posted February 28, 2019 06:19 AM            

As I said, I don't remember something really bad happening to me as a child, only that a (I think 17 year old boy that I didn't know) locked the room where I was in and tried to kiss me. I was 10 at that time and it was during a summer vacation in a different country. It felt really dangerous and I escaped from him, but as far as I know he didn't have a chance to really DO something (except causing a trauma, I guess...). I think that if I didn't escape, he would try more than just kissing. I don't remember what happened after I escaped, only one night shortly after that I couldn't sleep because that experience made me so scared! I was so scared and I cried a lot and when I tried to explain to my parents what happened, they cut me off mid sentence and laughed because they thought I had a crush on that boy. This made me so mad that I didn't tell them at all and processed this trauma by myself.

So yeah, no other really sexually abusive moments.
I have to say though that I don't think it's right that you flat out tell that someone has experienced sexual abuse/trauma that may be blocked from the memory, because if that's the case, then that person's body blocked that memory because it was dangerous for the mind to live with that idea. So the blocking is for safety purposes.
If you tell them that something like that happened, it may trigger more emotional problems, because I would think that if that person doesn't remember it right now, it's because they're not ready to remember it, so telling them that kind of stuff without thinking about the consequences doesn't seem right to me.
You work them slowly towards that experience, so they remember it themselves, just like how a good therapist would do.

After reading your second post for me, I felt really bad and I cried, because I thought 'what if something really bad happened and I don't even know?'. It made me feel really bad. Very disturbing thought.
So my advice is, please be careful with what you say when it comes to abuse and trauma.

posted February 28, 2019 06:40 PM            

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Originally posted by Springtimeflower:
Thank you Todd for doing this! Your time and energy are appreciated.

Spring

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posted February 28, 2019 06:42 PM            

ok your next and i'll open up the schedule for others.

posted March 01, 2019 08:03 PM            

I've come to realize over the years that the most effective is relevant, clear knowledge. Of course, knowledge is what it is, and always useful in some way or another, so better to have it than not, even the ones that are painful/undesirable.

Have been told lots of times I have a very strong mind by strangers, interestingly enough. Other people who are bright/academically intelligent (and yes, also authority/teachers) can see and/or seem to at least acknowledge that I'm like/similar to them in intelligence/aptitude. Sometimes there's an edgy feeling that comes with this, probably from me and especially if I can sense there's judgment to it.

The strongest dark emotion would be anger, and very explosive, which would also be very attractive to other stuff like abuse and violence that you indicated towards the end of the reading. Thankfully, those haven't happened to me. However, my parents did go through very difficult episodes in their lives when they were young. I totally know and believe with my whole being that their love and protectiveness were what made their raising me so effective that it's still helping me so I'm really able to deal with those emotional darknesses/energies in myself. Having said all that, verbal abuse wasn't off the table, and I suppose all criticism would eventually attract that anyway.

Others had mostly felt/seen that I'd be a marrying person, or someone with at least an eventful lovelife. This didn't really sit well with me when I was younger because I always knew I had a lot of contradictions in me that I didn't always understand or accept. If I leaned too much on one tendency or the other, everything just turned chaotic. Now, I can laugh about it even though I'm still learning.

posted March 01, 2019 08:15 PM            

Uranus is conjunct to these with an orb of 4 degrees which is not as exact has i like to ee, but sine here he vertex and node are conjunct,the Uranus conjunction increases you psychic sensitivity and give you access to the astral plane.you rema re vivid and prophetic. you probably have flying dream and out of the body experiences.

mercury is sextile Uranus which gives you mind excellent creative use of the astral plane. you telepathy and vivid dreams/astral travel are stable and understandable to you.
this sextile in addition gives you great intelligence. you have brilliance without the high strung personality aspects that can occur with Uranus/mercury hard aspects.

i'll get back tomorrow but these aspect are just so striking i had to (1 of 1) A sign posted at The Vancouver Clinic in Vancouver, Wash., warns patients and visitors of a measles outbreak. The focus on measles in the Pacific Northwest intensified Friday, March 1, 2019, as public health officials in Oregon announced a new case of the highly contagious disease unrelated to an ongoing outbreak in Washington state that's sickened 68 people so far.

