posted June 29, 2017 07:19 PM            

I literally cant form any bond for long term unless they have south node connection with me
Its familir tought me a lot but its draining too much emotions

Why all my relationships are based on south node?????

This is my chart will i ever have a normal connection and love

posted July 05, 2017 01:11 AM            

There's Work to do. We are re-reminding each other of our Purpose, perhaps... Waking up talents that otherwise could be dormant without that re-contact.

Your chart....
The quincunx also puts a strain on health due to unaddressed irritations or almost imperceptible botherations going on in the background all the time, involving those planets. And also, your sesquiquadrates and the semi-square, involving your Moon are low invisible tensions.

You're talking (mercury) and doing things (mars) you say, but perhaps not really checking in to include what your feelings (moon) hold inside before you act.

What you feel has to be factored in... or, your emotions keep accruing stress, and if these stay bothered too long, it can make an impact on your health, and the sense of well-being.

Value, what you feel.
Consider, no over-riding, before making impulsive moves and decisions.

An 8th House Moon is very tuned-in to other people's feelings... and with Scorpio on that cusp, even more-so.

"This is an excellent indication for a person who can work in one of the healing professions-- a therapist, physician, or spiritual worker." -- Alan Oken quote.

*ahem* ... ON YOUR SouthNode Cancer ---
I have my Vertex-Angel, and Uranus conjunct, in the Cancer H8.
Your Moon Scorpio sextiles mine in Virgo,
.. and trines my Jupiter Cancer exactly.
I ALSO have a Venus Taurus (12+).
Your Mars Cancer conjuncts mine by 2 1/2 degrees.
Your Mercury Aries sextiles my Mercury Gemini.
Your Saturn on my Chiron.)

SN connections are 'familiar' territory. Been there, done that.

You 'know' this energy already. You came in already an adept at this placement. Yours? Perhaps you're 'at home' with them...
H4 Cancer ruled by Moon.
Your SN trines your Moon Scorpio...
and Pluto-rx is Scorpio, intensifying and adding intrigue to your relationship experience.

You say you're tired? ... Do you mean that because of a sense of boredom with repetitions?

Make sure you include your feelings and make sure you talk about them to clear yourself. Monitor that sense. Try to keep balanced-- talk/thinking + feelings + taking actions in line with these.

'Be' with yourself.

posted July 05, 2017 07:58 PM            

Im tired because when i meet ppl with sn connection i get emotionally drained i feel the connection even before i see their charts i just know that there is a deep connection for better or worse. And i get attched to this familirty like u said i feel like home. And i realize down the line that i was only feeling this way and the other person is not involved as much as me it crushes my emotional state wonder if im stupid if im wrong or if they are shallow i started to isolate myself and runaway from ppl with sn connection to me and didnt work to felt like i need to run towards them instead. I just think if i show what i truly feel it wont get accepted or understood by the other person. And its getting difficult to put aside my moon. Any advice though cause u do understand that i feel connection more. Probably also because of pluto.

posted July 09, 2017 12:49 AM            

You might want to start to monitor the messages you give yourself in your head?
Are they bringing you down too much?

Don't forget to inject some fun in your life? ....

Life is so short, yet soooo long.

Try not to worry, but Care about yourself tenderly... as you would tend for another.

(I've had close intimate long-term relationships with Aries before. I kind of understand what goes on inside. Take it easy! ..)

Try not to doubt yourself so much.
Receive (and culture) the positive things.

(sun squ uran-nep)
(That's a mark of frustration that was imprinted upon you as child or infant---
Do work with a Spiritual Healer who understand 'cellular' memories. Maybe invest in bodywork if you can afford it.)

Wishing you The Best.

posted July 14, 2017 04:43 PM            

I'm so glad you saw (and considered) the 'longer' version.
Thank you.

My South Node is Gemini (True 26.32; mean 27.31) in H7gem.

conjuncts Mercury Gem 27.54'
conjunct FixedStar Polaris Gem 27.57
and Beteljeuse-Betelguese-Betelguese at 28.07. *ref Movie*
sextile Pluto-P.o.Fortune Leo 24.25 {{with LOTS of artistic asteroids} e.o. H8canc
haha,
and
443 Photographica Leo 28.52 H9

biQuintile to Chiron-rx Aquarius H2capr
which trines my {otherwise traditionally unaspected} Sun Gem 7+ in H6taur

snMerc-MarsCancer 2+ makes TRINES
Neptune-rx Libra 25.56 10th.

Neptune 10th sextile
NN-GalacticCenter-
566 Stereoskopia-rx 26.49 Sag H1.

Grand Air trine????
if you want to count
3rd House CUSP Aquarius 25.56 ...
1282 Utopia Aquarius 25.59.
(etheric Pisces intercepted in my 3rd -- Aries IC 2.30)

Higher Ideals,
Sense of palpable wordless Vision
and
cinemax/Disney Inspirational Imagination...
I had an eidetic memory till ~mid 20-ish.

A Poet's Sensitive Heart with a synesthete's imagination.....

posted July 18, 2017 08:08 PM            

Yes, I agree...
It's so much Fun to share with another person.

My Sun is in your H2.
In your H3,
my Merc 27+gem conjunct your MarsCancer.
My Mars is conjunct your MarsCancer by around 2 degrees.

Lots of Caring talk and ideas?? LOL