posted July 21, 2012 12:04 AM
Flashing back with intensity of feeling
Finding past replays leave me reeling
Was I ever that caught up
in love, rage, and despair,
moments of clear potency
with sparks to spare?
I feel the warmth
I feel the tears,
I want to take back
all those years
I need to know
I wasn't lost
and opening my soul up
it wasn't too high a cost
I cry for the girl
who didn't know joy
I cry for the young woman
stripped down to center
who felt only clueless, not coy
Feeling the pulsing ache
Drowning in all the mistakes
I didn't know then
what I couldn't pretend
and how hard I would fight giving in