posted August 02, 2016 09:16 PM            

I feel something like fear,
but better still,
coming feeding on me,
some kind of excitement,
a blue elephant flying in the sky,
is the sky,
as I wait for an enormous change.
It is living inside me,
makes me burst into laughter
like a balloon in trance of non-existance,
perhaps draw back my head into familiar darkness,
like a turtle who loves better her home
than all her wild whims and travels.

posted August 15, 2016 05:14 PM            

This is Monday, and it happened again at 9am. Power has been holding still now for hours, so, I guess they fixed it! It's safe to post! *looking*

We have a battery-backup for the computer to help with surges and give us time to shut down properly in event of losing utilities. Now, we need to save for a back-up for our router for next purchase? That way, if we NEED TV internet-news (via computer) we'll have access to the rest of the world... and I can save my posts from poofs??? LOL.

haha... An astrologer happened to say that Gemini (me) and Gemini-Ascendants (my rm) could possibly experience issues with electricity around the home this week?? Maybe because of our 'double-Gemmy whammy' here, it really applied? :eek:
(Just joking, but it's an interesting thought, none-the-less.)

So, I was here the other days--

You saw me doing the 'little' posts, because I was doing quickie catch-ups BEFORE attending to your poem with more length. Then *poof*!!!! haha.
You must have been wondering.... so sorry.

I had done some research on elephants (talk about getting detail-oriented??? many planets in Virgo).

Always heard of 'pink elephants'....

My friends in younger party-days used that colloquially for saying they were way way drunk or too stoned-- They saw pink elephants! So, these were words referring to a kind of 'inebriation'.

When you said 'blue' elephants instead of pink ones, I thought about you, your life, and your penchant for Higher Spiritual thoughts, and associated this with Spiritual elations and joys! -- your blue elephants of spiritual blessings.

Then also..... I realize there are some sorrows too.... Chiron in Pisces is opposing those planets in Virgo right now. And there's a square between Neptune Pisces and Saturn Sagittarius.

I wondered if your Blue Elephant could also be a depressive feeling-- like weights that you can't predict would land on top of you, from time to time.... Afraid that something will interfere with your happiness, and steal your joy, were you to really implement your dreams and wishes for the future you imagine doing. Like, you're afraid you might fail. That you shouldn't pursue a life you would like, just in case it would rain on your parade....

Stick your neck out? ... Be like one of the water AND land turtles in the ponds in my 'hood. I watch them.... They can run from the hedges with swiftness, like giant sudden cockroaches, and dive for the water. ... In the water??, a turtle sticks its neck far out, and is designed for speed in the water. Gliding Beautifully. Needs its protection outside the water, where there are predators.

Slow and steady, is a way of ensuring stability. You can do this, Ayelet. You have PERMISSION to be EXCITED about your Future!!! Don't let your fears crush your Possibility... :heart: :thumbsup:

(music) Don't Rain On My Parade! (Barbra Streisand, clip from Funny Girl!) [2:14] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aO3Gb5mkwTc

Anyways!... In Divine Diversities forum, we had a thread where there had been a discussion of 'Blue Sky'... and PixieJane left a vid that was just perfect to describe my thoughts of how God stays still, stays the same, is so Faithful, WHILE, we go through all the nonsense with dogmas, and belief-systems down here, fighting over trivials that REALLY don't matter in the long Higher Dimensions... Where God is like Our Blue Sky above the clouds, overarching Beautiful color made from rays of the Sun hitting the Water of our atmosphere just right.

Sometimes there are clouds blocking our view, but we can 'remember' there is Clear Crystal Beautiful Peaceful Sky of Blue ABOVE everything raining down or weighing and pressing on our thoughts. With The Mind's Eye (our imagination)... we can See our Blue Sky. Keep the Vision... the small-stuff that comes inbetween, is just for 'contrast' and appreciation for what's Above.

I saw the thread in Astro 2.0 where Aries23Degrees gave you excellent piece of reading on your natal transits. I don't know if you posted your chart anywhere. (I haven't seen it.)

You asked a question about a future transit of Neptune in your 3rd House, and your fears about taking up a course of study.

What happened to me, is that just before that, I began a monster collating project with ALL the files I've carried with me in various moves. I had had things in categories that I personally knew where to dig information from. Decided, just as I began a study of astrology, to arrange ALLL the files and papers in chronological order by year. .... then OOPS! Neptune melted my order, and I lost the 'where' things are within my files. Now, I find things by happenstance, instead of deliberate. Neptune felt like my brain H3 was being melted ...until I began to sense things more than intellectually find things. Everything I already studied and knew, everything that YOU study and know, is ALREADY inside you. You'll have it! ....

So if you're studying now!!, make sure your files and papers are the way you want them. Make a good plan. Index where you can. When Neppy hits your 3rd, I don't know what all else it will aspect in your chart, but there will be increases of good things for you too. It just won't be what you think, now. So, get it all studied and absorbed the best you can now.

Neppy in H2, challenge is in you believing in yourself, and others causing doubts. You have to choose what you want to believe about yourself. Challenge of Self doubting...?

Anyways again!!!!, I was soooo blessed by this poem you wrote BECAUSE of the reminder it gave me about Blue Sky post I had done in DivDiv.

In the mornings, when I start my walks around the 'hood, I look up at the Blue Sky, and think about Blue Elephants!! The elephant is a sacred animal, isn't it? ... I think about the roundness of the elephants belly from perspective of looking up from the ground of the earth.... Such a tender almost tactile imagination. ... Like a giant Beautiful mother elephant present to Comfort us.