leo_on_fire Knowflake Posts: 227 From: Heiskell, TN 37754 Registered: Dec 2004
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posted November 21, 2005 04:08 PM
In all the fear and frustration there are times where I want to wear you down to nothing but not now when everything has turned so shiny with the possibilities of starting over and doing things differently. Sometimes I hate the way I love you and in turn I hate that I love you at all but right now I'm just looking for tomorrow. I'm tired of feeling sorry and guilty, and I'm sick of being scared to be the girl you fell for because you got right back up too soon after falling. But then I think, all I have to do is finally show you that I've changed in some ways that would suprised even you who knows me so well. And maybe you'll fall for me again, although I often wonder if you ever got over me when you smile at me like I'm the only person you ever want to smile at. Sometimes when it gets to be too much you look at me like you know and you understand and you're sorry but you don't say a word. I have a hard time letting go, and you don't make it any easier when you look at me like that. I don't want you to know how much you hurt me, not really, but sometimes I just want to yell at you to take a closer look. But I always hold myself back from that just like I hold myself back from grabbing you and kissing you silly. *grins* I remember kissing you silly. But tomorrow is a new day, and we're on our way to whatever it is we're to become. I just have to be patient.------------------ Live your life without regret, don't be someone they forget. Your heart is not yours to keep, it's yours to give... Unknown IP: Logged |