact and have lost friends or alienate others with your blunt but correct analysis of their personality characteristics. this aspect makes you very independent.*

Yes, yes and yes.

*with mars conjunct to Saturn you also have a very steady and "devoted" nature. this gives persistence in light of any obstacle. actually with Saturn conjunct to mars and also sun opposed to Uranus but have you share of mood swings. but there seem to be some emotional"demons" in your chart as nessus is conjunct your south node. and the mars/node and Saturn node midpoints. this is indicative of a very restrictive emotional environment as a child. it tends to show a domineering father who constant tried to emphasize your shortcoming. frankly it can be characterized as a emotionally abusive environment . it would think you may have emotional issues from your childhood that contribute to your acceptance of a somewhat solitary existence. you may have self esteem issues. you also have ixion square to psyche and the midpoint is opposed to nessus. this also shows a abusive environment in childhood. this is a bit insidious because love and pain were often combine emotionally.it is a bit S/Mish, not so much in your nature but it can show abusive violence ,as any displays of love were followed by ridicule or abusive behavior toward you. this could have a residua affect so that you have a difficult time expressing your emotional attraction.*

posted July 01, 2017 03:07 PM            

I did some digging into your chart, before reading what Todd suggested.

I admire that you can be so open and bluntly honest with and about yourself.... Yes, Yes, and Yes! ROFL

So sorry to hear about your mothering experience. Sometimes, suffice it to say that they were doing the best they could under their OWN personal inner trials... AND soul-changing transits.

If you look at your own chart as 'what' your mother was going through in her own life when you were born, then you can realize how idealistic she was in her love-relationship with your father. Things go on in a relationship that are private and we don't understand all that was going on with them.

With the 10th house belonging to 'father'... I'm curious to ask--- was he a law-enforcement officer, involved with the law in any way?
Mars-Saturn in Gemini 10th

The books I read were suggesting that a Venus-Moon and Juno-Ceres in relationship with your 10th house placements, show 'emotional mother issues' and a need to look at your mother's patterning in relationships in order to sort your own needs out.
.. Sorta Freudian, but, shows that you might be subconsciously in-love with your Dad. And maybe he's a 'typing' of what will attract you.

There are indications of how strong of a partner you can be... loving the traditional kinds of family values.
.. The Moon-Venus also would unconsciously perhaps attract much!! younger aged men?
{You mention the 'maturity' factor you seek! -- Good for you for recognizing it.}

You mentioned your drinking... You might look into the underneath reasons for that? ... You have a Pisces DSC. If you're not approaching things with consciousness there, you could bring to yourself someone who IS alcoholic or an addict. Really be careful... A relationship with someone like that can be costly -- to your reputation, your finances, and your Heart and self-esteem.

One of the KEYS to your chart... is that you yourself have to come to "like" yourself too (besides love). And that you inwardly require a life that can exist apart from a relationship-- as well as within one.

Again too.... study (bring consciously into light within yourself) your mother's automatic response patterns. When you understand what's automatic, you can accept yourself more (and like yourself), and understand your 'choices' better. You can affirm and 'keep' the good part, and blow the rest away like chaff-- let it drop, like old baggage you leave behind {Vesta opp Mercury}.

One thing I've noticed about life too, is that we can feel like we're not making the progress we think we 'should'... and all along, we ARE growing and being better and better. (I appreciate your wanting and striving to improve. No matter how it may feel or appear, KNOW that with 'that' as your intention, you are and will make progress.)

It will also be good for you to think "long-term" too. There are so many changes happening in our world (collectively) right now.

You have 'potential' in your chart---
Please permit me to give you the more Idealistic promises.

But then YOU have a choice on how to ground those and make them closer to 'realize' in your Future life, if that would feel correct to you. Adjust as you sense it inside.

Mars Trine Uranus is a mark of 'Genius'... People who have this can bring New Ideas into their generation.
Same for your Vesta Libra trine Pallas Aqua H5.
Can show Talent at music (you mentioned music and the arts)... especially the newer forms that could evolve. Again, you can help form that Bridge that generations need.
This is a mark of a World-Server.

H6 Aquarius... with Juno Ceres... Community work, Humanitarian voice. Mini-trine Saturn-Mars, to Sun, to Juno-Ceres. ..... Juno-Ceres trine Awakener-Innovator Uranus, trine (grand air) connects to the Saturn-Mars Gemini. {Kite, with Uranus air to Sun fire}

So... with NN in the 4th, look at those foundational psychological-formations experiences ... Once you have truly looked at your family wounds (chiron 8th), you may be able to help guide others. 'Write the songs, the lyrics; communicate MC, using the voice sextile gemMC.

