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Topic: ... I'm free form venting here....
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ghanima81 Moderator Posts: 1577 From: MAINE! :) Registered: Aug 2003
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posted March 30, 2008 04:02 PM
When you've done bad things you've deceived and lied and treated life with a whim of contempt you are putting an energy around yourself that will attract othersOthers who will be weak and pliable like putty in your hands and you can 'get away with it' because they are not going to challenge you and even if they do You will outsmart them that's why you chose them from the darkest part of yourSelf you chose to take that person into your life and abuse their trust and their heart Or Others who feel the seeds of your guilt and give it back to you righting the wrongs for you making the work less but the point more When you should be learning and living these things within yourself Doesn't make it hurt any less Doesn't take away the empty, vast hole inside or the feeling of spinning out of control Challenge Grow Learn Change your behaviors... and be ready to take all that comes Plows you over Knocks you down and leaves you unfairly insulted Liar.
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Heart--Shaped Cross Knowflake Posts: 7178 From: 11/6/78 11:38am Boston, MA Registered: Aug 2004
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posted March 30, 2008 04:09 PM
It is easy to be confused by these matters.Emotions bring clouded insights. Only in calm retrospect are lessons understood. "Love is the answer, and you know that for sure." ~ John Lennon IP: Logged |
ghanima81 Moderator Posts: 1577 From: MAINE! :) Registered: Aug 2003
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posted March 30, 2008 04:11 PM
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Heart--Shaped Cross Knowflake Posts: 7178 From: 11/6/78 11:38am Boston, MA Registered: Aug 2004
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posted March 30, 2008 04:19 PM
You are so smart and passionate and beautiful.This is not going to get the better of you, Ghani. I hear so much wisdom just behind the cloud of self-condemnation. You just need to forgive yourself. IP: Logged |
MysticMelody Moderator Posts: 3528 From: Registered: Dec 2005
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posted March 30, 2008 04:24 PM
It will only hurt for a while. When the puss is gone, clean it, bandage it, and rest for a while so it can heal. Then wrap yourself up in a comforter womb and nurture your mind (body, heart and soul) with beauty and warmth and alternate input. IP: Logged |
Heart--Shaped Cross Knowflake Posts: 7178 From: 11/6/78 11:38am Boston, MA Registered: Aug 2004
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posted March 30, 2008 04:25 PM
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ghanima81 Moderator Posts: 1577 From: MAINE! :) Registered: Aug 2003
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posted March 30, 2008 04:34 PM
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Heart--Shaped Cross Knowflake Posts: 7178 From: 11/6/78 11:38am Boston, MA Registered: Aug 2004
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posted March 30, 2008 04:37 PM
I understand. But this is really a good thing. You confronted him honestly and he lied. You listened to your intuition and you were right. There is a better future for you on the other side of this slope. IP: Logged |
Heart--Shaped Cross Knowflake Posts: 7178 From: 11/6/78 11:38am Boston, MA Registered: Aug 2004
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posted March 30, 2008 04:39 PM
You have lost nothing. A cobra.You have gained everything. Yourself. IP: Logged |
26taurus Knowflake Posts: 13428 From: * Registered: Jun 2004
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posted March 30, 2008 04:44 PM
Everyone here is giving great advice and alternative positive outlooks. and Healing to you, girl. IP: Logged |
ghanima81 Moderator Posts: 1577 From: MAINE! :) Registered: Aug 2003
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posted March 30, 2008 04:47 PM
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ghanima81 Moderator Posts: 1577 From: MAINE! :) Registered: Aug 2003
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posted March 30, 2008 04:50 PM
Thank you to everyone. I really appreciate your kindness and understanding. If I could be as strong... ...thank you. I honestly don't know what I would be doing right now if I couldn't come here... Don't mind me if I keep posting thoughts. It's all I really can do right now... ..I'm sorry I'm so weak... IP: Logged |
Heart--Shaped Cross Knowflake Posts: 7178 From: 11/6/78 11:38am Boston, MA Registered: Aug 2004
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posted March 30, 2008 04:56 PM
You have already left him in your heart, Ghani.And he left you long before that. But you have friends who care. And you can do this. I believe in you. And I will be your friend and listen and try to understand, no matter what you do.