March 02, 2019
An unvaccinated Illinois resident who spent time overseas visited Portland International Airport and various locations in Salem, Oregon last week while contagious with measles, the Oregon Health Authority said. Potential exposure locations include a Red Robin restaurant and a trampoline fun park in Salem, officials said.

The case is unrelated to an ongoing measles outbreak in southwest Washington state that's sickened dozens. Public health officials in Clark County, Washington, said three new cases were identified Friday and two more are suspected.

That brings the number of cases in the Portland, Oregon bedroom community of Vancouver, Washington, to 68 — more than 40 percent of the number reported nationwide since Jan. 1, the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention said in updated statistics released Friday.

There have been 159 measles cases identified nationwide through Feb. 21, the CDC said, and Washington accounted for 69 of those. There have been six outbreaks nationwide, including in Illinois, Texas, New York City and Monroe and Rockland counties in New York state. An outbreak is defined as three or more cases at a time.

Most cases in Washington are young children under age 10 who were not vaccinated. Before Friday, Multnomah County — home to Portland, Oregon — had identified four people with measles and one who could have measles. One man in King County, which is home to Seattle, also had measles. Those cases were thought to be connected to the outbreak in southwest Washington, however.

The viral illness has a long incubation period and 21 days must pass without a new case before the outbreak could be considered over in southwest Washington, said Dr. Alan Melnick, public health director in Clark County, Washington.

State legislatures in both Washington and Oregon are considering laws that would remove non-medical exemptions for the routinely administered measles vaccine. Both states currently allow parents to opt out of the measles immunizations if they have a religious or philosophical (1 of 1) A sign posted at The Vancouver Clinic in Vancouver, Wash., warns patients and visitors of a measles outbreak. The focus on measles in the Pacific Northwest intensified Friday, March 1, 2019, as public health officials in Oregon announced a new case of the highly contagious disease unrelated to an ongoing outbreak in Washington state that's sickened 68 people so far.

March 02, 2019
An unvaccinated Illinois resident who spent time overseas visited Portland International Airport and various locations in Salem, Oregon last week while contagious with measles, the Oregon Health Authority said. Potential exposure locations include a Red Robin restaurant and a trampoline fun park in Salem, officials said.

The case is unrelated to an ongoing measles outbreak in southwest Washington state that's sickened dozens. Public health officials in Clark County, Washington, said three new cases were identified Friday and two more are suspected.

That brings the number of cases in the Portland, Oregon bedroom community of Vancouver, Washington, to 68 — more than 40 percent of the number reported nationwide since Jan. 1, the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention said in updated statistics released Friday.

There have been 159 measles cases identified nationwide through Feb. 21, the CDC said, and Washington accounted for 69 of those. There have been six outbreaks nationwide, including in Illinois, Texas, New York City and Monroe and Rockland counties in New York state. An outbreak is defined as three or more cases at a time.

Most cases in Washington are young children under age 10 who were not vaccinated. Before Friday, Multnomah County — home to Portland, Oregon — had identified four people with measles and one who could have measles. One man in King County, which is home to Seattle, also had measles. Those cases were thought to be connected to the outbreak in southwest Washington, however.

The viral illness has a long incubation period and 21 days must pass without a new case before the outbreak could be considered over in southwest Washington, said Dr. Alan Melnick, public health director in Clark County, Washington.

