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Topic: im having a panic attack :(
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missblyss Knowflake Posts: 2887 From: Registered: May 2016
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posted February 11, 2019 03:06 AM
I just feel so scared.I am realizing that I have this deep fear that ive had for many years... and I know it sounds stupid but I read a horoscope many years ago that told me "when you fully blossom, then you will die" then I had this horrible panic attack this summer that basically was me realizing I would never make it to Hawaii. it was all a delusion and it was distracting me from living my life bc I actually will die before I get there and ill never get to experience it. I just feel like im on the brink of finally being healed of so many things; my health problems and my insecurities and im going to a place that I know I will BLOSSOM and now these fears are coming up like im really scared im going to die before I get there. I know it sounds stupid, trust me... but I am having to face this horrible fear that I have had brewing for so long. and it feels like I really could die. its just scaring me so much because I dont want to die. im just wondering if anyone can help me or give me advise or a reading or anything IP: Logged |
missblyss Knowflake Posts: 2887 From: Registered: May 2016
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posted February 11, 2019 03:07 AM
on top of that my north node is in my 12th house right now.IP: Logged |
Rheanna Knowflake Posts: 485 From: The Orient Registered: Mar 2014
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posted February 11, 2019 04:24 AM
Miss, I remember you posted before on your fear of death. The fact that you are a mother with a young child (a daughter?) How do you cope with your fear? What do you do when the panick attacks happened? I hope these two books can help you: Leonard Orr on 'Physical Immortality' and Sondra Ray on 'How to be chick, fabulous and live forever'.Orr believes that we don't have to die. We can live forever. Unfortunately though, I am not the best to explain. I hope Randall and the others would drop by.
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Caprika Knowflake Posts: 1516 From: Registered: Dec 2013
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posted February 11, 2019 09:05 AM
Talk to a therapist! When you get to the root of your fear, you will get over it. It looks to me you have this innate feeling in your mind that you are not allowed to be happy and fulfilled and it will be taken away from you before you have it. There could be a guilt there for the feeling of having it all ? A therapist will help you understand your mind better, because this is where it started (your brain). It's all there. You can tell yourself how to feel and it all depends on your choice. This is why different people react differently to a common problem. It's all in the brains and the condition we place upon ourselves. IP: Logged |
mirage29 Knowflake Posts: 11054 From: us Registered: May 2012
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posted February 11, 2019 09:34 AM
Agreeing with what the others have said.If you think of a BLOSSOM, it is not 'the whole plant'. The PLANT is the originator which produces the blossoms. You're diving way deep into a project or idea (blossom) and perhaps over identifying with it. Seed time and harvest. When leaves come off the trees, the tree itself doesn't die. (music) Today (John Denver, lyrics) [4:50] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uBGjZAYcJqc Another thing? Your 'going to Hawaii' is a big deal (bfd). That's a HUGE jump and 'change' in your life. Takes enormous amounts of finances to live there. You must be financially being whelmed in your head, and dealing with levels of success(?) and the aftermaths and implications of that kind of responsibility (actually), that you never experienced before? In case that is true, then, Psychologically-- Are you READY for it? You just might be doing some transitioning. Going from one level, to another. In a way, that is a death-- of one state of being blossoming into a whole new identity/life for yourself (and your family, and your business)? Are you nervous of Success?? A whole set of new expectations (work and social). What can you do to help self psychologically prep? Good Luck, Missblyss. And congratulations. IP: Logged |
anonymidarkness Knowflake Posts: 6843 From: Registered: Aug 2012
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posted February 11, 2019 09:43 AM
