posted May 03, 2007 05:37 PM
Upfrontor
Ambush
The method is different each time
it matters not what method is used though
Just a little push
doesn't hurt
much
Perhaps later it will be more like a shove
might hurt
immensely
I don't consciously intend on it
I am compelled to
as my psyche commands me
when she commands it
So that each time she can erase one of those little marks
off the slate of transgression
eventually she'll consider it paid
in full
Don't worry though
I am in the dark with you
Only she knows the price you must pay
and pay
and pay
like any good fundamentalist upbringing teaches
someone MUST pay for the transgression
My pool of self-love is empty
Will you fill it again
I was never taught how to fill it
for myself
I am learning though
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After silence, that which comes nearest to expressing the inexpressible is music." - Aldous Huxley