posted November 14, 2017 07:33 PM
Hi Todd.
Thank you very much for replying me.
I am very interested in learning anything I possibly can even if I didn't ask for it as long as it has to do with a subject that I like (of course astrology is one of them) Unfortunately my only astrological source is internet. I can not find much about the Nodes online and most of what I've found says the same things (I initially said) with different words.
So I made this post because I didn't feel satisfied, I felt that there was a deeper meaning to the Nodes. (I am sure T. Pluto has to do with it) According to your reply I wasn't wrong. Almost everthing you've said rings true.
I checked the link and I just read the initial post (I will eventually read to all the comments) So it seems like the Nodes are the energy behing the other planets and Node transits show important events in one's life.
This is something new to me as I've never seen T. Node being used in astrologic predictions before. I can not quite get the part where you say that Node gives the timing of the planet.. Till now accurate predictions have been made for me many times by some generous people who didn't even used the T. Node. This makes it seem like the Nodes are not that important especially compared to the other planets, otherwise the predictions wouldn't be so accurate right? (I am not trying to say that you are wrong or that I know better by any means. In fact I can not even accept the huge compliment of yours about me being well versed in astrology, it sounded too nice but I don't actually deserve it.)
I do not have an opinion about the asteroid Sappho that you mentioned, but about me being agressive.. Well I speak the truth without trying to make it sound better or worse than it is.. Majority of people nowadays is very easily offended and believe that they are kind and deserve kindness by pretending to be kind, once you tell them something that they don't like without asctually offending them they show their true face which is far away from the kind one they had before.. There is too much hypocrisy nowadays. If we all were sincere relationships (I mean any kind of relationship) would be easier, more stable and wouldn't luck substance.
But I am not offensive when it comes to the words I am using nor I express myself angrily. It's the opposite I am very calm (although I have intense/expressive eyes but I can not control that).
I commented that it is hard for me to find what I am looking for nowadays although it is not unrealistic. I actually need another me in a male version.
Now as for me liking girls, I wouldn't really have a problem if that was true but I've never felt attracted sexually or emotionally to any female. To be honest I always prefered to be around men, I trust men much more than women and they are far more interesting and appealing to me, if only they weren't sexmaniacs. What makes me not trust men is that they would do/say anything just to have sex.
Now to the very interesting psychic part.. I've heard so many times that I have psychic abilities but I never seriously thought of it untill now that you emphasised it.
It is true that most of the times I thought that what I sensed most of the times could be explained logically but there were sometimes that no matter how hard I've tried there just wasn't any logical explanation. So I thought that I have just good intuition..
There have been 2 ocassions though that intuition was far less than enough to describe what I experienced.
Both of these were connected to my father (I won't even talk about how much I love my father because it will take days to even give you a small idea)
1.First time it happened like this: I was feeling perfectly fine that day until I suddenly started panicking without apparent reason, I quickly went to my mom and told her to immediately call my father, she saw the clock and then looked at me with a puzzled look telling me that he would be working at such an early hour. As soon as she finished her phrase tears begun running through my cheeks,(I am not a person who cries easily btw) and when she realised it she immediately called my father. That day my dad had finished work earlier (which was rare, like once in several years rare) and had a car accident some moments before my mom called him. It wasn't serious but my dad got scared and he was shocked, he didn't have any serious injuries though. As soon as I heard his voice and comfirmed that he was fine I was calm again, my mother on the other hand was quite shocked and wondering how I knew.
2. Second ocassion was when dad had a serious health problem but he was doing suprising well. It started in the same way.. I was completely fine and enjoying myself and I suddenly started panicking way too much that night without apparent reason again. This time it was too scary, I was feeling my whole body shaking internally, I couldn't understand what was going on but I was sure that it wasn't a health related issue.. The first thing I did was to call my father who was with my mother and I asked him if they were ok. They were fine but that feeling wasn't going away, I couldn't sleep and I thought that I was going to lose my mind. Once again tears were escaping my eyes without me actually crying. I felt like the world was going to fall apart and there wasn't enough time for me to find out how to prevent it from happening. The urgent feeling was too intense. I was at this scary state about 15 hours until my dad died next morning.
There are some other weird things happening like when I see a person and I feel like I've known him from a past life or something, it is very intense but this is not such an unusual experience no matter how intense and confusing it feels. I actually thought that it was because some of their features reminds us other people that we are familiar with.
But I definately found it unusual when it happened through an internet chat. That person sent me just a "hi" like hundreds of other men, he had no profile pic, no age no infos, he could be a perverted old man, but I felt like I recognised him immediately and I kind of felt butterflies in my stomach.. It turned out that I was right.. Because especially when I saw his eyes I got that feeling that I knew him and that we finally found each other again after so long. I think that the most correct way to describe it is that I already have warm overwhelming feelings for that person but there is also some kind of pain, like I know I am going to lose him again.
It gets even more weird when the other person feels the exact same way at least about knowing you like from a previous life or something like that because it sounds like there is some truth to it and I don't just have a mental disorder or something like that.
Still I need solid proof in order to believe in it although I am not really blind to it, I am not denying it, I just can not fully understand it.
Despite my Pisces Moon in 9th H and Sun in 12th H I am not really good with anything abstract. If I indeed have psychic ability I do not know how to understand it or use it in my advantage or even recognise it.
I have too many dreams that feel too real but I do not understand their meaning if they have one. My dreams sometimes feel like they are trying to tell me something but I fail to get it. On the other hand all people dream so it is not special.
I have never had a vision so I do not know what it would be like but it sounds kind of scary.
When I think about this it feels like I am dealing with a chaos in my head, I get lost into so many questions and fantastic theories I get overwhelmed and I am starting to question my sanity.
I am surprised though that the interpretation of the Node in 7th H does not seem like it has anything to do with what 7th H represents unless you were exclusively talking about my Node aspects.
You definately broaden my mind and answered an unrelated to this topic question I always had about me having such a practical, analytical and logical mind when natal Mercury is in Cancer and is not aspected by any of the main planets.
Sorry both for my huge comment and my English.