It's a fear that has to be faced, many times you might feel like retreating and almost on the verge of breakdown, but gather courage, let go and face it. It happens to me when I'm meditating, like I feel this fear as if my body is going to get paralyzed, as if my legs won't move again, as if someone I love will die if I don't get up from there and talk to them, but each time I open my eyes because of the fear I find out that it was just that...fear....and I opened my eyes for nothing, my hands and legs are intact, and fully functioning, and no I'm not paralyzed! But whenever I've faced it, the fear possesses me totally, reaches a boiling point, and I'm deaddd!!!....slowly the fear passes by and I reach this state where I feel this utter joy, bliss.I've experienced similar fear when I'm playing sports and I'm about to reach my goal, as I'm about to win, I feel as if the ground might collapse and swallow me right before I win, but this too just passes by when its faced. In my experience, many times whenever we are about to get what we want, this fear of loss/death pops up, and it has to be faced, many times you might feel like escaping it, and many times you might, and many times you might even feel this urge to sabotage whatever you've done to get that far just to escape this fear, but simply pick yourself up again, and face it. The more you face it, the more you'll be able to face it, this is courage!! facing the storm even if it might swallow you totally! Go on face it, you won't have nervous breakdown, trust me ! IP: Logged |
LunaIscariot Knowflake Posts: 3095 From: Registered: Aug 2014
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posted February 11, 2019 02:36 PM
Try grounding exercises. Go outside and go for a walk, get fresh air or just lay in the grass or get into nature somehow. It will get you back into reality, the present moment and your body and calm those anxious, irrational thoughts. If you get really overwhemed though. get ice cubes and put them in the palms of your heads. It helps. Make sure you’re sleeping good too, I noticed my hypochondria and anxiousness acts up when I’m lacking a good routine or sleep schedule. I know you’re a Virgo moon like me so I can relate to the strug regarding health stuff. I hope you feel better soon missy. Sending you positive & healing vibes 🥰🙏😇 IP: Logged |
missblyss Knowflake Posts: 2887 From: Registered: May 2016
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posted February 14, 2019 05:51 PM
quote: Originally posted by Rheanna: Miss, I remember you posted before on your fear of death. The fact that you are a mother with a young child (a daughter?) How do you cope with your fear? What do you do when the panick attacks happened? I hope these two books can help you: Leonard Orr on 'Physical Immortality' and Sondra Ray on 'How to be chick, fabulous and live forever'.Orr believes that we don't have to die. We can live forever. Unfortunately though, I am not the best to explain. I hope Randall and the others would drop by.
thank you so much for responding. I am realizing that in this panic attack I was finally seeing the ROOT of this fear... the fears that were coming up in the past of thinking that I might die. I finally saw where this fear started and it just really was scary bc I had to look that fear right in the eye. the reason why is because I am about to move beyond it. I am moving beyond it bc my fear told me that if I ever fully blossomed that I would die I read that in a horoscope when I was young... then I noticed the life line in my palm was short. I also had this random indian guy do a palm reading and say I would die young. on top of that, my north node is in the 12th house right now. and on top of that, my son's moon is in the 12th house... soo all of those things were poking at the fear... so each time it would get "poked" I would get a panic... I realize bc I had this deep subconscious belief well the thing is, I am finally healing the things that have held me back. im healing the things that I thought I could never heal. and im really ascending into this higher version of myself but it really forced me to look this fear dead in the eyes.. bc if it is "true", then doing this will kill me? and that's whats so crazy about fears, they feel so real, and they only truly go away when you step beyond them and are proven that its not real! IP: Logged |
Springtimeflower Knowflake Posts: 3166 From: USA Registered: Jan 2014
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posted February 14, 2019 06:22 PM
Hugggggsssss!!!!!!IP: Logged |
athenegoddess Knowflake Posts: 98 From: us Registered: Sep 2018
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posted February 14, 2019 08:33 PM
Do you have any planets aspecting transit Uranus? The same thing is happening to me. I finally found happiness and love in myself and someone is trying to kill me and wont leave until they do it. Its sad because they are evil and when i try to call the police they make the police think im crazy because i cant prove what he is doing.
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missblyss Knowflake Posts: 2887 From: Registered: May 2016
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posted February 15, 2019 11:12 AM
quote: Originally posted by Caprika: Talk to a therapist! When you get to the root of your fear, you will get over it. It looks to me you have this innate feeling in your mind that you are not allowed to be happy and fulfilled and it will be taken away from you before you have it. There could be a guilt there for the feeling of having it all ? A therapist will help you understand your mind better, because this is where it started (your brain). It's all there. You can tell yourself how to feel and it all depends on your choice. This is why different people react differently to a common problem. It's all in the brains and the condition we place upon ourselves.
