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posted June 02, 2016 12:22 AM            

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Sunday 3:00 AM

On a cold Sunday night, I felt the calling of the gods
I felt the greatest ecstasy through my veins
Through every moaning, through every kiss
Until I had nothing left inside
And I wanted none of it, for a while
Cause I knew it was a drug, the drug of lust
And lust took me well deep in hell
And I had a fever, oh lord I was very Ill
Thought the axe of death was coming soon
Through Lady Macbeth, who appeared in a dream
Was it a dream, or I was very stoned
I can’t remember the scene, but the perfume I did
And the moaning, all of her screams
It was the chant of a thousand angels
Through one person
And I could want it forever
But forever didn’t last
It lasted for a few hours
Then we slept well
But on a cold Sunday night, I can remember
I felt the calling of the gods
They said to me I was the chosen one
But I rejected the messenger
I rejected the woman
Out of fear
The Valhalla ain’t the place for me to stay

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posted June 03, 2016 12:16 AM            

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posted June 03, 2016 12:38 AM            

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If you're here, it's over... Today I did a surprise visit to her place, and I've found her with another man as she was going to the movies, the man looked like another loose cannon headbanger, and again we had the deeper connection, but I just can't have it, it's too much, unfortunately I've fallen for this woman, but she likes the wild and restless life, and that's not me, yeah, the sex it's amaxing, and her tenderness is something special, but my scorpionic nature won't take this anymore and let it pass, We both must be freed from this, before it gets troublesome... We have a Pluto-Square Moon square exact, being one of the big ones in our sinastry, and lots of karma and love asteroid contacts... but... She's too much for me

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posted June 03, 2016 09:18 PM            

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Very passionate, LF DX.

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posted June 03, 2016 11:49 PM            

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LFDX ... So sorry she didn't work out for you. I know how you're wanting to have a "real" relationship so badly. And you deserve that, and can look forward to having that for yourself some day.

I'm just glad you found out 'now' and not after you got any deeper-invested in the relationship.

You're such a giver.... Have you ever considered adopting a larger dog-- a faithful consistent companion you could take care of? One that would give back and guard and love on you, too?

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posted June 04, 2016 09:20 AM            

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posted June 04, 2016 02:08 PM            

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.... {{ }} }}

For sure, this song is like your story... LFDX. Take really GOOD Care of you.

(music) Hallelujah (Leonard Cohen) [7:20] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YrLk4vdY28Q

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posted June 04, 2016 05:24 PM            

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Now that I'm more calmed... partly it was my fault to went to her place by surprise, more or less, after she gave mixed signals to come to her place, I had the scorpionic desire to know what's going on, it was uncontrollable, I had no power on my actions, and it happened what it happened... and I kinda knew it, that it was meant to be short, she's just too restless and living a wild life and that's incompatible with the way I'm living, slow and steady, and knowing beforehand that she didn't want nothing formal and still pushing, it was coming ahead, yeah, the sex was amazing, it was an intense experience, and the way she treated me, was so caring and gentle, it was impossible to not fall, to feel that someone cared, but of course, she's another traumatized person, as she's just 22, and she was married(now divorced for a while), and living on her own, the pressures of her beauty that makes men wild (******* macho culture ingrained in Paraguay, we're all raised with this crap), she does live a very fast and loose life that leaves no spot for a relationship for a while, you gotta know when it's not going to happen...

But as what I've learn since last year, I'm going to thank her what she gave to me, cause in a short span of time, she gave me something beautiful, beyond the physical, and I'm going to hold that memory for a long time, she's a great woman, just too wild for me, that's all.

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