State legislatures in both Washington and Oregon are considering laws that would remove non-medical exemptions for the routinely administered measles vaccine. Both states currently allow parents to opt out of the measles immunizations if they have a religious or philosophical objection. a bit.

todd

posted March 01, 2019 11:01 PM            

On what you wrote so far, I have experienced an unfolding of sensitivity to energies/feelings/sound/smell (actually someone's perfume and cigarette smoke..ones that I remember or recognized as to them actually coming from somewhere else--probably girls that were dating a guy I had been interested in and thought about). As a child, my mom took a pic of me lying on the ground..looking like I was trying to fly..as a parallel..until my most recent career change..much of it was related before to electronics or aviation. The prophetic stuff seems to come and go..maybe it happens when other planets activate those aspects. Had it happen while in college and also at work (one person even asked me what else did my crystal ball have to say). I had just told my coworker something and then our boss walked out of his office and repeated almost verbatim what I said. I also weirded out a boss once, when I called him out of the blue and asked how his job was and that shouldn't he be getting a promotion sometime--they announced it the next day. When I saw him a few weeks later at a restaurant, he looked at me like I was weird. It has also helped me with doing jobs that I have had--knowing what to work on first. My ears get hot and turn red and I get flushed at times--one past boss even seemed to know what that was--I just told him it was a temperature change. From one experience, though, I believe that some folks aren't meant to know some of what people have as gifts. When I was much younger, I had some bad nightmares once, got out of bed and turned the light on...then I saw something moving under my bedding and then it left towards the foot of the bed, but then I saw nothing. I took everything off and there was nothing under the sheets. Can't remember what someone said this was. I find myself trying to not think about people. I have also had vivid dreams that were prophetic. It will be interesting to hear what else you find.

A side note: Back in the late 70s, and I believe it was a study done by the American Federation of Astrologers, I submitted my birth time to them and not long afterwards I received a phone call. The man who called asked me if I was certain that the time I had given to them was correct. I said yes, but then added, is there something wrong with my chart? He said no and that was the end of our conversation. Later I received my chart and print out of some of the aspects with interpretations. They didn't really go into too much depth and no predictions.

posted March 02, 2019 03:52 PM            

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Originally posted by todd:
[QUOTE]Originally posted by todd:
[b]hi Springtimeflower
i won't hav etime to complete this but i jus noticed that your node is conjunct to the vertex. that is a very powerful psychic aspect.but it can also be the most confusing because the vertex is symbolic of the energies/karma of the "universe", which means that much of the energy is about other planes of reality besides the human plane. you have very strong psychic abilities but some of the images and energy you pickup are not about our plane of reality.
vertex and the node shows you have had otherworldly or paranormal feelings or experiences.you life can seem to be affected by outside force or karmic forces/synchronicity . you can develop a since of destiny as unusual circumstances have always affect how your life unfolded.

Uranus is conjunct to these with an orb of 4 degrees which is not as exact has i like to ee, but sine here he vertex and node are conjunct,the Uranus conjunction increases you psychic sensitivity and give you access to the astral plane.you rema re vivid and prophetic. you probably have flying dream and out of the body experiences.

mercury is sextile Uranus which gives you mind excellent creative use of the astral plane. you telepathy and vivid dreams/astral travel are stable and understandable to you.
this sextile in addition gives you great intelligence. you have brilliance without the high strung personality aspects that can occur with Uranus/mercury hard aspects.

i'll get back tomorrow but these aspect are just so striking i had to

(1 of 1) A sign posted at The Vancouver Clinic in Vancouver, Wash., warns patients and visitors of a measles outbreak. The focus on measles in the Pacific Northwest intensified Friday, March 1, 2019, as public health officials in Oregon announced a new case of the highly contagious disease unrelated to an ongoing outbreak in Washington state that's sickened 68 people so far.

March 02, 2019
An unvaccinated Illinois resident who spent time overseas visited Portland International Airport and various locations in Salem, Oregon last week while contagious with measles, the Oregon Health Authority said. Potential exposure locations include a Red Robin restaurant and a trampoline fun park in Salem, officials said.

The case is unrelated to an ongoing measles outbreak in southwest Washington state that's sickened dozens. Public health officials in Clark County, Washington, said three new cases were identified Friday and two more are suspected.

That brings the number of cases in the Portland, Oregon bedroom community of Vancouver, Washington, to 68 — more than 40 percent of the number reported nationwide since Jan. 1, the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention said in updated statistics released Friday.

