posted December 06, 2012 01:01 AM
I don't deserve the bestI do not deserve to be loved
I can't take what could save me
It hurts to feel alive
I struggle with an ache
Words and hugs make life worthwhile
When I cannot have reassurance
It hurts to try and smile
I need the sparkling looks
I need the encouraging words
Somewhere deep inside me
I've never really been heard
I can give you all you'd ever want
I will hold your hand so tight
I'm wrong to want my attention
I'm guilty of dreaming beyond
What makes up this train-wreck,
What's become of who I sought?
I struggle every day to find
what's shiny and cannot be caught...
I beat myself up for wanting
I'm a terrible person to feel
It bleeds in the realms of my soul
I cannot determine the real
I want to feel special, I want to feel right
I want love's beauty and endless light
I can't take in what I feel is too good
If I could find a path, I'd leave while I should
I'm tired of being unworthy
I'm so sick of seeing my scars
some day I'll find a place to hide
where needing love doesn't get me barred
This place will have flowers
and rose-colored auras
I'll find my belonging
And never again feel the longing
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