posted May 16, 2012 10:23 PM            

or could I simply not be brave?

Did you close the door on friendship,

when you sent a second-hand apology?

Are all the years too much for us

to ever speak again?

Would it be weird to reappear,

or would I be a stalker freak?

Did I imagine our common voice,

the way you too could spill your soul?

Why is is hard to admit I think about,

and reanalyze our old chats?

I feel so uncertain and self-defeating....

Mentally, I slap myself,

Conclude I've made no progress within

I'm simply the same scared little girl

who believes herself worth nothing

Sorry me who cannot reach out

brought down to her knees in shame

Wondering why this need arose