posted March 04, 2019 03:47 PM            

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Originally posted by poochycat:
Hi Todd,
Just wondering where I am on the list? After Spring or...
Thanks for letting me know. Looking forward to it.

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you're up poochycat

todd

posted March 04, 2019 10:06 PM            

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Originally posted by EmGem:
So Sandy and then me, is that right Todd?

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posted March 04, 2019 10:52 PM            

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Originally posted by EmGem:
Edit: I can’t see a Sandy 🤔
Just let me know when it’s my turn to post

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posted March 04, 2019 10:54 PM            

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Originally posted by poochycat:
EmGem, my name is Sandy (poochycat). Todd hasn’t done my chart yet.

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post it at your leisure

posted March 05, 2019 05:01 PM            

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Originally posted by poochycat:
Todd, will you be continuing soon with the charts? I’m excited to see what you come up with. 🙂. Poochy

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I,m kinda waiting on you ,sorry I didn't make that clear. you can post now... thanks for your patience
todd

posted March 05, 2019 07:36 PM            

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Originally posted by poochycat:
Bump

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oh whoops , I am so sorry , I forgot. your right it slipped my mind

I trying to remember where I wrote it down.
I have to get off now . i'll be back on around noon PST so we can do then you might to post your data again if it is not still posted

posted March 06, 2019 04:51 PM            

the vertex does bring otherworldly vibrations to you. it can give psychic abilities but often there is so much information coming in that the images can be confusing as not all is applicable to your personal karma.but with Jupiter conjunct, you are marked with amazing access to knowledge. his is very favorable to counseling, teaching or pursuing higher knowledge.this position usually makes one a center of your peer group because you are acknowledged as intelligent and just.... usually.. here with chiron square to Jupiter , you have a tendency to answer caustically , though accurately .your lack of patience with hypocrisy and can break friendships because of your direct and impartial manner. chiron greatly increases you intelligent with a incisive, analytical and critical outlook. This square shows a interest in the "hidden" source/answers to all aspects of the nature of reality. socially, psychologically and spiritually.
this tends to b a ambitious aspect and can be intellectually ruthless in attaining your advantage in all endeavors. this gives an interest in social groups with a hidden knowledge or a selectivity at the core of heir membership. this can be as innocuous as social clubs or include groups associated with social machinations of the culture. such as masons or other secret societies. but the central desire is to understand the real dynamics behind reality.
the vertex can give psychics abilities but often the square of chiron disguises the awareness of these abilities because of it's strong deductive and analytical nature. but ignorance of you abilities is unlikely
with Uranus square the vertex et.al. you definitely are subject to amazing astral dreams. This gives you access to knowledge that you don't have to research... it just comes to you.the square to Jupiter shows that this can lead to great personal heights but it also brings the danger of a rebellious nature that doesn't appreciate the need to harness these force.it is very important that you learned to discipline your desire early in life or much turbulence will accompany this aspect throughout your life. it adds a brilliance to your mind. this with the mercury/moon midpoint,below, gives you full blown astral/psychic awareness. but again the vertex, as it symbolizes the total karmic energy of our universe, can give vision the images and feelings that confuse you as so much that does not apply to you will also come in

with Venus square the node ,you have an attractive emotional and physical nature. you are very optimistic and emotive. with the mercury/moon midpoint conjunct the node, you psychic abilities are strengthened to include intuitional knowledge of emotional and social interactions

with the midpoint of your moon/sun square, conjunct the node your emotional relationships will always be the defining experience in your life. you affect on your peer/social groups and your loving nature make up your path.
your mars is 1/11th harmonic to venus which shows that pure emotional/sexual attachment is not the only reason for the relations of the people that are drawn to you. this aspect shows a need to understand higher levels of spiritual appreciate of humanity through your relationships. so here seems to be inner sense that relationships have only led to awareness of higher or transcendent purpose to life and love.
this impulse is inherent and has always been ,even unconsciously, in you affairs or marriages as the venus/mars midpoint is conjunct to liith.
you named asteroid is conjunct to the moon and square to your sun, and th Jupiter/juno midpoint is conjunct to sandy which shows that marriage and committed relationships are a central elements of your nature. this shows marriage ,likely early in you life but as pholous is also conjunct to the moon and sandy, and with Uranus square to jumpier, it is likely that you have had more than one marriage, as hidden factors tend to arise in the marriages and you have very independent ,rebellious nature with the Jupiter Uranus square which often shows an innate desire to never relinquish ones personal emotional freedom.as the vertex is also conjunct to eris ,you have an emotional/sexual nature that is very independent especially added to the Uranus square. this is intense and sudden attractions that are electric but destined to be ephemeral .eris gives intensity,passion and ambition but loves the game as much as the player involved. this also show multiple marriage or it could show no marriage because of your emotional independence as noted above.

on the other hand your chart contains several aspects that show a on going struggle with the hindrances .both internally and externally that have accompanied you embrace of your astral/psychic heritage.

