posted June 27, 2005 12:05 AM         

Watch out I'm coming through.
I'm sorry if I knock you off your feet,
that is just something I do.
What you don't know is that inside
I'm a scared little girl
with enough baggage to drag me down.
Don't try to pierce my shield
cuz I admit it is too weak to hold up,
and I don't know if I could make it.
I don't want you to see me weak,
I don't want you to see me broken.
That is why I rush through you
and take your breath away
when I push you down.
Don't make me fall for you.
You can't hurt me like that.
No, you won't hurt me, you'll break me.
I don't want you to know how I hurt.
I don't want you to worry about me.
Normally, I would tell you to go,
before I break my own barriers
but you see, you've already knocked it
hard enough to shake me.
I always do the shaking.
I always come and go as I please
cuz I don't want your pity.
I don't want your sympathy,
and I don't want to see your face after
you find out who I am.
I don't want to see you cry.
I don't want to see you scream.
Worst of all though is now,
RIGHT NOW, cuz you've latched on
and I can't push you of.
I don't want to need you.
I can't want to need you.
Don't make me need you.
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Self fulfilling prophecy? I wrote this after a dream I had of a blonde man that I couldn't seem to stop dreaming of. I never saw his face in those dreams, now I can't get his face out of my head. hahahha, it was him the whole time...crazy how that works.

xx
Kt