There have been 159 measles cases identified nationwide through Feb. 21, the CDC said, and Washington accounted for 69 of those. There have been six outbreaks nationwide, including in Illinois, Texas, New York City and Monroe and Rockland counties in New York state. An outbreak is defined as three or more cases at a time.

Most cases in Washington are young children under age 10 who were not vaccinated. Before Friday, Multnomah County — home to Portland, Oregon — had identified four people with measles and one who could have measles. One man in King County, which is home to Seattle, also had measles. Those cases were thought to be connected to the outbreak in southwest Washington, however.

The viral illness has a long incubation period and 21 days must pass without a new case before the outbreak could be considered over in southwest Washington, said Dr. Alan Melnick, public health director in Clark County, Washington.

State legislatures in both Washington and Oregon are considering laws that would remove non-medical exemptions for the routinely administered measles vaccine. Both states currently allow parents to opt out of the measles immunizations if they have a religious or philosophical (1 of 1) A sign posted at The Vancouver Clinic in Vancouver, Wash., warns patients and visitors of a measles outbreak. The focus on measles in the Pacific Northwest intensified Friday, March 1, 2019, as public health officials in Oregon announced a new case of the highly contagious disease unrelated to an ongoing outbreak in Washington state that's sickened 68 people so far.

March 02, 2019
An unvaccinated Illinois resident who spent time overseas visited Portland International Airport and various locations in Salem, Oregon last week while contagious with measles, the Oregon Health Authority said. Potential exposure locations include a Red Robin restaurant and a trampoline fun park in Salem, officials said.

The case is unrelated to an ongoing measles outbreak in southwest Washington state that's sickened dozens. Public health officials in Clark County, Washington, said three new cases were identified Friday and two more are suspected.

That brings the number of cases in the Portland, Oregon bedroom community of Vancouver, Washington, to 68 — more than 40 percent of the number reported nationwide since Jan. 1, the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention said in updated statistics released Friday.

There have been 159 measles cases identified nationwide through Feb. 21, the CDC said, and Washington accounted for 69 of those. There have been six outbreaks nationwide, including in Illinois, Texas, New York City and Monroe and Rockland counties in New York state. An outbreak is defined as three or more cases at a time.

Most cases in Washington are young children under age 10 who were not vaccinated. Before Friday, Multnomah County — home to Portland, Oregon — had identified four people with measles and one who could have measles. One man in King County, which is home to Seattle, also had measles. Those cases were thought to be connected to the outbreak in southwest Washington, however.

The viral illness has a long incubation period and 21 days must pass without a new case before the outbreak could be considered over in southwest Washington, said Dr. Alan Melnick, public health director in Clark County, Washington.

State legislatures in both Washington and Oregon are considering laws that would remove non-medical exemptions for the routinely administered measles vaccine. Both states currently allow parents to opt out of the measles immunizations if they have a religious or philosophical objection.

a bit.

todd

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once I was replying to a private message and all of a sudden about20-30 lines just appeared . I knew this was done byjupiter ascndsnt because I hd just told him to move a off topic post .
but this is so bad tht I can't even openAW when I m looking a alt news sites bcuase the computer will freeze or the website will stop responding. the site refuses to identify who owns it but they are clearly a intelligence agency ,with leaning to the new world order and Israel.i have had entire threads deleted, 2 years of post just disappear in other,plus from 1/15/19 to 2/1/19. 50 posts wee deleted, not to mention the 100's that have been deleted over the years.they have gone back and deleted my response to hundreds of my replys to chart questions over the years.. generally they do everything they can to discredit me. AW has a tab that shows how many hit a article has. I have had to record my hits because I followed them subtracting hit from my list. a and when I try to post article they don't like,i can't post it for various reason or it takes 1/2 hour to post a article that should take 2 minutes.or other obstacles come up the .
so I always go to AW when I m through with surfing. they also can go into your emails if they are open.

well yesterday I made the mistake of opening up AW and then forgot it was open. the quotes above are from a posy I made about anti vaccines.

just explaining and remember if you open AW ,they can and will go into everything you are doing. and screw with it like they did here if the are so inclined.
todd [/B][/QUOTE]

posted March 02, 2019 04:26 PM            

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Originally posted by Springtimeflower:
Thanks Todd.

