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Eternal Blue
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posted October 28, 2004 10:50 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Eternal Blue     Edit/Delete Message
Lying there
She's scared
Staring at the ceiling
Don't know what she's feeling
She feels like she's going to cry
She knows she's probably going to die
Waiting
The hospital air is stinking
Injured and ill people everywhere
And she can go nowhere
A tear rolls down from her eye
'I don't want to die'
Like a dead animal on a walking track
And the staff are ready to 'pack'
Her, and cut her with knives
If a miracle happens, and she survives
Will she still be her original self?
Will she lose her Higher S-elf?
Thinking about the man she loves
'Will I ever see him again?
Even if I will, will I be able to talk again?
Will I remember him?
If I don't, I won't have any reason to live
Yet, if I don't remember him,
I won't remember who I am, either
So how will I know whether I'm still alive or an empty body?
I have dreams
But will they just remain dreams?
Forgotten dreams?
I could have been somebody
But now I'm rapidly fading away'
'Before I go
I want to tell you
In my exact words
I do love you
(I know you're not a saint, but-)
I do love you
You've relieved my pain
You've brought me ecstacy
You mean a lot to me
My body may be decaying but my soul will recall you always
We aren't meant to be
But I just want you to know
You shine through my window'
Lying there
She's scared
The hospital is so cold
And she can't get out of this mould
'If only you were here with me
All the time
I may not be afraid of death
Will I ever see you again?
Will I remember your name?'
She feels utterly helpless
Things just look hopeless
Modern medicine is useless
'Where am I heading?'

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pixelpixie
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From: Ontario, Canada
Registered: Aug 2003

posted October 29, 2004 01:55 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for pixelpixie     Edit/Delete Message
*gasp*
Well written. Oh my.

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26taurus
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From: the stars
Registered: Jun 2004

posted October 29, 2004 04:01 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for 26taurus     Edit/Delete Message

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aqua
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From: dreamland
Registered: Jan 2004

posted October 29, 2004 08:14 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for aqua     Edit/Delete Message
lovely Eternal!!

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Eternal Blue
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posted October 31, 2004 01:21 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Eternal Blue     Edit/Delete Message
Thank you pixelpixie, 26taurus and aqua! This will be my last poem posted here at LL for the next while- whether it will be a long whlie or a short one I just don't know yet. I will still respond to you fellow knowflakes' replies should I receive any, but I can no longer compose poems here due to serious personal reasons. So, goodbye.

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26taurus
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posted November 02, 2004 06:35 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for 26taurus     Edit/Delete Message
Thinking of you Eternal.

Love and Light,


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Eternal Blue
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posted November 03, 2004 05:19 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Eternal Blue     Edit/Delete Message
Many thanks indeed 26taurus for your kind support!!

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Charlotte
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From: Tn. USA
Registered: Apr 2004

posted November 10, 2004 04:55 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Charlotte     Edit/Delete Message
Eternal Blue, so sad to hear that you will not be able to post-I send My Love and Light to you as well!

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aqua
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From: dreamland
Registered: Jan 2004

posted November 10, 2004 09:05 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for aqua     Edit/Delete Message
oh!! eternal i'll miss ur poems so much!!!
some of them just make my day!!they r so awasome,i 'll certainly miss u sweety!!!

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Randall
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From: Columbus, GA USA
Registered: Nov 2000

posted November 10, 2004 12:18 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Randall     Edit/Delete Message

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"Never mentally imagine for another that which you would not want to experience for yourself, since the mental image you send out inevitably comes back to you." Rebecca Clark

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Eternal Blue
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posted November 10, 2004 06:06 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Eternal Blue     Edit/Delete Message
Thank you so much Charlotte, aqua and Randall for the love and light, the feedback and everything else! I can no longer write poems due to my health problems. I have to wait til I have fully recovered

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Sheaa Olein
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From: In the office, UK
Registered: Jul 2004

posted November 11, 2004 09:16 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Sheaa Olein     Edit/Delete Message
Real elevated feeling there, huh Eternal?

You know ~ most of your poems have a deep historical twinge to them. You know those informative historical programmes, sometimes shown on television, or the ones you can get on VT? I could see your poetry read out over images you describe. Really.

So much talent on this small corner of the web I admire.

quote:
"Before I go
I want to tell you
In my exact words
I do love you
(I know you're not a saint, but-)
I do love you..

Oh so real!

Ready.. set.....Start copywriting!!

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Eternal Blue
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posted November 11, 2004 06:46 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Eternal Blue     Edit/Delete Message
Sheaa, I'd like to thank you for the very encouraging feedback...this poem is about despair and love. And yes, in some way, the part you quoted actually comes from the heart...I've written a few very personal poems in the past week but I may not be going to post them here. They are just too personal- it's not that I don't want to share, it's just that my feelings are way too complex and conflicting...

Like I said before, I am really fond of history, and hopefully in the future I will write more about it- history is fascinating!

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