posted February 01, 2007 09:51 AM         

ACCEPTANCE

Acceptance
Now
Before I come undone
Acceptance
To be sure
I am prepared
For the day to come
When you will
Disappear
From my world
Far away
And I won't see you
Anymore
Acceptance
Of The sadness
Overflowing
Acceptance
Of the deepest
Knowing
That I will remember
You always
Remember all
Those days
Acceptance
So I can
Let you go
Acceptance now
Because I know
That the pain
Will be too great
When the day
Comes that we
Will separate
Acceptance
Acceptance
Acceptance
But not today

GOD HELP

God help my brother
Please don't let him suffer
He has worked too hard
To die bitter
And in pain
God look after him
Like a child
Find things
To make him smile
Before he leaves
To see you again

BROTHER

Brother
I don't know
You
As much as I
Would like to
Your youth
Is fading fast
Brother
How do you
Live each day
As you do
Your
Fortitude
Amazes me
I can't believe
Everything you
Withstand
Each moment
Each minute
In this earth
With you in it
Is a gift of god
Let your moments
Be simple
Yet profound
Let your feet walk
This ground
With the knowledge
You will be
Forever

THAT YOU WERE HERE

posted February 02, 2007 10:16 AM         

I don't know you, but I wish from the bottom of my heart that you keep the flame of love and hope lit up, so that its light show you the way to some brighter days.

There's a song about love..I carry this song in my heart...I hope it will open some positive emotions for you and your brother..

i carry your heart with me

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in
my heart )
i am never without it (anywhere
i go you go, my dear;
and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling)
i fear no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet)
i want no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;
which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

e.e.cummings

posted February 02, 2007 12:38 PM         

Though I know this is a hard time for you, your brother and your family, it's good to hear that you celebrated your brother's birthday in a happy spirit!
What he's going through inside, in his heart, we can only guess..i guess that those who never were in his situation can't know what kind of feelings he's experiencing now..if he's acting realistically about everything that is happening, might be a sign that in his troublesome journey that he's going through, deep down in his heart he met the feelings of peace and understanding of what this life really is...and he's accepting it the best he can..knowing what's happenning, but still embracing the joy of life..
I know that this is hard for you too, but never give up hoping, however hard it seems, try to balance the acceptance of the worst with the possibility of some unexpected (good) outcome, and give as much love to your brother as you can..

posted February 02, 2007 04:24 PM         

it can be hard to accept this situation. But please, please give him all these beautiful words that you have written for him. Look, sometimes i really feel, that death is harder on the persons left behind. i am not so afraid of my death but of those whom i love the most. don't you think so? he is probably in a less troubled state of mind than you imagine.

please, please connect with him. don't pretend that everything is normal. you know, in my country they say that one gets to know when one is going to die. you may talk about advances in medicine, and hope against hope, but most likely your brother has already come to terms with the reality, and accepted it very gracefully, as i seem to gather from your posts.

another thing i'd like to say, it is my firm belief that those whom we love, can never die. death is but an illusion. it just a crossing over of the soul. it is death for the body tht houses the soul, but the soul itself is immortal. I have heard of people connecting with their loved ones on a psychic level even after their crossing over. (read about gemini nymph's experiences on the astrology thread)

Please find some spiritual books to read at this time. make the best out of this time tht you have remaining with your brother.

Let me recount to you a few dialogues from a movie, which really made me sit up and think about life.

Ok, so the protagonist is diagnosed with a terminal disease, and is given a month to live. he is in a state of shock. the doctor then asks him the question....How many days of the 30 years of your life can u remember? He starts counting.....and is able to really remember only 15 significant days (eg, his 18th bday, his first kiss, the first time he made love, his graduation etc etc). So the doc replies, now u have 30 days left. and it is upto you to make them worth a lifetime.

Life is counted not by the number of breaths we take, but the moments that take our breath away.

lots of love
ILWL

posted February 04, 2007 12:56 AM         

I know we will cry when I read these poems I have written but i am printing all the poems and inspirational messages that you give me to give to him.

I can;t conceive how he must feel but I believe that if he feels any kind of love or joy from these words that that is the most powerful feeling of all and that it transcends even death.

posted March 07, 2007 08:30 PM           

that is you Sinderlou...

pride and joy...

you still see him
as he was, when a boy!

Ignite the Flame...

LOve and Heal. ...

posted March 07, 2007 10:26 PM           

LOts of LOve energy exchanging...

the cup is always running over...