On what you wrote so far, I have experienced an unfolding of sensitivity to energies/feelings/sound/smell (actually someone's perfume and cigarette smoke..ones that I remember or recognized as to them actually coming from somewhere else--probably girls that were dating a guy I had been interested in and thought about). As a child, my mom took a pic of me lying on the ground..looking like I was trying to fly..as a parallel..until my most recent career change..much of it was related before to electronics or aviation. The prophetic stuff seems to come and go..maybe it happens when other planets activate those aspects. Had it happen while in college and also at work (one person even asked me what else did my crystal ball have to say). I had just told my coworker something and then our boss walked out of his office and repeated almost verbatim what I said. I also weirded out a boss once, when I called him out of the blue and asked how his job was and that shouldn't he be getting a promotion sometime--they announced it the next day. When I saw him a few weeks later at a restaurant, he looked at me like I was weird. It has also helped me with doing jobs that I have had--knowing what to work on first. My ears get hot and turn red and I get flushed at times--one past boss even seemed to know what that was--I just told him it was a temperature change. From one experience, though, I believe that some folks aren't meant to know some of what people have as gifts. When I was much younger,........................
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I had some bad nightmares once, got out of bed and turned the light on...then I saw something moving under my bedding and then it left towards the foot of the bed, but then I saw nothing. I took everything off and there was nothing under the sheets. Can't remember what someone said this was.
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I think this is the enegy of the vertex coming through you node. as I mentioned th vertex is not just energy o our plan of reality but it is the energy of all planes and therefore some energy from the vertex applies to out earth plane but when you pick up vertex energy from other planes the experiences/feelings can be quite confusing or frightening.

this reminds a experience I had with dematerialization some time ago... I'm going off topic but what you said brought it to mind...I was on a bus going from Texas to Colorado. I was looking at thechart of the guy next to me and I had brought out a folder I kept my trnsit work in, so when I finished ,I liked for the folder nd it was around.. I mean we are sitting next to ach other in bus.. finally I looked in my pack and the folder was back in its place. but this is just a lead up to what happened next week in Denver.... I went into a Laundromat to use the the coke machine. I had never een a mchine like this. the fac was place and clear... you could see the cans lined up in verticle columns.when you made a selections the can rolled to the far right and fell on a conveyor belt that you had to crank by hand to move it across the front of the machine and drop it off into a chute that went to the bottom of the machine were you push open a door and retrieved you soda.
now again the face was clear plastic so you could watch the entire process until the can fell to the bottom. when the can feel I heard a "muffled" sound and when checked bottom receptacle...there was no soda. it had disappeared...while I was watching ..almost.i complained and asked if there was a hole or something wrong. she d=said no. I checked and there was no hole or opening other thn the front...she looked at like a was crazy but refunded my 75 cents.. so I know that strange realities' can intersect with ours..as you surmise, rnsits seem to bring these experience out, though some people experience them steadly .

I checked charts and could not find anything at that time, though I was not using the array of symbols I do now,such as the vertex.
in retrospect ,I thing the moving folder on the bus was of the same dematerialization nature.
then ne week after the soda can incident another strange thing happened though it coul hve been human error..simply a had a lotto scratch game that I had won 20 dollars with.... but when I cashed it I paid 100. it could have been error but that this happen a week after the other incident and the fact I have never mistook the prize on a scratch game makes me think this was of the
same ilk.

I find myself trying to not think about people. I have also had vivid dreams that were prophetic. It will be interesting to hear what else you find.

A side note: Back in the late 70s, and I believe it was a study done by the American Federation of Astrologers, I submitted my birth time to them and not long afterwards I received a phone call. The man who called asked me if I was certain that the time I had given to them was correct. I said yes, but then added, is there something wrong with my chart? He said no and that was the end of our conversation. Later I received my chart and print out of some of the aspects with interpretations. They didn't really go into too much depth and no predictions.

