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Ayelet
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posted September 26, 2014 10:45 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Ayelet     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Tainted heart
You wish to keep a secret
Why not being shallow,
refusing to give in?
The shallow evolves no matter,
while the deep runs still
And if there is
a scratch, then
it is tainted
Everybody says so, and
everybody knows, or
so they say

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mirage29
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posted September 26, 2014 08:14 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for mirage29     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Tainted-truths can painfully scratch the vulnerable psyche's heart. They etched our minds. The secret is that you have a HUMAN Heart. You "feel" under that mental emotional damage. A "Human" Heart does heal, with time, and Caring....

After throbbing with pain, wounds caused by those shallow 'untruths' must be examined, and for each layer of belief and credence you gave them, they must be 'one more time' over and over be revisited and grieved...

This has been a long painful process for you, Ayelet. (I don't know the detail-version of your story, but I can see/feel the impact this has had on you.... But we live in a very special time right now of making New Beginnings that actually 'can' work and heal.)

"The closure" comes near--, karmic and/or otherwise. We have a Beautiful Opportunity to Rewrite every line. Cancel every lie we innocently bought. Forgive in every way. Even as we have been the betrayer of even our own self in 'believing' the lie. When it's been plunged, know and believe that Now it's in the finality of one way of living and being, and there's a turn towards a new day, standing amidst the rubbles and destruction.

Stand quietly then, rising and feeling and owning your loving truest deepest trueTruth~~ It's been there for you, waiting with Vast Depths, full of compassion and forgiveness. Leave behind what was false. "You" have a Brand New Start if you Be Willing Hearted.

Your Friendships here lovingly support you in these changes: we all are making new decisions inside ourselves too, Ayelet. ~ It's a new dawning.... in darkest hours. psssst! *Spoiler Alert*.... You Make It!

*I AM: Accepted In The Beloved* ... rewrite every line On your Heart, then live it.

(music) Memories (Barbra Streisand) Lyrics [3:27] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RhmMb_9f9-Q

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Ayelet
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posted September 26, 2014 09:16 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Ayelet     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
I want to thank you, Mirage. Your words are a true gift. I wish i can begin and rewrite whatever needs too. It means i have to get over lies, or tainted truths, and forgive myself and others.
It is sweet of you to say i'll make it. You wrote it nicely with that 'spoiler alert', forseeing the happy end, or the happy never ending... it really cheered me up, you know? Because if i can return believing in that, then even my present limitations won't seem so much of limitations anymore. Sometimes one must give in to life, that's another thing i'm learning. God bless you

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Ayelet
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posted September 26, 2014 09:19 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Ayelet     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
I don't think it is a negative poem, though.

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Randall
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posted September 27, 2014 01:29 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Randall     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
I didn't view it negatively.

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mirage29
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posted September 27, 2014 04:00 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for mirage29     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Ayelet... thankyou for your words. It means a lot to me to feel as though what I 'give' can have worth. I feel so utterly invisible, having a visible brief-moment here.

It's hard for me to reach out (have many multiple limitations) and I want to do this so much. The 'over the top' noise interferences (I usually have in the locale where I live) has been very strangely quieter this past week. (I want to think that they're making up for past over-the-top bad behaviors the weeks before, but that's probably not the case. This is unique.) So, I was able these past few days (recovering from a flu) to have a bit more privacy. I've been thinking about my life in generalities and in specifics. I wanted to write 'to the Poets.'


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Originally posted by Ayelet:
-- Tainted heart --
You wish to keep a secret
Why not being shallow,
refusing to give in?
The shallow evolves no matter,
while the deep runs still
And if there is
a scratch, then
it is tainted
Everybody says so, and
everybody knows, or
so they say

I know you post in the 'Oranges' Forum, so now I can see your poetry in LL-YW in a different light. (I love some of those ideas in the Oranges place, but don't feel I have enough knowledge to post adequate messages. I don't have a copy of Gooberz (not available here). I've just recently spent a little time becoming familiar with what 'you' mean by 'Immortality': its mystical concepts and vocabulary. I find it a very passionate, and just-fascinating field of thought.)

So now, having said that, I read your poem in more than several ways. Look at some of this uber-cool magic that occurs .... when you are reading between the lines

(Read with first lines, without the second)

Tainted heart
x
Why not being shallow,
x
The shallow evolves no matter,
x
And if there is
x
it is tainted
x
everybody knows, or

x

(Read with Second lines, without first)
x
You wish to keep a secret
x
refusing to give in?
x
while the deep runs still
x
a scratch, then
x
Everybody says so, and
x
so they say


Such truths!!! So, I just revealed 'my own secrets' and personal struggles through delving (a bit too deeply?) into your magical word mirror, Ayelet. The transiting Sun aspects in trines to both my own Sun and natal Chiron (H2 selfworth, selfesteem) today. A lot of pain, and summing-sense of losses throughout a lifetime. 'In the eyes of others' who were closest to me, I was born to fail. Circumstantially, this may 'appear' to be 'correct'. But where I must heal my own self, is in scraping together any value I privately feel I may have, in my own deep soul. I appreciate the chance you gave me to share on your thread..... Many apologies and many more thanks.

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Ayelet
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posted September 28, 2014 12:11 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Ayelet     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
You haven't failed, in that i am sure, and of course you know it too. Thanks again for your reading and comments.

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Randall
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posted September 29, 2014 02:27 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Randall     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote

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posted September 30, 2014 11:37 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Randall     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Mirage, you're awesome!

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Pearlty
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posted October 02, 2014 12:06 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Pearlty     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote

Exploratory and deep loved this!

"Mirage you're awesome"
Yes, she certainly is...

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mirage29
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posted October 02, 2014 08:49 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for mirage29     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Randall, Pearlty, and Ayelet... You are too kind. {{{ }}}

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Ayelet
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posted October 02, 2014 11:52 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Ayelet     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Thank you Pearlty. And Mirage, no we are not

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posted October 04, 2014 08:44 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for mirage29     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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Randall
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posted October 05, 2014 01:19 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Randall     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote

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