Virgo Ascendant 18-- Sabian. http://www.mindfire.ca/An%20Astrological%20Mandala/An%20Astrological%20Mandala%20-%20Virgo%2016-30.htm

Your Draconic Ascendant is Sagittarius at 26.48. That means it conjuncts the Galactic Center... You channel a special message. Galactic Center is also called the cosmic God Center.

Your Draconic Venus and Moon are Gemini (communication). Right now your Progressed Mars is later Cancer. This has been refining you. Drawing you inwardly. Sensitizing you. It's conjunct Pr'Cancer MC. ...

In the next years, you'll change that MC to LEO... The Performer? The one on stage and in the spotlight! Your Draconic Sun is 7.50 LEO.... Your SOUL wants to Shine.

Your Draconic Chiron is 29 Cancer...
perhaps this shows how 'mother' issues will end in this life cycle for you.
(29, endings finality graduation!!)

Draconic Neptune in Pisces... Compassion. In the 3rd, Compassionate writings, spiritual service.

Your natal Neptune is on a special star Antares-- some have noted that people with planets on that position can be Leaders-- for some, can mean inspired and inspirational ...

Okay... I'm getting too carried away here? haha

With Neptune sextile Pluto (generational)... represents great forces of change in this world, and being able to tap into the collective unconscious. Dreams/imaginations ... Pluto is the mass-unconsciousness, Neptune is the 'Universal' dream.
You have Mercury trine Neptune .... even if you were raised in an atheistic home, some kind of spirituality might become important to you?
"The aspect bestows creative energy which can be used in the development of a career as well as for the pursuit of spiritual ideals ... The ideas are usually ahead of the times and the masses may not understand."
{ref Betty Lunstead, 1980}
With Nep on IC too, you have a special chance to really achieve the transformation you seek on your psyche, (trines Merc in 8th too). You Can Do This! *thumbsup*

Your Pr Venus (last Christmas) shifted to Taurus.

Not saying this will happen or not-happen?
I have recently witnessed (in two charts) the visit of transiting Venus crossing the MC and traveling through the 10th house.
BOTH these people had a boost in their career-- they gained important people (friends, celebrities!!) in their life who brought them important contacts for their careers, boosting their income exponentially? ... *cool*

I hope you find the kind of love you seek, as Venus would cross your own MC. How about some client offers for you too!

(Sorry if this post is a bit scattered? I deal with environmental distractions here, which were quite active as I wrote... but I kept going!)

I have a Romantic Heart, and, I Believe the Best IN and FOR People.

I hope this can bring you some good vibes, and possible Ideas for your Future. YOU have Potential-- Dream. Don't look back too long, you have a Future to bring your Love and Talents to.

Take Good Care of yourself...

posted July 01, 2017 03:35 PM            

I see the importance of needing to know 'why' the person is asking for readings. There are so many variables.

Anyways! I was excited about looking over your chart.

Hope you can recognize and mine some of the potentials of your chart-- and really get to use what you have well.

In EVERY choice you make, go for the Higher expression, every time you can.

(music) Bring me a Higher Love (Steve and Lilly Winwood {father-daughter}) [3:47] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CsS4xlHKnpw

lyrics

"Think about it, there must be higher love
Down in the heart or hidden in the stars above
Without it, life is a wasted time
Look inside your heart, I'll look inside mine
Things look so bad everywhere
In this whole world, what is fair?
We walk blind and we try to see
Falling behind in what could be

Bring me a higher love
Bring me a higher love
Bring me a higher love
Where's that higher love I keep thinking of?

Worlds are turning and we're just hanging on
Facing our fear and standing out there alone
A yearning, and it's real to me
There must be someone who's feeling for me
Things look so bad everywhere
In this whole world, what is fair?
We walk blind and we try to see
Falling behind in what could be

Bring me a higher love
Bring me a higher love
Bring me a higher love
Where's that higher love I keep thinking of?

Bring me a higher love
Bring me a higher love
Bring be a higher love
I could rise above on a higher love

I will wait for it
I'm not too late for it
Until then, I'll sing my song
To cheer the night along
Bring it... Oh bring it...

I could light the night up with my soul on fire
I could make the sun shine from pure desire
Let me feel that love come over me
Let me feel how strong it could be

posted July 04, 2017 04:58 AM            

*So sorry to hear about your mothering experience. Sometimes, suffice it to say that they were doing the best they could under their OWN personal inner trials... AND soul-changing transits.

