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Topic: "Insecure"
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Virgo-AriesArtist Knowflake Posts: 509 From: Michigan :) Registered: Jun 2009
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posted June 08, 2012 11:06 AM
Why does this creep into my head,why do I feel so down? How can this body of mine, seem so unattractive and foreign? I just want to enjoy movement, feel graceful gliding through space, I only need to be less lumpy, more toned and smooth but not fake I hate how my thighs look I think they are too thick I'm done with this jiggle at my waist and it seems impossible to remove I know I'm not "fat" but I feel so lost This unhappiness hurts, and it shouldn't make me so cross I only love my eyes, and maybe my lips The rest is expendable, disgusting at best. IP: Logged |
redshoes Knowflake Posts: 56 From: Registered: Nov 2010
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posted June 08, 2012 02:47 PM
Virgo perfection IP: Logged |
Virgo-AriesArtist Knowflake Posts: 509 From: Michigan :) Registered: Jun 2009
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posted June 08, 2012 11:23 PM
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Cancer/Scorpio729 Moderator Posts: 1556 From: 6,000 feet above sea level Registered: Feb 2010
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posted June 09, 2012 09:06 PM
Hate that feeling.IP: Logged |
Virgo-AriesArtist Knowflake Posts: 509 From: Michigan :) Registered: Jun 2009
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posted June 09, 2012 09:09 PM
Thanks, Cancer/Scorpio...I'm glad I am not alone, even when it bites to be in that moment.IP: Logged |
Bluemoonchild Knowflake Posts: 78 From: Registered: Sep 2011
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posted June 09, 2012 11:18 PM
every woman's nightmare
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Cancer/Scorpio729 Moderator Posts: 1556 From: 6,000 feet above sea level Registered: Feb 2010
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posted June 11, 2012 01:24 AM
Makes me feel below people when insecurity bites me in the butt, horrible. That how it is for you too?IP: Logged |
Virgo-AriesArtist Knowflake Posts: 509 From: Michigan :) Registered: Jun 2009
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posted June 11, 2012 09:26 AM
quote: Originally posted by Cancer/Scorpio729: Makes me feel below people when insecurity bites me in the butt, horrible. That how it is for you too?
Yes, you hit the nail right on the head, Cancer/Scorpio. I feel inferior to almost everyone I see, in pictures or reality, with their stretch mark-free skin, more perfect eyebrows, toned extremities, visibly defined abs...I allow it to put me in a dark place, where I give up on ever feeling the way I want to...I've put on about 10 lbs in the last 6 months or so, but after going through a car accident (which left me less active for 3-4 weeks afterwards), purchasing our first home, getting married, etc, it just seems like I could chalk it off to the major life changes, but then I feel like I am hiding behind excuses. I have taken up kick-boxing once a week, but stopped doing the yoga I love so much, so then I get down on myself for that too. IP: Logged |
Bluemoonchild Knowflake Posts: 78 From: Registered: Sep 2011
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posted June 11, 2012 11:48 AM
I am 52 almost 53, left my man of 25 years with my daughter in August to get away from his crazy bi-polar, drunk self and take care of my mom with Alzheimers, in Alabama. :/ Over weight, lonely.......................Such is my life
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Virgo-AriesArtist Knowflake Posts: 509 From: Michigan :) Registered: Jun 2009
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posted June 11, 2012 12:43 PM
Bluemoonchild Hugs to you, fellow Knowflake, for doing what is hard. Remember you are always loved... IP: Logged |
Bluemoonchild Knowflake Posts: 78 From: Registered: Sep 2011
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posted June 11, 2012 12:57 PM
awe, thanks so much VVA. You made my day! IP: Logged |
Cancer/Scorpio729 Moderator Posts: 1556 From: 6,000 feet above sea level Registered: Feb 2010
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posted June 11, 2012 01:02 PM
I'm sorry VAA You are a wonderful person with amazing poetry. You can't make comparisons to others with "better" physical appearances, they didn't have a car accident and buy a house and get married...and even if they did they couldn't still do kickboxing after These aren't excuses, they're real reasons. I'm sorry, I can't offer any kind of real solution to these feelings, I'm still learning how to deal with it myself IP: Logged |
Cancer/Scorpio729 Moderator Posts: 1556 From: 6,000 feet above sea level Registered: Feb 2010
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posted June 11, 2012 01:03 PM
quote: Originally posted by Bluemoonchild: I am 52 almost 53, left my man of 25 years with my daughter in August to get away from his crazy bi-polar, drunk self and take care of my mom with Alzheimers, in Alabama. :/ Over weight, lonely.......................Such is my life
That is very admirable IP: Logged |
Virgo-AriesArtist Knowflake Posts: 509 From: Michigan :) Registered: Jun 2009
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posted June 11, 2012 01:08 PM
quote: Originally posted by Cancer/Scorpio729: I'm sorry VAA You are a wonderful person with amazing poetry. You can't make comparisons to others with "better" physical appearances, they didn't have a car accident and buy a house and get married...and even if they did they couldn't still do kickboxing after These aren't excuses, they're real reasons. I'm sorry, I can't offer any kind of real solution to these feelings, I'm still learning how to deal with it myself
Thank you from the bottom of my heart, Cancer/Scorpio Self-compassion is something I am totally working on right now, and it's comforting to hear someone else reaffirm what I know deep down, but don't let myself admit, especially that my reasons are real. You are right, I have bounced back in an amazing way, and I forget that sometimes, heck, most of the time. We are here for each other as coaches and fellow travelers of this road, to guide, inspire and encourage each other, and I am grateful to have the lovely souls here by my side IP: Logged |
Cancer/Scorpio729 Moderator Posts: 1556 From: 6,000 feet above sea level Registered: Feb 2010
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posted June 12, 2012 11:16 AM
You're welcome VAA IP: Logged |
Bluemoonchild Knowflake Posts: 78 From: Registered: Sep 2011
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posted June 12, 2012 06:44 PM
Thank you Cancer/Scorpio. I am Cancer/Aquarius
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