posted October 20, 2020 12:08 AM            

Im feeling a bit overwhelmed about all the information I have found, I’m not really someone craving for a status relationship, I just want a relationship based in love and no like status quo things (I say it because of my south node in 7th house) but I can see my natal chart isn’t really helping me out.

If someone can help me to understand more, i would appreacited a lot.

This is my chart

posted October 20, 2020 01:30 PM            

Western astrology,
I have a SN 7th, NN 1st--
What I've read is that people with this placement need to 'value their self' as equally important in relationships.
SN 7th, may have a tendency to over-value what 'other people' think, say, do, .. and to serve *them* .. without valuing what "you" want. What YOU have to bring in relationship with the other.
You need to "include" your Own Self inside the equation of relationship.
YOU are of equal-importance to consider in the Relationships you are in. You deserve to have your views, and YOUR say, be respected and honored.

VEDIC ...
I've been delving a bit into Vedic.
What I've heard about so-called "bad relationship markers" in a chart? --
That a person with those same 'bad markers' can join energies with another chart that would be considered 'bad', and in a strange combined way, the two of them would be able to HAVE those relationships work out WELL!!
*go figure?* Two wrongs making a Right? .. yup

It is unreasonable to think that you'd have to have the PERFECT chart for relationships, then meet the perfect match, as the planets and aspects can last 5 months or more, before changing.

Would that make 5 months of people "BAD" and never getting someone who will love and BE with them? .. aw heck-no!!! *warmly*

There are folks who post here who are very good at charts.

Oh!... Part of your "anxiety" feelings may be present and emphasized because of the late Capricorn transits going over your late Capricorn Uranus and Neptune. ..
t-Saturn on Neptune .. is lower self-esteem, more self-doubting, and has 'anxiety' as one of its features. Yes, that transit takes a long time, but KNOW that it WILL pass-- and the anxiety you feel and can't pin-down, IS from the tension going on in the 'sky'.

And also-- those planets are "Generational" .. meaning that you are not alone in sensing the anxiety. Your {and others'} anxiety right now must feel 'boosted' by everything going on globally with politics and climate and fires and viruses and even insect-plagues?
{hey, even I am nervous, without having that transit 'heighten' things for you all... I pray that 'together' some resolutions will come. That things will settle down. In the mean time, be Gentle with yourself and others. SELF-Care is important. And make sure the people who are important to you get some attention too. We depend on each other, to survive. It's true. We ALL do what we can. .. *healing hugs*}

This too shall pass ....

posted October 20, 2020 04:29 PM            

No, you are not doomed in love. No one is.

There is nothing astrological that prevents you from having a fulfilling partnership. You may have challenges in that area of your life, but the universe does not obstruct love!

Squares show two (or more) planets in a pressurized, highly motivated dynamic in which active integration of the energies of both are needed to breakthrough to harmony between them.

North Lunar Node squared by Sun & Mercury first requires understanding the planetary energies and aspect dynamics. Forget houses for now. That will help simplify things as you learn. What is the Sun? Your core energy and identity. What is Mercury? Your mentality and communicative tendencies. So first understand the energy and emphasis of having Sun conjunct Mercury in Leo, because that is where the emphasis is in this square to North Node.

Sun conjunct Mercury in Leo emphasizes your thinking process as the rule in your life and surroundings, and your word as your bond and integrity. Leo's fixed fire colors this aspect with a fair amount of ego, which is inherent in the aspect itself. So there is the challenge of finding objectivity and willingness to listen to others even as you learn, plan, and lead the way. This aspect dynamic urges you to lifelong learning and planning towards goals and self-fulfillment. If you find yourself full of opinions (especially about others) and argumentative, then you'll know you've fallen into the egoism that can come with it. Understand the challenge of ego -- that it blocks love -- and you'll keep it under control in favor of learning continually and remaining open to the free exchange of ideas and expertise.

It urges you to be active in your development, to take charge of it through self-awareness and continual development of the capacity of your mind. That means applying persistent will power and intellectual development as necessary to your soul growth.

Moon conjunct Venus indicates a strong emphasis on the personal, emotive and sensual aspects of life and relationships, with some tendencies for people pleasing. Your sense of aesthetics is strong and with both these squaring Mars you'll want to live that out in the work you do. In no way does this aspect figure mean 'bad' relationships or none. So toss that idea out. The aspect shows a rather emotive temperament, that your feelings are very involved in what you do, and that you probably are best at work that can harness your passions to keep you fully engaged. Mind numbing work that doesn't allow you to contribute your artistic or emotive sensibilities will bore you and leave you unfulfilled. In other words, you are passionate and that needs an active outlet in hobbies and/or your job. If you don't like the work you are currently in, then look for how to turn your hobby/real passion into your career.

posted October 20, 2020 10:28 PM            

Briefly, your Jupiter/Juno midpoint is conjunct your ascendant opposed to lilith conjunct the descendant. This indicates you deeply want a committed relationship/marriage to feel complete.

But I think your father is extremely possessive of you and that you have some emotional issues created by his over protection of you,which subconsciously affected the way you relate to possible boy friends .
I think because of the subconscious affect of your father's possessiveness ,you give out signals that attract guys who aren't really interested in a serious relationship.