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Topic: self love and longing...
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Virgo-AriesArtist Knowflake Posts: 598 From: Michigan :) Registered: Jun 2009
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posted February 20, 2006 04:38 PM
Self-love is a funny thing One day is lays gently in your outstretched palm Then another day you tremble in exhausted pursuit of it There's that petty old idiom something about not being able to be loved by another before yourself Silly created mumbled musing I whimpered today in fear never trusting that I matter to the people I love then the Universe sent a rippling wave to remind me I should not wallow in lovelessness Shards of shattered shifting self Succinct in solemn sense of loss Wandering whimsically, wordlessly wrung out drained in desire for her deadened life Rhythmically rhyming, aimless as the cosmos shift She loves herself as no one can She embraces every flaw Heartache still forces in through the front door She still feels far away This woman is me, feminine and in touch with my strength I lick my lips for comfort I hug myself like no one will The lips begin to chap and crack The arms lose all sensation I flip in and out of numbness and grief A switch that penetrates to a simplistic need Lingering doubts flicker for the angry words I bore Am I good enough, supportive enough, sweet and loving enough, to deserve what I have got? Do I love myself enough to celebrate the wrinkles of my skin, the dense thick eyebrows, the chipped elegant nails? The hands with ever present rough red patches. the darkly rimmed eyes, the speckling of body moles, the narrow elongated feet with finger-length toes and no arches, the broad hips with belly pudge to match, these are all parts of me I have yet to love, make into my whole I have thought of them as God's punishments cruel twists of fate that made me odd Yet without my quirks, this mind would cease to be I am nature's creation, even as I mean to escape The woman placing these verses on this page, purging and cleaning for greater comfort She feels cluttered in that place they call soul unhappy and unsatisfied unlovable in spite of being proven wrong How can someone love me. when I have yet to find utter self-peace? A woman who is so afraid to be left lost and lonely on the road A girl who has not stopped screaming inside, She calls for the bus that has already passed No intention to return She doesn't want to be left behind She longs for life's simple pleasures clean sheets, hearty healthy food and warmth where to lay her head She's not sure she deserves love; it comes with too many strings It hurts like hell to be disappointed She wants to believe in happy endings But can it really last? What does it take to make the bubble burst? To love herself fully, there must be steps, a plan to formulate Lead me to self-discovery and self-awareness... There must be a method to fall in love with oneself... ------------------ -K "...poetry is the subtle alchemy of a sensitive soul
like hell it is poetry is what squeezes out of you when you've been squashed by Life, like a bug" ~Gooberz IP: Logged |
paras unregistered
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posted February 20, 2006 10:34 PM
Wow... I don't even know how to respond to this.Except, maybe, to say that it sounds very familiar. Which of us doesn't go through times when we question our worthiness to be loved? When we find it difficult to love ourselves? I know I do... *Thinks...* Systems of energy contain no garbage, 'Artist. And the uni-verse is an energy system, no doubt about it. So it must have had a good reason for creating you, exactly as you are. Even though you may not feel it at the present moment, you are beautiful inside and out, absolutely unique among all things. Love needs no reason. It simply is. So love yourself! (No excuses!) And thank you for sharing your self-expression with us today... ------------------ Can you imagine a world in which each person understood that his only responsibility was to give and receive love? Chat: #ten-forward E-Mail: paras_nimh@myway.com IP: Logged |
fayte.m unregistered
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posted February 20, 2006 11:30 PM
Wow! This is not just a woman thing...it is a human thing. IP: Logged |
SunChild Moderator Posts: 3359 From: Australia Registered: Apr 2009
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posted February 21, 2006 01:54 AM
Wow~ Words and feelings that could have easily been my own, wow! (By the way, it's great to see you posting)
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Virgo-AriesArtist Knowflake Posts: 598 From: Michigan :) Registered: Jun 2009
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posted February 23, 2006 03:22 PM
Thanks, guys..Nice to know it's a more universal feeling...I am less alone. I am working on being more secure and loving myself...it's a long uphill battle some days. Appreciate the support ------------------ -K "...poetry is the subtle alchemy of a sensitive soul like hell it is poetry is what squeezes out of you when you've been squashed by Life, like a bug" ~Gooberz IP: Logged |
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posted February 24, 2006 01:23 PM
------------------ 99.9999% of what affects our reality will be undetectable by our senses. Man must learn to think for himself, rather than follow blindly what he has been taught. - Buckminster Fuller IP: Logged |
Virgo-AriesArtist Knowflake Posts: 598 From: Michigan :) Registered: Jun 2009
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posted June 15, 2012 12:26 PM
::Bringing to the top::IP: Logged |
Waterlilly Moderator Posts: 175 From: Registered: Mar 2012
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posted June 16, 2012 11:17 AM
Thank you for bringing this to the top It gave me a few answers to questions I've had on my mind lately ------------------ quote: Thousands of candles can be lighted from a single candle, and the life of the candle will not be shortened. Happiness never decreases by being shared.
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Virgo-AriesArtist Knowflake Posts: 598 From: Michigan :) Registered: Jun 2009
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posted June 16, 2012 01:43 PM
quote: Originally posted by Waterlilly: Thank you for bringing this to the top It gave me a few answers to questions I've had on my mind lately
You are welcome, Waterlilly! I am so glad it helped
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