Saturn is square to Orcus with the Venus/Uranus midpoint and psyche conjunct to orcus .
this is a very difficult emotional aspect as it shows a father/authority figure in your childhood with very destructive desires toward you.
this is an aspect of harsh abuse.it could warped you ability to form lasting and healthy relationships.
with the strong Uranus in your chart and this powerful restrictive aspect, you likely had bipolar issues in your life. with psyche involved, you seemed to have attracted predatory personalities to you. these dynamics are often associate with auto immune disorders because at a early point in your life ,your mind could not distinguish pleasure from pain or love from hate.

with Saturn/chiron midpoint is opposed to the mar/Nessus conjunction,and the nessus/Lilith midpoint square to pluto.
it is difficult not to see sexual abuse in your childhood. likely of a incestual nature.

you have neptune sextile to pluto and this sextile forms a finger of god with your north node. and with the square to venus, this gives a potential of generating a powerful energy emotionally for those around you that you love and to heal your esteem issue that might have been generated by your childhood experiences.

currently the node is approaching a square to your Sedna at 23can59(mar9) and your eris/sun midpoint at 22canc27(apr7).

Sedna is a symbol of truth, here you might learn about your projective emotional nature and how it has operated through your life. this transit might also be transpersonal and you will begin to see th role that ambitious passion plays in the world and others around you.

todd
todd

posted March 06, 2019 04:53 PM            

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Originally posted by EmGem:
Edit: I can’t see a Sandy 🤔
Just let me know when it’s my turn to post

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posted March 07, 2019 05:15 PM            

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Originally posted by poochycat:
Thank you so much for your chart,Todd!
There are some aspects that you mentioned that I very much agree with.
You had mentioned being psychic. I do have prophetic dreams although not often and also very vivid dreams that seem very real. I have experienced being out of body usually before waking up. This has happened several times!
“Relationships being a defining theme in my life” is SO true. I received emotional abuse from my parents, although there was no incest invoked. Interesting that came up... I have always had a hard time forming relationships with men. Perhaps because of the relationship with my dad. I married at 20 yrs old and again a couple of years ago. Both marriages were less than a year. So you were right there. You were saying you saw multiple marriages. Do you feel I will marry again or be in a committed relationship as I get older? I enjoy my independence to a point but would like male companionship.
I do not have any autoimmune disorders such as being bi polar.
So in all, I would say your interpretation was 95% accurate.
**Just wanted to add that I have noticed there is a common theme in almost all of your readings and that is the mention of sexual abuse. As I had mentioned that wasn’t the case with me but it is interesting that it has come up in just about everybody’s reading.

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thanks for the feedback,i can always learn more...
as you your comment about the ubiquity of the abusive aspects, you might read this post before going any further in my response: http://www.astrologyweekly.com/forum/showthread.php?t=63539 reply 24

this gives a brief discussion about incest ,culturally and astrologically.
basically Sigmund Freud, in this first book postulated that civilization is itself predicated on the sublimation of the incestual impulse. that is the more civilized culture becomes,the more the incestual impulse is pushed further in to the unconscious. now, I am not a proponent of Freud per se, I'd be more inclined to be considered an advocate of carl jung, but the incestual abusive impulse is certainly more prevalent in patriarchal societies by my studies. and I consider this disjunction a prime reason the history of culture is one of constant warfare.

as a culture, abuse and incest have been taboo subjects for hundred if not thousand s of years. the taboo of incest has pushed the experience deep into the unconscious of victims. but since the 60's- 70's incest and a myriad of other culturally "taboo" subjects have been brought to light an discussion.

as you notice ,I have astrological insights that are rather singular in the domain of astrological thought. that is because much of my knowledge was gained through research and not by rote memorization. this applies most closely with my insights about the north node and in fact all my astrological beliefs stem from the primacy of the north node in astrology. and the fact that the north node has actively been censored by astrological establishment.

the off shoot is that when the node is considered, abuse and incestual instincts are always very close when conjunct many of the planets.

a few anecdotes :
for a decade or so I did charts almost exclusively for non practicing alcoholics. in that time at lest 90% of these women had a history of sexual abuse, often incestual.

in 1902 freud wrote a letter, unpublished until 1982 in which he said that 38% of his patients mental disorders were caused by sexual abuse. he was threated with the loss of his profession if the published this, and so he letter remained private til the 80's.

it was become apparent to me ,that abuse and incestual abuse are extremely prevalent in our society even now.

as an astrologer when I see aspects of sexual abuse, i feel it incumbent on me to write what I see, knowing that the incidence of repressed and blocked memories is very great because of the stigma of the cultural taboo.

the problem i chance to encounter is that because of the taboo nature of this experience, some will absolutely and vehemently deny the possibility and attack me personally. which I don't resent as I myself have extremely abusive aspects but have no clear memory of such experiences. but I have had to work out certain personality anomalies which can only have been formed by sexual abusive experiences. so
I understand that in all situations the symbols may not manifest and the personal spiritual evolution can influences the manifestations of sexual dysfunctions.

