posted March 16, 2017 10:53 PM            

I wish I didn't have to choose.
I wish I could walk both paths.
I wish I knew the outcomes.
I dare not leave either way.
Can they both be mine?

My Gemini moon and Mars have me split -
my destination is two-sided.
Torn between my love and my love,
unable to commit myself
to one kind of silver and gold,

posted March 17, 2017 08:39 PM            

Honestly.. in a way, your words preach to my choir again!

Wonderful description.

The image I get when I think of you, is someone looking at two different sides of the SAME coin. Not flat, but dimensional, each side actually reflecting the 'same thing' depending how you view it. Find the common denominator?

Abundance.... That sounds really good!
I hope the right decision floats to the top for you and makes itself totally apparent.

And if you want BOTH? I hope there's a way to do it that reveals itself soon.

posted March 18, 2017 12:25 AM            

Are they not giving you enough information to decide with?

No one should be forced into something without completely knowing what's involved should you act.

What is it you need?

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(music) Chicago (Sufjan Stevens, lyrics) [6:11] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nOL0ll2cLGk

posted March 18, 2017 12:23 PM            

The program is very expansive and demanding. I do want to invest myself, but I don't want something else to die. I haven't been too fertile in writing the last couple of years and it annoys me, as I used to be more creative and derived of it a lot of happiness. Going to the program may mean I am giving up something precious that I don't know if I still possess and want to find out. I want to publish poetry I have written. That too is costly.
I know Ra said therapy can be creative as well. I do love to deal with people, and it also seems to be an internal need (7th house sun and Venus). But creating has made me feel so much alive, and despite my struggles, I wouldn't want to close that chapter in my life. In a way it feels like death. I am not exaggerating. There is something I don't want to die yet. Wish I could do something about that.

posted March 18, 2017 02:11 PM            

It was the computer that found the song for me, using the phrase you gave. I didn't recognize that song automatically off the top of my head... When I listened, yes, there was a vague familiarity with the song.

It is Beautiful, and I can see by the text how you would relate to this.

Before I say anything else to you--

I want to know first--

What is this expansive program you're being offered?
What would you be doing or studying?
Can you please say more about that?

I thought you were entering a program that would teach you how to be a therapist? Is this the program?

Also----

What degree is your Ascendant?
Has Pluto contacted it yet?

Glad to hear where your Sun and Venus are. I know that my Jupiter is conjunct your Sun.

We have Healer and MusicArtsWritingAwakenerCreative Chiron approaching a trine with that Sun Cancer (you) and my Uranus-Jupiter(me) right now.

{snip-- I delineate too much! LOL and I really don't have a copy of your chart-- only my ephemeris}.

posted March 18, 2017 03:04 PM            

ascendant in 13 degrees Cappy. Pluto in my 1st hose now, opposite my Venus.

As for the program, it will suffice to say here that it's the therapy thing.

posted March 18, 2017 04:53 PM            

I'm not feeling my best today. ugh!!
Sorry for a shortcut response 'for now'.

You might get some good answers from this video. Enjoy!

posted March 20, 2017 06:14 PM            

When she described Chiron in the 4th, (basically) a psychological Healer (therapist)-- don't you think that this fits what you are choosing to do now, in your vocational training?

tSaturn moving through your 12th is a good time for this study-- because as you are learning to be a therapist, it requires that you also undergo more counseling. Just by itself, delving into that material (in classroom, or with a peer, or a mentor-counselor should help you). I think that's great.

The more you know yourself, the more you'll be able to help someone else--

Even if something were to occur where you live, and everyone's formal education would have to be put aside a while for whatever reasons come up-- (I'm talking about REAL practicalities in the unstable times we live in-- not prognosticating)-- EVERY COURSE that you've taken and completed, is a step towards your Success (with or without the degree or certificate).

You will have LEARNED something that later can be practically applied--
e.g. In an emergency? (like a national emergency?), you will have more Confidence to tend to people's psychological aid, as you 'find' them, and stop to give aid as a first-responder counselor. And even the first-responders need peer-counsel at times.
e.g. AND, all your learning can help your OWN inner-self speak with Understanding (and more inner gentle general authority) to address-within what's happening with you. {ISH}

Journaling/writing about your experiences can ALWAYS be used in some way in the future to even sell articles about what happened, (or write the creative poems you're great at).

posted March 20, 2017 06:36 PM            

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Originally posted by Randall:
Hope you feel better.

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I really appreciate that, Randall.
It really really depends on the level of sonics, and the amount of quality sleep I got.

Can't predict it. And that's soooo dern frustrating!

posted March 27, 2017 06:36 PM            

If you were to learn to be a therapist, and on-the-side were able to take a peek at charts (like Carl Jung did), you could have an ADVANTAGE to give your client a more-thorough experience.

I found too, that when people have symbols to play with (like telling them they are in a Saturn transit), it makes it easier for them. Almost like giving them a strange kind of Dignity back? Helps them view their life more Patiently, too? (if it's going to be a long one)

Using astro-therapy can shave time and expenses.

You already have a DEVASTATING ability to have Insight. Wow! (Astral Realms mod).

Take those three things-- your natural ability, some credentials in counseling, WITH a side of astrology, and you'll possibly do great things with your talents.

Remember, it's not about the money, and being greedy. It's about Quality in life. BEING Quality, GIVING Quality.

When you're doing the Best with what you Got, then BE Pleased with yourself, ON PURPOSE! *grin*

Look for some used books... (psych astrology)
Some Stephen Arroyo?
Also Astrological Insights into Personality,
c1980 Betty Lundsted.

posted March 29, 2017 04:30 PM            

I saw this great saying the other day.

The word LISTEN ... has the same letters in it as
the word SILENT.

*God's GC Whirly-Swirl*
(Galactic Center)
(causing interruptions / interferences / re-Directions? )
*Stay Tuned*!

He ain't quite Done with us yet!

posted March 29, 2017 05:20 PM            

quote:

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Originally posted by Ayelet:
And I changed my mind
I only have to see how I can afford studying.

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posted March 30, 2017 01:17 AM            

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Originally posted by Ayelet:
I'll do my best not to drown, Mirage

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hahaha.. in de-Nile?

I've never read Liz Green, so I don't know.
I read that one LL'er had purchased one of her readings and thought it was too (psychologically) rough on her?

But then, you and are veterans of sorts?
*We be tougher and more-seasoned with the language*

If you get the chance to borrow those books I mentioned (even if you don't take your courses), you might find it valuable to play with some of the meanings to see how it could give you greater insights into chart aspects.

Sometimes, you can just 'learn things' from general descriptions without really paying attention to the astrology itself.