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posted March 02, 2019 06:16 PM            

Uranus is conjunct to these with an orb of 4 degrees which is not as exact has i like to ee, but sine here he vertex and node are conjunct,the Uranus conjunction increases you psychic sensitivity and give you access to the astral plane.you rema re vivid and prophetic. you probably have flying dream and out of the body experiences.

mercury is sextile Uranus which gives you mind excellent creative use of the astral plane. you telepathy and vivid dreams/astral travel are stable and understandable to you.
this sextile in addition gives you great intelligence. you have brilliance without the high strung personality aspects that can occur with Uranus/mercury hard aspects.

you likely surprise people as the Saturn on your ascendant gives you a more practical or materialist ambience. with mercury square you have mental attitudes that are almost diametrically opposed to your psychic/astral abilities. this can give a serious demeanor and you like direct proof become you draw conclusions . Saturn is conjunct to Jupiter which gives integrative abilities. You are successful in stressful situations because you can see the compromised needed to resolve logjams.
but combination can make you prone to despondency at times.
with ixion square to Saturn , there is often underlying latent aggression directed at you.this can give you a defensive aspect to your personality but it also you are a fighter if pushed and a protector of others that may be mistreated.
Sedna is opposed to ixion and square to Saturn/Jupiter which indicates that you are hesitant to to speak your min at times, as ixion opposed to Sedna shows that others can respond harshly at times if you truth is too potent.

Lilith is conjunct to psych and sextile to the sun and trine to erosand sextie to the moon. this makes you a hopeless romantic. it gives you childlike quality ,always able to approach others with a innocent demeanor and expectations.
this ambience also catches some awares as the ixion/Saturn aspect is so much more "grounded" in practical possibilities that the idealist, romantic focus you have can seem incongruous.

with then moon conjunct to orcus and sextile to pluto, you have deep and profound emotional feelings. you feel everything very deeply. this might been what you mean when you posted: I find myself trying to not think about people.
this pattern gives you strong emotional healing power though it can give you a center selfishness . this would be accentuated wit your ceres square to the node which is very nurturing, though very protective also.

your moon is square to eris which ins spite of you deepth of feelings, you are also very emotive as eris is very outward going and very sexual, though it is not associated with romantic love as it is love of the moment or love and lust for life.put I adds ambition and energy to oife and the midpoint is conjunct to ceres which gain emphasizes that you have a strong instinct to offer support ,healing and support energy to others.

i'll have to get back to complete this
todd

posted March 02, 2019 06:27 PM            

Thank you for also sharing your story about the disappearing items. I've been told that everything is made of energy, so I can see it morphing and disappearing.

posted March 03, 2019 04:12 PM            

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Originally posted by EmGem:
I’m not sure if this is still open but I’d love to have mine read if that’s ok Todd

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poochycat is next after I finish Springtimeflower ,you'll be after her.
todd

posted March 03, 2019 04:22 PM            

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Originally posted by Springtimeflower:
Thank you for the heads up on Astrology Weekly...I'll remember not to go there for anything. I used to get their monthly magazines years ago while soaking up as much info on astrology as I could fit in my brain. I stuck with the basics for the most part, and haven't ventured into the more advanced aspects, etc. like you have.

Thank you for also sharing your story about the disappearing items. I've been told that everything is made of energy, so I can see it morphing and disappearing.

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posted March 03, 2019 04:51 PM            

hi Springtimeflower
i won't hav etime to complete this but i jus noticed that your node is conjunct to the vertex. that is a very powerful psychic aspect.but it can also be the most confusing because the vertex is symbolic of the energies/karma of the "universe", which means that much of the energy is about other planes of reality besides the human plane. you have very strong psychic abilities but some of the images and energy you pickup are not about our plane of reality.
vertex and the node shows you have had otherworldly or paranormal feelings or experiences.you life can seem to be affected by outside force or karmic forces/synchronicity . you can develop a since of destiny as unusual circumstances have always affect how your life unfolded.

