posted August 08, 2004 10:20 AM              

I send you love and light.

posted August 08, 2004 12:37 PM              

Please don't give up.

posted August 08, 2004 02:02 PM            

Have you looked into joining a program? I know that you are a veteran, maybe you can get help through one of the organizations and meet with people that have gone through similar ordeals as you have.

I am so sorry that you are in this "place" right now. My prayers are with you.

posted August 08, 2004 02:06 PM              

OZONE! You have my prayers! Please don't give into it...there is help...have you tried AA? Also there's RATIONAL RECOVERY....

We love you and care about you and want the very best for you....PLEASE GET HELP!

posted August 08, 2004 02:28 PM              

There are ways to overcome this Ozone. And I applaud you for taking a step and reaching out to us. You are not alone - we will try to give you the best support here that we can. Please look into the many options that are availiable to you. I send you my love and prayers.

26

posted August 08, 2004 04:47 PM            

Alcoholism IS truely a desease, that cam really take a person to they're own destruction! While most people nomally enjoy it as "something to do" others like me feel that it is the ONLY thing to do, no matter what you have in life, people like me tend to lose sight of those things and along with it, the things that are around the alcoholic, seemed to more and more dissapear in the alcoholics life, friends family, home, often run-ins with the law,etc, etc, etc.

It has gotten to the point where I'm so sick and tired of it and all I just want to do is to be free from this pain!

posted August 08, 2004 05:36 PM              

You've talked about it and to me, that's an indication that you're willing to take some first steps in conquering this thing...Please seek help...get to some AA meetings or read the book 26taurus recommended...

I have some very close loved ones who have battled with this demon, and it's been a big heartache...One is not "practicing" alcohol abuse anymore....and one still is (much to my dismay)...*sigh*

...My non-practing alcoholic loved one used the RATIONAL RECOVERY approach with great results...(read about Rational Recovery in the book 26taurus recommended)...He has not touched anything alcoholic for four years...(for which I am grateful every day of my life)

Good luck....

Love,
Rainbow

posted August 08, 2004 06:13 PM              

When I read your post a sharp pain went through my heart,literally.
To be honest with you I dont know what to say as I dont know of any alcoholics(except for you).One of my lecturers is a recovering alcoholic.

posted August 08, 2004 09:26 PM              

-StarLover

posted August 08, 2004 11:29 PM              

I've wondered to myself before about you and alcoholism.

You've reached out for help... that's a great first step... the will to stop.

((((Ozone))))) lemme know if there's anything I can do to help. Promise, I won't antagonize you

If you don't air your dirty laundry, there's no way to get the stink out!

I don't know how much you know about me, Ozone, but I've shared a lot about my life in other parts of the forum. I grew up in an alcoholic home. My (step)dad is recovering (clean for about 5 years). Mom's still a drunk though Her nose is bulbus, her moods are out of control, she shakes... I could go on and on. If you'd like to talk, I'd be more than happy to listen sometime.

One more mushy gushy hug (((Ozone))) ... I can't help it I'm affectionate

posted August 08, 2004 11:34 PM              

Selfmedication... that's what we do when we know something is wrong. Do you suffer from anxiety, Ozone? Xanax, Klonopin, and alcohol are the top three anxiety inhibitors.

I know there are also drugs available that will help subdue withdrawl symptoms. Alcohol withdrawl can be pretty severe.

Hon, I think you should go see your doctor... If you don't have one, get one. Talk with them about what you have going on.

posted August 09, 2004 12:18 AM              

I work for a rehab here in Central Missouri, and I must say you have just taken the first major step - admitting you have a problem and have hit your bottom. I urge you to now take the next step and admit yourself to a program. It's scary, I know. But what is more scary , trying to change what's happening to you? Or allowing yourself to sink to death? Do NOT think that because you have this disease your life is worthless. It's priceless!!! There are many people who love and care for you - even those of us who have never met you.
I don't know where you live but here are some suggestions. Find an AA meeting and ask people about rehab centers. If you have insurance you can ask your insurance company. If you don't have insurance call your local Department of Family Services (or whatever it is called in your state) for state funded facilities. Check the internet. I work for Valley Hope Association. We have centers in Kansas, Nebraska, Colorado, Arizona, and Oklahoma, besides the one here in Missouri.
One thing to look for is a center whose program has a strong spiritual component. I'm not saying Christian based, but spiritual. That is a major aspect of a 12 Step program. At Valley Hope we have had Muslims, Jews, Wiccans, etc. Belief in a Higher Power, higher than you and alcohol, will be an invaluable aid as you fight this disease.

Ozone, allow me to help in any way I can. Randall has my permission to give you my e-mail if you need to talk or would like help searching for a center. Please don't give up.

Much love, light, and blessings to you.

posted August 09, 2004 04:37 PM            

I just feel a little alone and I didn't think that I would make really much of a difference sometimes, but I want to thank you guys and my love for you guys goes out to you too!