posted May 31, 2014 07:49 PM
I have seen myself as the weak one, the outcast, the loner, and the cursed. I've stared into that mirror many times to see a man whom was flawed, feeble, and even pathetic! The journey through the everyday paths of my life had been in shame, in turmoil, and in guise of the one whom wasn't truly me. I've walked this lie for 36 years, no not a lie, but rather, I have worn a mask that I draped over my true identity because I feared judgement from those who, in the end, are not even my friends. This all brought on from the insecurities that laid within my own judgmental mind.
The human mind is an absolutely amazing thing. It is an information processer, I've no better way to describe it, that we can use to do just about anything. I know that within my mind I can see the beauty in all things, even in those that might look the dreariest. I can easily have two thoughts processing in mine at any given moment. The mind is our sanctuary, our solitude, and our adobe. It's that place where we can retreat to and escape from the daily trials and tribulations that is our world.
Within our mind lies our imagination and within the power of our imagination lie our ability to be anywhere we wanna be, doing anything we wanna do, and to do it all in the every style that we desire too. Our minds can be our savior from the everyday stress, anxiety, and all the other hardships, which are brought on by our everyday busy lives. Though the savior can also be the tormentor.
A thought, one which can be brought on from simple words heard, can completely change our entire inner emotional demeanor. We can be sailing along in a happy state of euphoria, a smile shining upon our face and that pleasuring feeling of good vibrations within our heart. Then along comes the joker, jester, prankster, bully, or any of the other emotional predators whom will gladly interfere with your mental state of mind.
Here we must first see these individuals for who they truly are.
These are the guys at work who have no love for themselves. Inside them is emotional mayhem and an unstable self image of themselves. These people are the ones whom cannot handle the flaws they see within themselves. They become so afraid that others might recognize them, that they purposely point out everyone else's flaws to keep the light from reaching them. These individuals will hastily point the finger at others in a futile effort to remain hidden in the shadows. They will bring their own demons to others, in stead of just facing their demons themselves.
If you seek your truest happiness, your inner peace, and that place of complete harmony, then you need to first look in the right place. Inside yourself, deep within the very core of your entire existence, here is where you'll find this. Once you've looked upon yourself with true sight and acknowledged who you are, the bad and the good, then truly accepted it within your soul, only then will you know true happiness. When you've accepted you, no comment, bully, or insecure work colleague will ever again steal you from your happy thoughts.
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