posted September 26, 2018 10:41 PM            

This is natal chart with transits and progressions

posted September 27, 2018 02:34 PM            

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Originally posted by tphoenix5:
I am going to speak to the chart in general and then to the transit I believe most supports what you are going thru and I hope that it helps.
First of all, if this chart is correct.. you have sun in the 12 house. That is a harder than normal aspect. You feel as though you pushed your way to the head of the line risking all and FOR WHAT? (I am sorry if this does not fit) So, life on this planet has not lived up to expectations thus far.
Right now Venus is about to go retrograde inconjunct or in a gibbous phase if you would prefer your sun. This speaks to making an adjustment to your ideals. If it were a Full phase or later I would say ditch the dream. But with an inconjunct it is about making an adjustment. For example, a friend of mine was going to school to be an industrial engineer. In the meantime, he took a job as an electrician, he was so good at it and loved it so much.. he stopped going to school for this other thing that he had bragged all thru high school that he wanted to be this type of engineer. He made the adjustment. I hope this makes sense. You need to give any major change about 6 months until both the retrograde passes and it passes its shadow point... in the meantime... use the retrograde to look at other options. Or try something that someone suggests just so you can say, well I apprenticed in that and it was not for me.Again... hope this helps!

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Thank you I feel this way
Could you tell me when everything will settke down since May I’ve been going through changed and pushed to face my fears
Also yes I am thinking of a big adjustment relocate after an year will that help regarding achive what I want

posted September 28, 2018 03:08 AM            

I won't look at the chart but say that when you want something really badly, life conspires for you to get it.

But you first have to get off the subject and get on something else. Which is difficult if you have been obsessed with the previous subject. I know.

By focusing elsewhere you are not "giving up" but you are also not detailing so much your dissatisfaction that its not there. So your mind eases off the acknowledgement that its not there.
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My feeling about this is that there is too much emotional charge around this dream. Too much that it is consuming.

Consider a doctor in the emergency ward who receives a patient. The family of the patient want to know what is happening every hour on the hour. And some even want to follow the patient into the operating room in order to "see" progress.

Now each and every single time, the doctor turns them away from the emergency room, tells them to wait until she knows more and let her try to do her job.

In this way the doctor distances the family from the crises of the problem and guides them slowly to the outcome. They need to calm down, be centred and put their faith in the process.

Similarly,in your case you have to do the same. You have to let go and let be. Let go and let be. The outcome is sure and coming. Just do not focus so much energy on "where is it? Where is it? Where is it?" Etc.

If you do this, you will drive yourself insane with worry,anxiety and more sadness.

Your family means well. They don't mean "don't care anymore". They mean " let go" because they see how badly you hanging on to the "where is it?" is doing to you.