If you look at your own chart as 'what' your mother was going through in her own life when you were born, then you can realize how idealistic she was in her love-relationship with your father. Things go on in a relationship that are private and we don't understand all that was going on with them.*

Mother born 23:00 11/12/1940, Essen, Germany. The children of Hitler's Germany were, I believe, terribly affected by that time. A lot didn't go off the rails, but some, like Klaus Kinski and my mother, most definetely did.
Our energies do not really mesh. She is mainly Fixed energies, and nobody can have a decent discussion/ debate with her. She came from a humble background, and only places value on PERCEIVED wealth/ status. She has done nothing with her life except marry and divorce my Dad (and pester him for money), sleep and walk the dog.
I used to wish constantly that she would die, but now I really don't care if she lives to 200. I have spiritually sent her on her way, and I think that's the best thing.

*With the 10th house belonging to 'father'... I'm curious to ask--- was he a law-enforcement officer, involved with the law in any way?
Mars-Saturn in Gemini 10th*

Not my father. But his father, my grandfather, was a policeman.

*The books I read were suggesting that a Venus-Moon and Juno-Ceres in relationship with your 10th house placements, show 'emotional mother issues' and a need to look at your mother's patterning in relationships in order to sort your own needs out.*

Placing value on material goods and appearances over everything else. I went the opposite way in rebellion, which did me good in some ways, but not others. I tended to minimize my material needs too much.
I grew up in a mansion - which was really almost like a castle - and knew about the running costs - knew the place was mortgaged 3 times over - saw the fighting and pretence behind the scenes, the acting out of "the perfect life" - saw my irresponsible parents run that beautiful place into the ground - it is practically derelict now.
My objective is to build my own home. A thoroughly modern, eco-efficient, tranquil place of my own. Even if I have to build it myself, brick by boring brick.

*.. Sorta Freudian, but, shows that you might be subconsciously in-love with your Dad. And maybe he's a 'typing' of what will attract you.*

Like me, he is an Aries, and has that rubber-ball quality - you can't get him down, or at least not for very long. My mother always used to say he was going senile, but I think he is anything but. He is 77 now and has come a long way.

*There are indications of how strong of a partner you can be... loving the traditional kinds of family values.
.. The Moon-Venus also would unconsciously perhaps attract much!! younger aged men?
{You mention the 'maturity' factor you seek! -- Good for you for recognizing it.}*

I have been out with MUCH younger men! One amazing looking Italian Leo on holiday when I was 38. (and another - younger - Italian!). I used to like older men when I was younger. Now I am the opposite.

*You mentioned your drinking... You might look into the underneath reasons for that? ... You have a Pisces DSC. If you're not approaching things with consciousness there, you could bring to yourself someone who IS alcoholic or an addict. Really be careful... A relationship with someone like that can be costly -- to your reputation, your finances, and your Heart and self-esteem.*

I have attracted many people with mental illness.

*Mars Trine Uranus is a mark of 'Genius'... People who have this can bring New Ideas into their generation.
Same for your Vesta Libra trine Pallas Aqua H5.
Can show Talent at music (you mentioned music and the arts)... especially the newer forms that could evolve. Again, you can help form that Bridge that generations need.
This is a mark of a World-Server.
H6 Aquarius... with Juno Ceres... Community work, Humanitarian voice. Mini-trine Saturn-Mars, to Sun, to Juno-Ceres. ..... Juno-Ceres trine Awakener-Innovator Uranus, trine (grand air) connects to the Saturn-Mars Gemini. {Kite, with Uranus air to Sun fire}*

I have been called "genius" and "Aquarian" many times - between 37 and 40, I wrote some very interesting pop music. But some of it bore almost no relation to what was going on either in the pop music world or any other music world. People did not know how to relate to it, because they did not know how to listen to it. I was on a music reality show and one of the judges said it went right over their heads.

*So... with NN in the 4th, look at those foundational psychological-formations experiences ... Once you have truly looked at your family wounds (chiron 8th), you may be able to help guide others. 'Write the songs, the lyrics; communicate MC, using the voice sextile gemMC.*

One day, I will transcribe all my songs. That will be my legacy, along with my books.

*Virgo Ascendant 18-- Sabian. http://www.mindfire.ca/An%20Astrological%20Mandala/An%20Astrological%20Mandala%20-%20Virgo%2016-30.htm
Your Draconic Ascendant is Sagittarius at 26.48. That means it conjuncts the Galactic Center... You channel a special message. Galactic Center is also called the cosmic God Center.
Your Draconic Venus and Moon are Gemini (communication). Right now your Progressed Mars is later Cancer. This has been refining you. Drawing you inwardly. Sensitizing you. It's conjunct Pr'Cancer MC. ...
In the next years, you'll change that MC to LEO... The Performer? The one on stage and in the spotlight! Your Draconic Sun is 7.50 LEO.... Your SOUL wants to Shine.*

I would LOVE some "shine" time...!

