posted March 30, 2008 04:02 PM         

Others who will be weak
and pliable
like putty in your hands
and you can 'get away with it'
because they are not going to challenge you
and even if they do
You will outsmart them
that's why you chose them

from the darkest part of yourSelf
you chose to take that person into your life
and abuse their trust
and their heart

Or Others
who feel the seeds of your guilt
and give it back to you

righting the wrongs for you
making the work less
but the point more

When you should be learning
and living
these things within yourself

Doesn't make it hurt any less
Doesn't take away the empty, vast hole inside
or the feeling of spinning out of control

Challenge
Grow
Learn
Change your behaviors...

and be ready to take all that comes
Plows you over
Knocks you down and leaves you
unfairly insulted

Liar.

posted March 30, 2008 04:09 PM         

"Love is the answer, and you know that for sure." ~ John Lennon

posted March 30, 2008 04:19 PM         

This is not going to get the better of you, Ghani.

I hear so much wisdom just behind the cloud of self-condemnation.

You just need to forgive yourself.

posted March 30, 2008 04:24 PM         

Then wrap yourself up in a comforter womb and nurture your mind (body, heart and soul) with beauty and warmth and alternate input.

posted March 30, 2008 04:37 PM         

But this is really a good thing.

You confronted him honestly and he lied.

You listened to your intuition and you were right.

There is a better future for you on the other side of this slope.

posted March 30, 2008 04:39 PM         

You have gained everything. Yourself.

posted March 30, 2008 04:44 PM         

and Healing to you, girl.

posted March 30, 2008 04:50 PM         

If I could be as strong...

...thank you. I honestly don't know what I would be doing right now if I couldn't come here...

Don't mind me if I keep posting thoughts. It's all I really can do right now...

posted March 30, 2008 04:56 PM         

And he left you long before that.

But you have friends who care.

And you can do this.

I believe in you.

And I will be your friend and listen
and try to understand, no matter what you do.

posted March 30, 2008 04:58 PM         

You dont have to do anything right now.

Just rest and gather strength.

posted March 30, 2008 05:05 PM         

You snake
You crawled
Between
My legs
Said "want
It all?
It痴 yours
You bet
I値l make
You queen
Of everything
No need
For god
No need
For him
Just take
My hand
You値l be
My bride
Just take
That fruit
Put it
Inside"
You snake
You dog
You fake
You liar
I致e burned
My hands
I知 in
The fire

Awooooooh....oooooooohhhh

posted March 30, 2008 05:13 PM         

Speak, I知 listening
Baby, I知 your sweet thing
Believe what I知 saying
God痴 truth, I知 not lying

I lie steady
Rest your head on me
I値l smooth it nicely
Rub it better 稚ill it bleeds

And you値l believe me
Caught out again
I知 calling you weak
Getting even

And i, I was joking
Sweet babe, let me stroke it
Take, I知 giving
God痴 truth, I知 not lying

And you値l believe me
I, i, I知 calling you in
And I値l make it better
I値l rub 稚ill it bleeds

I値l rub it until it
I値l rub it until it, hey!
I値l rub it until it
I値l rub it until it

I値l rub it until it, hey!
I値l rub it until it
I値l rub it until it
I値l rub it until it

posted March 30, 2008 05:21 PM         

This mirror is not to my liking
I want to see my pretty face

washed and clean and shining
my hair falling in waves
Around my pretty head

and how I look in these jeans
petite and charming
and quirky and enigmatic

But the glass must be broken
because I see the trails behind me

all these haunted faces glaring back at me
Malice
Broken souls seeking vengence

and I don't see my pretty face
peach and cream

but maggots dripping from my liars mouth
festering cancers on my skin

And I'm asking you to look at the other mirror!!

I am so bs...

posted March 30, 2008 05:27 PM         

quote:

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I want to see my pretty face

washed and clean and shining
my hair falling in waves
Around my pretty head

and how I look in these jeans
petite and charming
and quirky and enigmatic

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