Uranus is conjunct to these with an orb of 4 degrees which is not as exact has i like to ee, but sine here he vertex and node are conjunct,the Uranus conjunction increases you psychic sensitivity and give you access to the astral plane.you rema re vivid and prophetic. you probably have flying dream and out of the body experiences.

mercury is sextile Uranus which gives you mind excellent creative use of the astral plane. you telepathy and vivid dreams/astral travel are stable and understandable to you.
this sextile in addition gives you great intelligence. you have brilliance without the high strung personality aspects that can occur with Uranus/mercury hard aspects.

you likely surprise people as the Saturn on your ascendant gives you a more practical or materialist ambience. with mercury square you have mental attitudes that are almost diametrically opposed to your psychic/astral abilities. this can give a serious demeanor and you like direct proof become you draw conclusions . Saturn is conjunct to Jupiter which gives integrative abilities. You are successful in stressful situations because you can see the compromised needed to resolve logjams.
but combination can make you prone to despondency at times.
with ixion square to Saturn , there is often underlying latent aggression directed at you.this can give you a defensive aspect to your personality but it also you are a fighter if pushed and a protector of others that may be mistreated.
Sedna is opposed to ixion and square to Saturn/Jupiter which indicates that you are hesitant to to speak your min at times, as ixion opposed to Sedna shows that others can respond harshly at times if you truth is too potent.

Lilith is conjunct to psych and sextile to the sun and trine to erosand sextie to the moon. this makes you a hopeless romantic. it gives you childlike quality ,always able to approach others with a innocent demeanor and expectations.
this ambience also catches some awares as the ixion/Saturn aspect is so much more "grounded" in practical possibilities that the idealist, romantic focus you have can seem incongruous.

with then moon conjunct to orcus and sextile to pluto, you have deep and profound emotional feelings. you feel everything very deeply. this might been what you mean when you posted: I find myself trying to not think about people.
this pattern gives you strong emotional healing power though it can give you a center selfishness . this would be accentuated wit your ceres square to the node which is very nurturing, though very protective also.

your moon is square to eris which ins spite of you deepth of feelings, you are also very emotive as eris is very outward going and very sexual, though it is not associated with romantic love as it is love of the moment or love and lust for life.put I adds ambition and energy to oife and the midpoint is conjunct to ceres which gain emphasizes that you have a strong instinct to offer support ,healing and support energy to others.

I wanted to comment on another overall impression I get from your chart...
you have pluto conjunct psyche/lilith and you have the venus/sun moon midpoint conjunct to the ixion/ mercury conjunction square to satrun and juopiter.

the pluto aspect can indicate impression come to you from past lives but psyche particularly gives a pain/pleasure dynamic. venus/sun conjunct to ixionet.al also is of this milieu. it seems that you have a disconnect from what might be called normal emotional feelings. it might be an attraction to darker and painful emotional stimulation.

with the pluto/Saturn and Pluto /Jupiter midpoints conjunct your mars,this feeling of pleasure/pain ,love/hate dynamics are also indicated.

ixions influence with venus/sun, seems to indicate that you draw/search edgy relationships. relationships that have the danger/potential of falling into violent discord.

your Neptune/pholous midpoint is opposed to the venus/pluto midpoint, which seems to indicate a awareness of your unusual emotional/sexual predilection and so conceal these insinuations of darker motives and desires you might entertain.

chiron opposed to Uranus/Lilith gives an inherent ctical and judgemental snese,not so much persomnilt characterists as a spontaneous feelings that just arise that give a sense of hypocrisy and contradiction around you and in others. this also augments your astral/psychic abilities though with nessus square to this opposition, you likely have obstructions to these feeling or realizations, because of a childhood conditioned by restrictions cause by the infliction of pain/pleasure-love/hate stimuli.
todd

posted March 03, 2019 04:54 PM            

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Originally posted by releaser:
Hi Todd, your interps are mostly very spot on and consistent with my experiences.

I've come to realize over the years that the most effective is relevant, clear knowledge. Of course, knowledge is what it is, and always useful in some way or another, so better to have it than not, even the ones that are painful/undesirable.

