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Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 6375 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010	posted February 06, 2011 10:36 PM edit IP: Logged
Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 6375 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010	posted February 06, 2011 11:05 PM edit IP: Logged
Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 6375 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010	posted February 07, 2011 10:07 AM A lovely girl holds herself in high esteem which I did not. I was on my way to becoming a lovely girl.As long as I batted my mother off me like a cat with a bird, I stayed that way. I spurned her as a lover turned rapist,forcibly. Still,I slipped away slowly until the face in the mirror was frightening. Then,it came to look like my mothers and I could barely look. ------------------ Jesus never put his trust in man cuz he knew what was in man. You have to be strong enough to be gentle.Peace through strength,ALWAYS Me IP: Logged
Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 6375 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010	posted February 07, 2011 08:19 PM I am an almost lovely girl. That is a lovely girl who did not make it. Is a lovely girl molested and her son commits suicide? No lovely girl ever went there. Trust me. ------------------ Jesus never put his trust in man cuz he knew what was in man. You have to be strong enough to be gentle.Peace through strength,ALWAYS Me IP: Logged
Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 6375 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010	posted February 07, 2011 08:22 PM I left the status of lovely girl when I went numb. Lovely girls hold themselves in high regard.Right there, I fell. When I went really numb, I was swimming against ghosts,fighting ghosts,losing the battle with ghosts. I threw myself away the night I lost my virginity. I did it so my mother would not laugh at me anymore for being innocent. Take that ,Mother.I threw myself away to spite you. ------------------ Jesus never put his trust in man cuz he knew what was in man. You have to be strong enough to be gentle.Peace through strength,ALWAYS Me IP: Logged
Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 6375 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010	posted February 07, 2011 08:28 PM After I threw myself away, I could not touch the ground. My boyfriends were all earth,every single one. I clung to them . I couldn't touch the ground,myself. ------------------ Jesus never put his trust in man cuz he knew what was in man. You have to be strong enough to be gentle.Peace through strength,ALWAYS Me IP: Logged
Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 6375 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010	posted February 07, 2011 08:32 PM God provides for his children,the orphans most of all. He sees.He knows.He is there. He won't let us fall if we believe and we reach out in faith. ------------------ Jesus never put his trust in man cuz he knew what was in man. You have to be strong enough to be gentle.Peace through strength,ALWAYS Me IP: Logged
Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 6375 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010	posted February 07, 2011 08:36 PM I got married to someone who was all earth.I have an earth void. All I wanted was to be loved and to touch the ground. If I could go back and undo ONE thing,it would be the day I met my husband. Actually,I would go back earlier to the day I believed my father that my mother was OK. On that day,I became insane. ------------------ Jesus never put his trust in man cuz he knew what was in man. You have to be strong enough to be gentle.Peace through strength,ALWAYS Me IP: Logged
Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 6375 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010	posted February 07, 2011 08:53 PM How I went down has a simple answer.I lost myself. My compass went whacky :the needle careening from side to side. I tried to find the middle but the Universe laughed at me. "YOUUUUUUUU,you think YOOUUUU are gonna find the middle????? NO WAY" So, it was that I did not find the middle. The Universe mocked me"YOUUUUUUU ................" It mocked me again and again. It screamed to me,"YOUUUUUUUUUU" WHO DO YOU THINK YUUUUUUUUU ARE? It loved to ask me this question. It knew I had no answer. It laughed ,hilariously. ------------------ Jesus never put his trust in man cuz he knew what was in man. You have to be strong enough to be gentle.Peace through strength,ALWAYS Me IP: Logged
Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 6375 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010	posted February 07, 2011 08:57 PM God ,always ,provides for me.My Aunt said that I have nine lives like a cat. I am blessed.I ,always,have been. I have a Shining Star who watches over me. He smiles down at me. It will be OK in the end. It will. You know that? ------------------ Jesus never put his trust in man cuz he knew what was in man. You have to be strong enough to be gentle.Peace through strength,ALWAYS Me IP: Logged
Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 6375 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010	posted February 08, 2011 09:50 AM I have a blessed chart if you don't put my mother's next to it. My chart has no squares or oppositions. It is all upper hemisphere except for Chiron. I have an unaspected Venus. God touched it as He touches everyone's chart. There is a plan for us.Each person is unique and special and loved by the Creator. ------------------ Jesus never put his trust in man cuz he knew what was in man. You have to be strong enough to be gentle.Peace through strength,ALWAYS Me IP: Logged
Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 6375 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010	posted February 08, 2011 01:49 PM A Gemini is not co-dependent. THAT is one of her prime traits. She loves herself. After all ,you are ,basically,married to yourself. No one gets closer to you than you.No one knows you more intimately. For better or worse, that is how it is. Healthy people accept truth. Unhealthy ones want to bargain till the end for roses to turn in to violets,and oranges to turn in to apples ------------------ Jesus never put his trust in man cuz he knew what was in man. You have to be strong enough to be gentle.Peace through strength,ALWAYS Me IP: Logged
Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 6375 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010	posted February 08, 2011 08:46 PM A Gemini girl is rational,always.She is sane.If you are a nut,it is your Cancer Your Gemini is pure reason. A Gemini girl does not take anything less than respect and honor. That eschews a good part of the male population but the cream does rise to the top and the Gemini girl gets it. ------------------ Jesus never put his trust in man cuz he knew what was in man. You have to be strong enough to be gentle.Peace through strength,ALWAYS Me IP: Logged
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Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 6375 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010	posted February 09, 2011 08:17 AM If you believe the Bible, God did not MAKE this world the cursed place it is. We don't fit here very well cuz we were not made for a world like this. We hurt when we are shunned. We hurt when we are used. We do the same to others.On it goes. It is our ego's. Our ego's were not a part of man as he was created,initially. When man chose his own ego i.e. disobedience to God, he separated from God. That was the Fall. The Fall brought all the painful things in to the world . ------------------ Jesus never put his trust in man cuz he knew what was in man. You have to be strong enough to be gentle.Peace through strength,ALWAYS Me IP: Logged
Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 6375 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010	posted February 09, 2011 08:18 AM Ever since, there has been pain,pure unadulterated pain. It does not go away for long. You have it inside.You have it from others. The Bible says "In this world,you will have tribulation but I (God) have overcome the world. That is what I lean on,today. ------------------ Jesus never put his trust in man cuz he knew what was in man. You have to be strong enough to be gentle.Peace through strength,ALWAYS Me IP: Logged
Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 6375 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010	posted February 09, 2011 08:21 AM edit IP: Logged
Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 6375 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010	posted February 10, 2011 05:58 PM My Gemini girl was born when I was 13 . I only had her for a short time. It is she I yearn for when I yearn for things which I can't name . ------------------ Jesus never put his trust in man cuz he knew what was in man. He who controls his Spirit is greater than he who controls a city Proverbs IP: Logged
Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 6375 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010	posted February 11, 2011 04:08 PM My Gemini girl was born,yesterday. I could cry .It has been such a long time coming . She died when I was 14.She was born again,now. She was born from terrible pain.Yesterday,I had awful emotional pain and loss. I awoke,today,and a lost part is there. It is my self esteem and personal power. ------------------ Jesus never put his trust in man cuz he knew what was in man. He who controls his Spirit is greater than he who controls a city Proverbs IP: Logged
Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 6375 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010	posted February 12, 2011 10:40 AM edit IP: Logged
Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 6375 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010	posted February 12, 2011 10:44 AM It is all about personal power :the giving it up, the taking it back, the use of it. You have to learn if yours was stripped away,as mine was. You have to learn simple lessons that others learned in their teens, lessons of personal power. You learn by mistakes,unfortunately. Is there another way to learn? I am not sure. I suppose you could learn if you had a good parental role model. Would you still have to learn by mistakes? Prolly. I guess,you have to be able to failure and not think YOU are a failure. You have to be able to fail,big, and still think you are worthy to get up. ------------------ Jesus never put his trust in man cuz he knew what was in man. He who controls his Spirit is greater than he who controls a city Proverbs IP: Logged
Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 6375 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010	posted February 13, 2011 01:12 PM My Gemini girl has anger that my other girl, shall we call her fake Cancer girl,did not have. She could be violated any old way. Cancer girl is am embarrassment to me but she is my past. You do what you need to in order to survive. ------------------ Jesus never put his trust in man cuz he knew what was in man. He who controls his Spirit is greater than he who controls a city Proverbs IP: Logged

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