*Your Draconic Chiron is 29 Cancer...
perhaps this shows how 'mother' issues will end in this life cycle for you.
(29, endings finality graduation!!)
Draconic Neptune in Pisces... Compassion. In the 3rd, Compassionate writings, spiritual service.
Your natal Neptune is on a special star Antares-- some have noted that people with planets on that position can be Leaders-- for some, can mean inspired and inspirational ...
With Neptune sextile Pluto (generational)... represents great forces of change in this world, and being able to tap into the collective unconscious. Dreams/imaginations ... Pluto is the mass-unconsciousness, Neptune is the 'Universal' dream.
You have Mercury trine Neptune .... even if you were raised in an atheistic home, some kind of spirituality might become important to you?
"The aspect bestows creative energy which can be used in the development of a career as well as for the pursuit of spiritual ideals ... The ideas are usually ahead of the times and the masses may not understand."
{ref Betty Lunstead, 1980}
With Nep on IC too, you have a special chance to really achieve the transformation you seek on your psyche, (trines Merc in 8th too). You Can Do This! *thumbsup*
Your Pr Venus (last Christmas) shifted to Taurus.
Not saying this will happen or not-happen?
I have recently witnessed (in two charts) the visit of transiting Venus crossing the MC and traveling through the 10th house.
BOTH these people had a boost in their career-- they gained important people (friends, celebrities!!) in their life who brought them important contacts for their careers, boosting their income exponentially? ... *cool*
I hope you find the kind of love you seek, as Venus would cross your own MC. How about some client offers for you too!*

Great reading, with warmth and compassion - really appreciate it. I look forward to reading the book (which I have ordered) when it arrives. Thank you so much for this.

Warmest regards

posted July 09, 2017 11:23 PM            

I looked at your mother's and your chart together.

Definitely, I see the set-up for an intense opponent and cruel animosity between you two-- including how one-sided things wound up between you.

composite Pluto-Mars on the Asc (H12) opp Sun in 6th.

You may be doing the right thing, to try to stay out and away from her influence.

A while ago, I'd seen some of the stories (in documentaries and movies) that I think you referenced. I recall the grizzly and cognitive dissonance and feeling that it left inside me.

And they expect people to be understanding of their choices. In one way yes... but... existentially, how 'could' they? You have to have died, or, ripped away a piece of your soul and humanity to make(allow) yourself to take an active part in performing acts-of-inhumanity in the midst of looking normal, living 'normal'? *shudders*

I read the online info-biography of actor Kinski... explored his life. 3-wives, 1 child from each union. His abuse. His problem with the illness. His feigning. Yet, he was befriended and helped. Even employed. He was blessed to have people who consistently overlooked some things about him?

Philosophically, how much of the personal actor is in the character he portrays?....

People who cultivate acting gifts do us the hugest service, taking on even the darker parts of humanity.

posted July 11, 2017 05:37 AM            

There is a sense of inevitability about it - I have Uranus opposite my Sun and the Ur-Ur opposition going on - and I just seem to be getting hit constantly - since beginning of this year has been so stressful, there has not been one month which has not been stressful.

I have had fibroids blowing up and tried to control them with diet, I have been working 7 days a week, and I have nuisance neighbours at home (a family) right now, who have been causing noise and harassment problems - they allow their kids to stomp and run around constantly over my ceiling and no-one wants to do anything about it, whether it be property agents, landlords, council, police, whatever. I am minded to stand up and take these people to court myself, as everybody else seems to be useless.

I hate kids EVEN MORE than I originally did. I went out with someone with kids for a while, but never again. You just don't have anything in common with them.

Even living in detached homes doesn't help, because when I owned my own home together with my ex husband, this family moved in along the road from us and let their 2 yr old scream ALL THE TIME. He wasn't being abused, they just let him scream all the time. I was livid, but my husband used to smirk and say "oh they're just happy children ha ha" - which explains why I am no longer with him. I phoned him up a couple of years ago and he answered, and his 2 brats he'd had with his (ugly!) Russian mail order bride were screaming simultaneously at the end of the line, he sounded unable to cope. HA!

I didn't want kids, and therefore I don't see why I should have to cope with others' kids. I also don't see why I should have to cope with living with DIYers, pervy landlords and mentally ill flatmates as I have, it seems, ever since I was 10. Almost constantly, ever since I was 10, I have never been happy at home. I am still trying to figure out why. Perhaps I should just get a bloody live/ work unit - I feel like I need an air-conditioned James-Bond-style vault!!

Wrt activating kundalini at what the author refers to as "the wrong times" - do we have a choice? Can we help it when amazing songs are actively realized at a certain point in our lives and we simply cannot do anything to stop this process, because it is just simply in us? It's a tool to understand what's happening, yes, but one can't prevent it happening.

My life has played backwards in comparison to other people. They start out with normalcy and end up crazy. I'm the opposite way?