posted June 30, 2020 12:37 PM            

How accurate is the time of birth in this chart, though? Do you know your exact time of birth? And, if so, do you have any evidence to support it (such as a birth certificate, or the memory of your mother/father/family).

Also ... please clarify why (in your earlier post on the interpersonal astrology board) you asked what is "wrong" with you. (What has caused you to think/believe that something is wrong with you? Have you had problems in relationships?)

posted June 30, 2020 01:10 PM            

You've got a lot of water in general, so you're quite emotional, even chaotic. Thankfully your sun on your rising brightens you up!

At the same time, with your mars in Virgo, you're really quite analytical and calculating, and try to bring as much order to your mind and emotions as possible.

posted July 01, 2020 03:09 AM            

Just wondering what was wrong with me in the sense that people experience me as quite "different", and I feel a bit disconnected, unexpressed, alienated, despite having a good social circle. Relationships have been fairly normal, not sure comparatively though, very intense though.

My birth time is accurate according to my birth certificate, although it says I was born on the hour, so I'm not sure if accurate to the minute.

posted July 01, 2020 11:28 AM            

Planets at the Balance Point of a house (Moon + Uranus) are "comfortable" - so feel no need to assert themselves. ... But, planets at the Low Point of a house are "not comfortable" - so tend to feel "unheard" by others and attempt to overcome this by actively asserting themselves (which ultimately results only in annoying others).

In essence - this might cause others to react to Mercury by resisting (or blocking) your ideas, comments and communications. ... So, have you experienced that at all?
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If we then look at the Dynamical Evaluation Table (in the Astro.com additional tables for the Huber Style Chart) ... we see large differences between the scores for Signs and Houses - with fire houses being 46 points higher than fire signs; air houses being 25 points higher than air signs; water signs being 55 points higher than water houses and earth signs being 14 points higher than earth houses.

In the Huber system of astrology, these differences are significant ... because the sign scores = "nature" and the house scores = "nurture". .... So, external pressures (nurture) are being exerted upon you to change the way you instinctively behave (nature). ... In effect, others would like you to be more assertive (fire) and calculating (air), but less emotional (water) and unmovable (earth).
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Looking next at the Envelope configuration in your natal Chart (Sun-Mars-Pluto-Neptune-Saturn) ... we see the balance-point-Moon modifying Saturn and balance-point-Uranus modifying Neptune (via conjunctions).

So ... note that all planets in this envelope figure and Moon + Uranus are in either water or earth - the two signs that others are wanting you to use less. ... And then reflect mindfully upon WHY those others are wanting you to change the natural/instinctive behavioural traits with which you were born. ... Is the motivation of those others to help you "fit in" better? Or is it to help them remain within their own behavioural comfort zones, which are threatened by you behaving differently (from their idea of "normal"/acceptable)?
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Just wondering what was wrong with me in the sense that people experience me as quite "different", and I feel a bit disconnected, unexpressed, alienated, despite having a good social circle. Relationships have been fairly normal, not sure comparatively though, very intense though.

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Finally, reflect again upon the reply that I gave to your interpersonal astrology board post at http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum35/HTML/010188.html :-

"There is nothing "wrong" with any of us, lessica ... but we have all incarnated to learn by experiencing-and-reflecting-upon the "issues" which arise from events created by the progressions and transits to our birth chart."

posted July 01, 2020 01:03 PM            

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Originally posted by lessica:
Just wondering what was wrong with me in the sense that people experience me as quite "different", and I feel a bit disconnected, unexpressed, alienated, despite having a good social circle. Relationships have been fairly normal, not sure comparatively though, very intense though.

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First, there is nothing wrong with you. So get that out of your head entirely. You're on your own path discovering who you are and don't ever compromise that to 'fit in.' Just consider it a matter of self-discovery learning experience like we all go through.

What you're describing is attributable to your Sun being opposite and contra-parallel to Uranus & Neptune. (Also contra-parallel to Jupiter.) And somewhat to Moon being in Pisces.

Your rounded hour time of birth isn't reliable for knowing house placements for certain, but you can see how your Sun in 1st/near Asc (=you) opposite Uranus-Neptune in 7th/near DC (=others) creates a tension differential in the opposition's I-thou dynamic. Uranus relates to the higher mind, group consciousness, the psychic, and what is odd or outlier; Neptune relates to transpersonal sensitivity, higher love, imagination, compassion, etc. So there are two poles here seen by Sun at one end and those two transpersonals, Uranus & Neptune, at the other. This indicates (1) possession of your own basic understanding of you as the power in your life, but (2) learning transpersonal, higher truths through your associations with others.

What you describe is also attributable to the declinations aspect of Jupiter parallel Uranus & Neptune. That is an urge to visionary thinking and being open to what lies outside the 'norm' because Jupiter is the expansion principle aligned with the two transpersonals we already mentioned. So that means growth largely comes through the conceptual mind, expansion through imagination as well as creative or social experience.

Anything that enhances or expands on combined Uranus-Neptune energies can seem 'odd', 'different', or eccentric. Uranus, more than any other planet, deals in what is eccentric. As does Moon in Pisces (Neptune principle), and other Neptune factors.