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Heart--Shaped Cross Knowflake Posts: 7178 From: 11/6/78 11:38am Boston, MA Registered: Aug 2004
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posted March 30, 2008 04:58 PM
It's okay, sweetheart. You dont have to do anything right now. Just rest and gather strength. IP: Logged |
MysticMelody Moderator Posts: 3528 From: Registered: Dec 2005
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posted March 30, 2008 05:01 PM
Keep talking. Say whatever. I am looking through Avril lyrics for you. IP: Logged |
Heart--Shaped Cross Knowflake Posts: 7178 From: 11/6/78 11:38am Boston, MA Registered: Aug 2004
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posted March 30, 2008 05:05 PM
pj harvey "Snake" You snake You crawled Between My legs Said "want It all? It痴 yours You bet I値l make You queen Of everything No need For god No need For him Just take My hand You値l be My bride Just take That fruit Put it Inside" You snake You dog You fake You liar I致e burned My hands I知 in The fire
Awooooooh....oooooooohhhh You salty dog You filthy liar My heart It aches I知 in The fire You snake (you snake) I ate (I ate) A true (a true) Belief (belief) Good lord (good lord) That fruit痴 (that痴 fruit痴) Inside (inside) Of me (of me) Oh adam (oh ad-) Please (-am please) You must (you must) Believe (believe) That snake (that snake) Put it (put it) In front (in front) Of me (of me) That snake Put it In front Of me In front Of me http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E2_g6yKLQQc IP: Logged |
ghanima81 Moderator Posts: 1577 From: MAINE! :) Registered: Aug 2003
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posted March 30, 2008 05:11 PM
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MysticMelody Moderator Posts: 3528 From: Registered: Dec 2005
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posted March 30, 2008 05:12 PM
Here, you'll like this one. It's fun, I promise. hehe http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C-8cuWBzZzs
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Heart--Shaped Cross Knowflake Posts: 7178 From: 11/6/78 11:38am Boston, MA Registered: Aug 2004
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posted March 30, 2008 05:13 PM
Rub 稚il It BleedsSpeak, I知 listening Baby, I知 your sweet thing Believe what I知 saying God痴 truth, I知 not lying I lie steady Rest your head on me I値l smooth it nicely Rub it better 稚ill it bleeds And you値l believe me Caught out again I知 calling you weak Getting even And i, I was joking Sweet babe, let me stroke it Take, I知 giving God痴 truth, I知 not lying And you値l believe me I, i, I知 calling you in And I値l make it better I値l rub 稚ill it bleeds I値l rub it until it I値l rub it until it, hey! I値l rub it until it I値l rub it until it I値l rub it until it, hey! I値l rub it until it I値l rub it until it I値l rub it until it http://search.playlist.com/tracks/rub%2520bleeds IP: Logged |
Heart--Shaped Cross Knowflake Posts: 7178 From: 11/6/78 11:38am Boston, MA Registered: Aug 2004
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posted March 30, 2008 05:15 PM
rid of me http://search.playlist.com/tracks/harvey%2520rid%2520of%2520me IP: Logged |
MysticMelody Moderator Posts: 3528 From: Registered: Dec 2005
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posted March 30, 2008 05:16 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=41LG2k-ivVY
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ghanima81 Moderator Posts: 1577 From: MAINE! :) Registered: Aug 2003
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posted March 30, 2008 05:21 PM
I know you will, sugar... LOLThis mirror is not to my liking I want to see my pretty face washed and clean and shining my hair falling in waves Around my pretty head and how I look in these jeans petite and charming and quirky and enigmatic But the glass must be broken because I see the trails behind me all these haunted faces glaring back at me Malice Broken souls seeking vengence and I don't see my pretty face peach and cream but maggots dripping from my liars mouth festering cancers on my skin And I'm asking you to look at the other mirror!! I am so bs... ... Learn, you stupid, stupid girl!! IP: Logged |
MysticMelody Moderator Posts: 3528 From: Registered: Dec 2005
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posted March 30, 2008 05:26 PM
Save this one until you don't want to be angry anymore and are ready to feel tenderness again. Just an old standby... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yt-ybUuZjLE IP: Logged |
Heart--Shaped Cross Knowflake Posts: 7178 From: 11/6/78 11:38am Boston, MA Registered: Aug 2004
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posted March 30, 2008 05:27 PM
quote: I want to see my pretty facewashed and clean and shining my hair falling in waves Around my pretty head and how I look in these jeans petite and charming and quirky and enigmatic
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Heart--Shaped Cross Knowflake Posts: 7178 From: 11/6/78 11:38am Boston, MA Registered: Aug 2004
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posted March 30, 2008 05:30 PM
What a pretty song, Melody. IP: Logged |