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Virgo-AriesArtist
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posted February 20, 2006 04:38 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Virgo-AriesArtist     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Self-love is a funny thing
One day is lays gently in your outstretched palm
Then another day you tremble in exhausted pursuit of it
There's that petty old idiom
something about not being able to be loved by another before yourself
Silly created mumbled musing
I whimpered today in fear
never trusting that I matter to the people I love
then the Universe sent a rippling wave to remind me
I should not wallow in lovelessness
Shards of shattered shifting self
Succinct in solemn sense of loss
Wandering whimsically, wordlessly wrung out
drained in desire for her deadened life
Rhythmically rhyming, aimless as the cosmos shift
She loves herself as no one can
She embraces every flaw
Heartache still forces in through the front door
She still feels far away
This woman is me, feminine and in touch with my strength
I lick my lips for comfort
I hug myself like no one will
The lips begin to chap and crack
The arms lose all sensation
I flip in and out of numbness and grief
A switch that penetrates to a simplistic need
Lingering doubts flicker for the angry words I bore
Am I good enough, supportive enough, sweet and loving enough, to
deserve what I have got?
Do I love myself enough to celebrate the wrinkles of my skin, the
dense thick eyebrows, the chipped elegant nails?
The hands with ever present rough red patches.
the darkly rimmed eyes,
the speckling of body moles,
the narrow elongated feet with finger-length toes and no arches,
the broad hips with belly pudge to match,
these are all parts of me I have yet to love, make into my whole
I have thought of them as God's punishments
cruel twists of fate that made me odd
Yet without my quirks, this mind would cease to be
I am nature's creation, even as I mean to escape
The woman placing these verses on this page,
purging and cleaning for greater comfort
She feels cluttered in that place they call soul
unhappy and unsatisfied
unlovable in spite of being proven wrong
How can someone love me. when I have yet to find utter self-peace?
A woman who is so afraid to be left lost and lonely on the road
A girl who has not stopped screaming inside,
She calls for the bus that has already passed
No intention to return
She doesn't want to be left behind
She longs for life's simple pleasures
clean sheets, hearty healthy food and warmth where to lay her head
She's not sure she deserves love; it comes with too many strings
It hurts like hell to be disappointed
She wants to believe in happy endings
But can it really last?
What does it take to make the bubble burst?
To love herself fully, there must be steps, a plan to formulate
Lead me to self-discovery and self-awareness...
There must be a method to fall in love with oneself...


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-K
"...poetry is the subtle alchemy of a sensitive soul

like hell it is

poetry is what squeezes out of you
when you've been squashed by Life, like a bug" ~Gooberz

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paras
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posted February 20, 2006 10:34 PM           Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Wow... I don't even know how to respond to this.

Except, maybe, to say that it sounds very familiar. Which of us doesn't go through times when we question our worthiness to be loved? When we find it difficult to love ourselves? I know I do...

*Thinks...*

Systems of energy contain no garbage, 'Artist. And the uni-verse is an energy system, no doubt about it. So it must have had a good reason for creating you, exactly as you are.

Even though you may not feel it at the present moment, you are beautiful inside and out, absolutely unique among all things.

Love needs no reason. It simply is. So love yourself! (No excuses!)

And thank you for sharing your self-expression with us today...

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Can you imagine a world in which each person understood that his only responsibility was to give and receive love?

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fayte.m
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posted February 20, 2006 11:30 PM           Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Wow!
This is not just a woman thing...it is a human thing.

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SunChild
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posted February 21, 2006 01:54 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for SunChild     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Wow~
Words and feelings that could have easily been my own, wow!


(By the way, it's great to see you posting)

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Virgo-AriesArtist
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From: Michigan :)
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posted February 23, 2006 03:22 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Virgo-AriesArtist     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Thanks, guys..Nice to know it's a more universal feeling...I am less alone.

I am working on being more secure and loving myself...it's a long uphill battle some days.

Appreciate the support

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-K
"...poetry is the subtle alchemy of a sensitive soul

like hell it is

poetry is what squeezes out of you
when you've been squashed by Life, like a bug" ~Gooberz

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26taurus
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posted February 24, 2006 01:23 PM           Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote

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99.9999% of what affects our reality will be undetectable by our senses. Man must learn to think for himself, rather than follow blindly what he has been taught.
- Buckminster Fuller

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Virgo-AriesArtist
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posted June 15, 2012 12:26 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Virgo-AriesArtist     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
::Bringing to the top::

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Waterlilly
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posted June 16, 2012 11:17 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Waterlilly     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote

Thank you for bringing this to the top
It gave me a few answers to questions I've had on my mind lately

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Thousands of candles can be lighted from a single candle, and the life of the candle will not be shortened. Happiness never decreases by being shared.
- Buddha

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Virgo-AriesArtist
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posted June 16, 2012 01:43 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Virgo-AriesArtist     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
quote:
Originally posted by Waterlilly:

Thank you for bringing this to the top
It gave me a few answers to questions I've had on my mind lately


You are welcome, Waterlilly! I am so glad it helped

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