posted January 09, 2016 02:10 PM
What was the last time I heard
Your voice that soothed my soul
What were the final words
I said before it went out of control
It was fast, it was painful
Not a thing was said since then
Not an action, not a farewell
We drifted and we haven’t look back
We didn’t fought, or argue at all
We weren’t strangers or foes
We just fell in the games of push and pull
Playing it until the fun stopped
Yet I see you in my dreams
I see you in the newspapers
And through the stories of our friends
And I’m getting insane
I suppress all the needs, the desires
My humanity is at its lowest point
I can’t walk through the streets
Nor to salute our pals from the joint
I withdraw from all the memories
But they turned into nails to my heart
Daily pains, daily remembrances
Of keeping your heart on your sleeve
Everybody warns me that this is wrong
“Why you bring yourself to this suffering”
Said Charlie boy to me last December
“Why you do this treatment to her”
I said, let her be free, she’s fine
Her silence equals mine
That’s all I need to know
Let her be, please, let her go
I went to Tiberius bar for a drink
And I watched a dancer wink
She took me straight to the center
And asked me to share a dance
She reminded me of you in many ways
With her manners and her tricks
After five minutes of that trance
I said, nice moves, but I have to go
Yet you put out those pictures
From the past when things shined
Where it started in the lowlands
As a session with the blues
But I can’t think of a way
To come back and see you
Maybe someday when this feeling ends
I’ll say hello, how are your days
I spoke with Eleanor, she said you’re fine
Living and making moves from here to there
I said she misses me, she said yes
But not as often as you do miss her
She knows I’m a lost case
Drowned in misery, with this silence
But she keeps an open door
When I’m back from hell
The months pass, it’s still the same
Somehow we both know this is for the best
I remained distant, no matter the pain
And now it’s slowly winding down
But I know I have a place
In the corners of your mind
That’s enough for me darling
A window is open when you want to come