posted September 02, 2016 01:20 PM
Oh LFDX!!! What a palette of experiences you are having! Filling up your bank. Such Passions, the agony and the ecstasy... *grin*You are sampling Life... and somewhere in this banquet feast you'll come to find that moment when you've popped into a whole other satisfaction and awareness of Life.
Yes, sex and feeling in-love is freak-delicious fun and so nourishing to be held and touched--- certainly feeding that romantic poetic soul of yours. AND, there's a whole other level of intimacy you'll find available to your soul too. You (in your experiences now) are cultivating this without fully realizing yet. ...But I'm Believing you will, some day, if you want to GO to that Higher Level. It IS Possible.
'Downhill'? can feel like a sad word?, but is actually part of the wonderful momentum. You carefully determinedly climb the mountains of life, and after learning a bit, you master and reap enjoyment for the rhythms of up and downs-- It's all part of it, not separated. Long-Term Life-Rewards will BE there and come forth for practices and Adventuring with a Daring Heart.
Let not your Heart be troubled...
I admire your stick-to-itiveness. You don't give up easily!!! And that's good! But I do gently caution you to self-care and more balance, so you can adjust the perspectives and interpretation of what's happening to you, so you don't 'go down' tooo toooo far. (Certainly not a time right now for indulging in too much drugs and alcohol too. Take extra care at this time with these, as the addictive nature of substances could be stronger?)
One of my daughters was sensitive to the presence or absence of friends and waxing and waning of popularity in her life. I used the metaphor with her, of the rhythms of tides at the lakes or seashores.
When they retreat, then don't despair... Enjoy your rest, and catchup doing the things you would like to do for yourself that you wouldn't have time for otherwise.
Enjoy it when they're not around, LFDX... It gives you quality time for reflecting. REcharge your batteries. Organize your life. Not a time for too many glooms and despairs, so much as gleaning what you learned about yourself, and being proud of the progress you made. You've done a LOT!! Drop blaming yourself... Enjoy the Possible Future from what you've taken in about life and love.
We enjoy your work sooo much LFDX!! and hearing your stories. You ADD to us here, and your Creativity helps us all enjoy the Human Experience.
This is the long hiking video... I watched with affection, thinking of your life and poetic pieces. The songs are good too.
(music) Forever Lost (Pretty Lights; Benjamin Mennell's vid of hiking up Fantasy Ridge, April 2013) [8:52] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nf_EDbdAtAQ
Again .... Wishing you always The VERY Best that Love has to Offer us in our lifetimes.
(music) The Glory of Love (Bette Midler, from movie Beaches) [3:20] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZkzM2krUixs