posted December 04, 2005 08:22 PM         

What do I know, how will it end?
I don't know what tomorrow brings,
I don't even know myself.
I'm giving in to something that I have no control over and is it right?
What will they say when they notice who
I am,will they love me then?
Every day passes by and I watch that
man step in and out of each scene of
my life, never knowing if he'll make
an appearance the next time.
And in another world, another time
there is something waiting for me
do I take it?

It's so cold inside my head,
so frozen inside my heart.
Maybe he is right, maybe I am dead.
Is there enough left to give him what he wants?
Can I do it?
He makes his promises, sings his songs,
smiles that smile and breaks my heart.
That man is the worst kind of pain.
And he doesn't even know.
How can I tell him I don't want to love him anymore, that I just can't pretend?
I'm tired of crying, tired of hurting
tired of lying to myself and
lying to him.
He thinks we're friends, he thinks I'll
be there in the end.
But will I, do I have what it takes to
stick around?
When I know I'm losing my mind,
when I feel how he tears me up inside,
can I convince myself that this man
who is good but is poison to me be worth it anymore?

Or is it all just a dream?

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Live your life without regret, don't be someone they forget. Your heart is not yours to keep, it's yours to give...

posted December 04, 2005 08:36 PM         

Love and Light to YOU