Have been told lots of times I have a very strong mind by strangers, interestingly enough. Other people who are bright/academically intelligent (and yes, also authority/teachers) can see and/or seem to at least acknowledge that I'm like/similar to them in intelligence/aptitude. Sometimes there's an edgy feeling that comes with this, probably from me and especially if I can sense there's judgment to it.

The strongest dark emotion would be anger, and very explosive, which would also be very attractive to other stuff like abuse and violence that you indicated towards the end of the reading. Thankfully, those haven't happened to me. However, my parents did go through very difficult episodes in their lives when they were young. I totally know and believe with my whole being that their love and protectiveness were what made their raising me so effective that it's still helping me so I'm really able to deal with those emotional darknesses/energies in myself. Having said all that, verbal abuse wasn't off the table, and I suppose all criticism would eventually attract that anyway.

Others had mostly felt/seen that I'd be a marrying person, or someone with at least an eventful lovelife. This didn't really sit well with me when I was younger because I always knew I had a lot of contradictions in me that I didn't always understand or accept. If I leaned too much on one tendency or the other, everything just turned chaotic. Now, I can laugh about it even though I'm still learning.

Thanks again for your time and effort in doing this reading, it's quite good.😀

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posted March 03, 2019 05:03 PM            

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[QUOTE]Originally posted by Springtimeflower:
[b]Thank you for the heads up on Astrology Weekly...I'll remember not to go there for anything. I used to get their monthly magazines years ago while soaking up as much info on astrology as I could fit in my brain. I stuck with the basics for the most part, and haven't ventured into the more advanced aspects, etc. like you have.

Thank you for also sharing your story about the disappearing items. I've been told that everything is made of energy, so I can see it morphing and disappearing.

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posted March 03, 2019 07:06 PM            

Wow! Lots of stuff. Just some brief feedback..need to re-read some of what you read for me. Some of the darker stuff you saw may be more the people I seem to run across--especially guys and it relates to past lives..a lot of which has popped up when Pluto began its transit through my 12th house. I've had a transformation of sorts in my approach to relationships--actually going back to how I looked at things years ago..more so in the light rather than dark. Some of what you also saw--pleasure/pain may also be from past lives as well. My 1st house ruler also ruling my 12th house.

I was also curious about the interception of Aquarius in my 1st house and with the Pluto transit happening at the moment and in the months to come, my life will be more like Aquarius rising in the future, and make sense with the work I've started doing as Uranus does aspect my Sun in the 9th house. I have a book that I'm trying to get published--something I would never have dreamed of doing years ago, but have found writing to be something I really enjoy.

Will take a look tomorrow and provide further feedback when I'm rested.

Thank you again Todd for this great offer! Don't forget to post your chart.

posted March 04, 2019 09:59 AM            

Most everything you wrote fits. Years ago I also remember walking by some model homes and having a clear vision of a large black snake. I don't have many visions like this happen, but think it was from spirit to help me. When I continued to walk and came around a bend, there was the black snake, a racer, but as large as it was, if threatened, it could give you nasty bite. Not poisonous, though.

I know my Sun conjunct Neptune is also a psychic aspect, but like what I've read about it, I would need to develop that part (mediumistic, etc.) of my psyche to utilize it. The thought of having people around me in spirit form at all hours of the day wasn't something I was thinking about delving into. I did have someone tell me that my psychic abilities would develop naturally and I have seen some growth on that level over the years.

As for the predilection of interests, I have had times where gay people were interested in me, but that wasn't mutual. My natal Mars on my midheaven comes out as making me more interested in spending my time with men than women. In my childhood, the relationships I had with boys were special, kindred friendships and with the girls it was more competitive or drama oriented. I prefer the former. There are some women that don't fit that profile and those are usually ones that subscribe to a higher mind and way of thinking--involved with environmental issues, having a positive growth-oriented life and the world. The despondent part of the Saturn aspect you were mentioning makes sense when I overwork and my life isn't balanced (I'm getting through that now), so this will be in for a change in the coming months as well.

Overall I'd say you have done a super job in delineating my chart. Thank you again for your time and energy.