leo_on_fire
Knowflake Posts: 231
From: Heiskell, TN 37754
Registered: Dec 2004
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posted November 27, 2005 03:54 AM
 
Now it's come to this,
staying awake just to spite
the dreams that have turned into
nightmares, things that bring
so much pain that I cry in my sleep.
When will it go away,
this feeling that I've lost the most
precious of all gifts?
I'm here, I'm always here,
and I know you were right.
So now that I've 'fessed up,
when will it stop?
I want it to stop, I really do.
I don't know what to do.
I've spat out words that held
no meaning, I've given up
and let it go.
I've forgiven you, and all I can
hope is that you've forgiven me too.
So when do I feel whole again?
Can't it just stop now?
I feel something kicking in my heart,
something I'm afraid to admit to,
something I've run from long and hard.
These tears that are falling now
they are not for me, I don't want them.
I still feel your hand in mine,
and hear your breath in my ear.
My heart catches in my throat still
and I'm so afraid I'll never get over you.
I feel so much, I feel everything
and at the same time...I'm wishing
I could be numb.
You are a dream I don't need,
so why do I want it so badly?
It's been long enough to qualify as
a lost cause,
so why am I still here waiting?
I can't let this build up anymore,
it's something neither of us need.
I should have just seen it,
given in to your demand and disappeared.
But you just keep smiling at me
in the exact way you did when you held me.
It's so loud in my head right now,
music flowing with my own voice.
When will it stop?
Why can't I make it stop?
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