Posts: 122
From: Heiskell, TN 37754
Registered: Dec 2004

posted June 11, 2005 12:14 AM         

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Unnerving.
Plain and simple.
The chemistry between the two of us.
A visible spark.
A twist, a gift, my heartbeats.
Your slow smile.
My jelly knees.
Your comment on me making your heart speed.
Still so true you say.
Come straight from your mouth today.
You want me...to be there..to hold you...to love you even?
That word has yet to be spoken but if I have my way...you will know soon enough.
My heartbeats tell me that I am not loving in vain.
My heartbeats tell me that this time apart will make us better.
You told me today how hard it is for you.
MY not being there.
I finally asked, and lord did I recieve.
How is it I missed this?
When you were stabbing away at me...why did I not hear your pain as I did today?
Today you sounded so lost.
So small.
I yearned to build you back up and make you whole.
To find you.
My heartbeats tell me that mis communication is the worst.
My heartbeats tell me that it still hurts though.
The thought of losing you...still drives me over.
But my eyes and mind are telling me to rest.
That all is not lost, it is merely paused.
My heartbeats tell me that you were asking me for forgivness today.
That you were asking me not to go.
But I'm not the one leaving you see.
My heart knows more pain now than ever before.
Why did you not just come out and say it?
Why did I have to ask when the tears I shed for you...even you knew about?
The world told you that I was in pain.
Or so you say.
They told you to talk to me, to not leave me hanging with no answers.
So you did.
And I heard your heartbeats tell me that your heart was breaking too.
All happening so fast now.
I'm not so sure I heard it correctly.
You don't want to lose me, but you don't want to love me either.
You didn't have to say that.
So this poem I guess, is filled with hope, and anger, and more than anything love and forgiveness.
Baby, don't lose sight of me.
The time apart will be too much I'm afraid.
But if we just keep sight of each other...we'll make it through.
I know it...I hear it in your voice.
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Wow, I am still heartbroken. Even though he gave me a logical reason behind this mess, it still hurts that we've come to this.
I want him to trust me enough to confide in me with his fears.
But what is it they say...once burned twice shy?
I don't want that to happen.
I do love him, and the baby more than anything.
Is it so hard?

xx
Kt

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love is not love which alters when it alteration finds, or bends with the remover to remove.
William Shakespeare

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Posts: 1111
From: Stafford, VA USA
Registered: Feb 2005

posted June 12, 2005 11:17 AM         

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I feel you, still LEo! It is a good time to be open and communicate! Love to you!

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From: ohio
Registered: Aug 2004

posted June 12, 2005 11:27 PM         

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