I've seen therapists and don't honestly find them to be helpful bc they don't really have any knowledge in esoteric wisdom so I just don't respect their opinion. I actually feel like I can address this fear on my own, it is just really powerful to be looking at that fear dead on! IP: Logged |
missblyss Knowflake Posts: 2887 From: Registered: May 2016
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posted February 15, 2019 11:12 AM
quote: Originally posted by mirage29: Agreeing with what the others have said.If you think of a BLOSSOM, it is not 'the whole plant'. The PLANT is the originator which produces the blossoms. You're diving way deep into a project or idea (blossom) and perhaps over identifying with it. Seed time and harvest. When leaves come off the trees, the tree itself doesn't die. (music) Today (John Denver, lyrics) [4:50] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uBGjZAYcJqc Another thing? Your 'going to Hawaii' is a big deal (bfd). That's a HUGE jump and 'change' in your life. Takes enormous amounts of finances to live there. You must be financially being whelmed in your head, and dealing with levels of success(?) and the aftermaths and implications of that kind of responsibility (actually), that you never experienced before? In case that is true, then, Psychologically-- Are you READY for it? You just might be doing some transitioning. Going from one level, to another. In a way, that is a death-- of one state of being blossoming into a whole new identity/life for yourself (and your family, and your business)? Are you nervous of Success?? A whole set of new expectations (work and social). What can you do to help self psychologically prep? Good Luck, Missblyss. And congratulations.
thank you!
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missblyss Knowflake Posts: 2887 From: Registered: May 2016
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posted February 15, 2019 11:16 AM
quote: Originally posted by LunaIscariot: Try grounding exercises. Go outside and go for a walk, get fresh air or just lay in the grass or get into nature somehow. It will get you back into reality, the present moment and your body and calm those anxious, irrational thoughts. If you get really overwhemed though. get ice cubes and put them in the palms of your heads. It helps. Make sure you’re sleeping good too, I noticed my hypochondria and anxiousness acts up when I’m lacking a good routine or sleep schedule. I know you’re a Virgo moon like me so I can relate to the strug regarding health stuff. I hope you feel better soon missy. Sending you positive & healing vibes 🥰🙏😇
yes 100%this is one of the reasons why I feel that I'm going to be so much healthier in hawaii. I live in Colorado now and its sooo dry and all the people are so uptight and in their heads. all the nature is DEAD and we just sit inside all day so it's really hard not to be out, walking, doing stuff, connecting with people, and enjoying life! I NEED to be doing stuff so I feel alive. I'm always alone and in my head! I really don't have "anxiety" as a regular thing. I've just been dealing with this same fear repeatedly this past 2 years and I feel like it's finally all coming to a head- where I am truly seeing the root of this fear! in the moment, when it all seemed so real, I felt total panic. but I am seeing that not everything I "see" is real.. Just because I "see" myself dying, that can be 100% projected out of a FEAR, and in this case that is exactly what it is. It's honestly a great lesson for me, to see how tricky and elusive fear can be. I know I am going to overcome this! it's honestly just been a hard few years. with my daughter's attempted kidnapping, stressful court, thinking my ex was gonna kill me, getting seizures and losing my memory and getting a brain bleed... and then boom my business takes off which has been great, but its just all so much! I think I am working through the last of this fear though IP: Logged |
missblyss Knowflake Posts: 2887 From: Registered: May 2016
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posted February 16, 2019 12:56 AM
quote: Originally posted by athenegoddess: Do you have any planets aspecting transit Uranus? The same thing is happening to me. I finally found happiness and love in myself and someone is trying to kill me and wont leave until they do it. Its sad because they are evil and when i try to call the police they make the police think im crazy because i cant prove what he is doing.
I am honestly not sure. I don't really know how to check transits! IP: Logged |
mirage29 Knowflake Posts: 11054 From: us Registered: May 2012
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posted February 16, 2019 02:01 PM
Transiting Saturn in Capricorn .. has been closely approaching a connection with some of your outer-planets-- can feel like that too.Do pay attention to your physical well-being too, as you get used to some house shifts-- (oh my, I guess home relocation too!) You might check your locational Pluto-line right now? Just a guess-- A number of people have their Pluto-lines running down the mid-USA. Vibrationally, with your chart, it might be accented?? Maybe someone can check that for you. Good Luck with your move. *This too Shall Pass* IP: Logged | |