posted August 17, 2015 04:42 PM            

Slowly I’m seeing the colors
Of everything around me
Springtime is coming
And a little dose of happiness does wonders
To a loner soul like mine

I should forget about a lot of things
And take a look what’s up on the hills
There’s a lot of things blossoming
I feel like I want to go there
A place to daydream for a while

Well I’m up on the hillside
I pick up a flower near the river
Such beauty we must take care of it
To our children that hasn’t been born yet
And to the ones that are waking up soon

And I see the flower, a newborn rose
Thinking to give it to someone I care
A little gift that’s says something
Some people have forgot to do it
Buried in texts and codes that don’t really reach your soul

I hold it softly, that precious gift
Her warmness makes me dream
And her spirit makes me yearn
Some days I fear that feeling
That I sense is too much to be received

Then I look up the wonders
A place that’s still untouched
Clean, treasured and well protected
As how we are deep inside
If not for of the filth our sins had done

I’m not well spoken to say it
But how far we went these years
Of destroying this paradise
Without remorse or some kind of reflection
And leaving nothing but dust and ashes on the sky

I went back home, the place I belong
A city in ruins, proud to be in ruins
Proud to be lost in a long forgotten time
Where a false sense of safety covered it
As the seeds of ignorance were given and eaten

As the days goes by, I kept the flower
Still alive, still living peacefully
And I wait for the day to give it
Where its magic fully blossoms
And the message will tell it all

And tomorrow will be the day
Where this grown up rose will be given
To the one that’s worth waiting
But her waiting ends someday soon
Before it withers, before it dies in my hands

posted August 18, 2015 02:19 PM            

Quote LF DX "Rambling Words No3" Aug 17, 2015 LLYW
excerpt...
And I see the flower, a newborn rose
Thinking to give it to someone I care
A little gift that’s says something
Some people have forgot to do it
Buried in texts and codes that don’t really reach your soul

You've reached my soul today!

posted August 19, 2015 12:44 AM            

And it's all thanks to the lady I'm writing all these past poems, being a musician, painter and an activist did quite a number to me, as well knowing her background, pretty stable unlike me which was dysfunctional, and her gentle personality and beauty, all combined.

The only reason I didn't act on these feelings is because I still have some wounds I didn't heal completely, And I have a deep problem expressing love, but I can't help to convey this kind of things in this way. And I know I can't just let things pass, I want to face this issue.

The only thing I know now this woman is the kind that will leave a mark.

posted August 19, 2015 10:50 AM            

Sometimes love can be THE catalyst, that brings us to the altar of our ultimate purpose. All the wild strands of our life, collect and are braided into a core, a conduit for all that can make us feel truly virtuous and Alive...

There is a huge difference in you DX, from your first postings here. I am awed and so grateful to be a witness to these happenings in you. Soooo glad for you, soooo glad.

Your work is deep, top-notch! How can she not resist you? Go for your Highest Expression. How could she not be touched by your authenticity?

Finding love can tap, organize, and ground us. ... Maybe her stability needs some of your creative instability (if you want to call it that) in order for her to express and find her own purpose.

Making all the Difference... Pursue and Treasure Love wherever and while she may be found.

posted August 28, 2015 12:35 PM            

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Originally posted by mirage29:
your creative instability

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That's probably one of the most accurate descriptions of my life I have seen, hahaha. I think that sometimes I create all the drama and fears for the sake of creating, I need that unstability to keep on making art, although this year I finally started to depart from that way of doing things.

Things are good, but slow, got her number and I plan to invite her to the recording session for my band's EP. I know that I have attract her thanks to my art, and I sense that attraction when we're close, but I can't pull out of my shelter yet. Having a moon (aquarius) squaring the sun, mars and pluto(scorpio), and the life experiences are making it very hard. But I know if I open myself to her and break the ice, good things will happen.