respones to astrological suggest of abuse are received in 3 basic categories.
1) acknowledgement . this is often comes with catharsis of finding light to understand the "reasons" for their experiences.
2)denial but accepting the possibility because of acknowledging personality aspects of uncertain nature or dysfunction that are not understood.
3)total denial. this can because of the affect psychological of the cultural taboo or because the symbols are functioning on a higher level in this souls life.

truthfully I have not resolved the inner conflict I have when I post about these issue and the member becomes troubled.
but the catharsis that many have when they hear of a solution to a mental or emotional issues that allows them to move on from these experiences, I feel vindicated.

but if a person is unconsciously chained by such experience, their life will be one of emotional pain and uncertainty .

I'd like to discuss one chart of a person I dearly love, but lost to her to demons or maybe it was me.
this as some years ago before I embraced many of the new symbols of astrology, in fact it was because of her that I did start to delve into these newer symbols.

she had classic incestual apects , one being Saturn conjunct her node and mars square to the node. the rest of her chart was coherent to her, but she had no memories . as we got to know each other and we opened up, she kept coming up with memories that showed something was missing in her memories.
one was that she had a memeory from the age of 18 months... unusal but I have memories from 18 months so I know it is not unheard of...she was in her crib and had a raggedy ann doll with stitches for eyes. she remembers thinking... amazing mind this woman has..edectic memory.. and she was so sorry her doll was dead. this is unheard of. that she had the concepts of death at that age is truly amazing. yet severly abuse children often make a connection between death and the abuse,,,, but so early meant to me that her abused started in her infancy.and so the memory was lost.
but as I continued she remembered that in her preteens and early teens she had cut her self and symbolic constantly stabbed herself in her stomach... this again is a behavior associated with sexual abuse.... other memories were that in her early teenage,she was totally scared her father . she had absolutely no memory of why she was but even her mother had been questioned by family members as why was she scared of him...in fact this uneasiness never went totally away. in her adult years I asked her: did she get along with her father and she said, she is still uneasy with him ...until they have their first drink...I then listed number off automume disorders because severely abuse persons often develop auto immune diseases....she replied every disorder I mentioned, she had experienced it and still had sleep apnea which is one of the' diseases" ....but she never had memory but she kept an open mind because she exhibited so many characteristic of incestuous abuse.
and she then researched the astrological literature ,even though she was a total novice,and found that Nessus is associated with sexual abuse........she had nessus conjunct her sun....
it was then ,that I started researching the newer astrological symbols.
the relationship ended when she reconciled with her father. he had pushed her away because his girl friend was jealous of this woman and he told her to get a life... our meeting was a function of her seeking out a different life. but part of their reconciliation had to do with her visiting him, getting too drunk to drive home and sleeping on his"couch"...

the point of this reminisces is to show how very difficult and emotional complicated unraveling, and at times impossible, ones experiences and difficult of this phenomena can be.

the bottom thread is interesting from a psychic point of view. it is a summary of book about a person who had over 90 separate personalities.
but what was so interesting is that this women had paranormal experiences.. her's was that light bulbs would continually burn out. she had a box of light bulbs because of how often the bulbs blue.
in addition the woman had asked for her sessions to be video recorded for education purposes. when the technician set up the camera's, every thing would check out. but as soon as the video recording began, the vidoes would start acting up and the sessions were always fuzzy with static

her therapist asked around and anecdotal information came out that many people with multiple personalities had some sort of "para normal"ability. one I remember was a woman with 3 personalities and she could repair electronic devices. whenever her friends had electrical problem with their devices, they would ask her over and immediately the device "fixed" it self.

I bring this up because it is tangential to your observation..why are abuse aspect so prevalent in my readings here?
I can see the connection because as I have mentioned nodal emphasis in a chart often has abusive ramifications and the node is also correlated with psychic abilities . and most every chart in this group has strong psychic indications.
I don't pretend to offer a solution but just observations as to why these charts have such a similar strain in them .

one more thing about the book below, only one personalty this woman had seemed out of place. it was a Scottish man who served as a"monitor" for the other 90+ identiies. this book was not written by the woman.. but by her separate personalities . after the book was finished and ready to go to publishers, her personalities wanted to add one more chapter.....about her Scottish personality. it involved a carriage drawn by 4 horse coming up and a young beautiful woman opening the door for him to join her. he got in and the coach disappeared in the distance.
I felt that this was a soul from her past life, a soul that cared for her until her mental pain had begun to heal and others started to watch and protect her.
I think this because in her visons and possessions, all the separate personalities lived off a tunnel leading to a bright white light. this seemed so similar to the tunnel leading to a white light in many near death experiences and astral travels that it seemed he was in fact a soul who came to watch out for her from a past life
http://www.astrologyweekly.com/forum/showthread.php?t=117628

posted March 07, 2019 05:48 PM            

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Originally posted by ballerina:
todd
..that was some really deep
Ggod work...

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