posted January 31, 2010 03:45 PM         

It causes too much confusion
to simply let this go
I want some confirmation
without sounding desperate and low

I know that I'm being impatient
expecting too much too soon
Maybe I need to retract my hope
Before my ego's all in ruins

Was I really that clueless,
reading too much into nothing?
Was it unfounded daydreams,
where my heart was only bluffing?

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"why"

Why am I a nervous wreck,
why does my heart beat fast?

I lick my lips neurotically
as I reconcile my past...

Finding the perfect wording,
to banish the previous dark,

Sharing love that overflows
without nourishing false sparks.

The fire that was let to die,
it must stay all in my head.

I can have the best of both worlds,
if I'm careful how I tread.
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"Driftere"

To be alone
and yet a part
to be together
and yet unique

To find oneself
on the tipping point
To start anew
in a well-worn town

To reconnect
and yet to ache
To nourish love
and yet hold back

To know what's real
and yet to search
To see the past
and yet cherish now

posted January 31, 2010 06:58 PM         

Thanks for the warm welcome. I'm glad to be back.

posted February 01, 2010 02:50 PM         

( I have missed you and your pearls)

love,juni

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What we do for ourselves dies with us. What we do for others and the world is immortal"~

posted February 01, 2010 05:55 PM         

I was just thinking about you today, and wondering how you've been

My fiance Brian and I are moving back to MI next month...it's so crazy cause it's the last thing I would have thought I'd be doing when I left 5 years ago.