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Topic: I'm Just
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whitewitch111
Knowflake Posts: 3734
From: Hillsboro, OR, USA
Registered: Jan 2013
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posted October 05, 2017 06:28 PM
  
I'm just
No good
I'm just
A failure
I'm just nothing
I'm just nervous
I'm just not emotionally there
I'm just a ****** daughter
I'm just a ****** friend
But Lord Strike me Dead
If I don't Try...
How do I make it up?
Do I flatter or console?
Is there anything I can do?
Anything at all?
I panic not to know
How you feel
You're not a clown
You are a God
My Lament
Today my Dad and I
Flaked away again,
You know you're a writer
When you read the poetry
Written in 15 minutes,
And you cry.
I hate Bi-Polar
First I'm a Border Line
Then I'm Bi-Polar
Is it my fault?
Did I chase him away?
Or did he push me away?
Or was it both?
Dark purple is the dress
She wears
To seduce or to feel?
But is he my father?
Or my Father's Brother? Family isn't blood
Family isn't even heart
Family is the psyche
Creations from the mind
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whitewitch111
Knowflake Posts: 3734
From: Hillsboro, OR, USA
Registered: Jan 2013
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posted October 05, 2017 07:02 PM
Every woman is Electra
Every man is Oedipus
Just how much?
And Everyone is Marquis De Sade
In their own ****** up way...Ah,
but what makes it all ok?
Hell Raiser and Wolverine?
Are we the Cenobites?
Did I create the Cenobites?
I toyed with the puzzle box...
But maybe Saw does as well
Maybe we all just want to play a game
So you conform
You do what everyone does
Isolated for too long..
Social Order?
What the **** is that?
I call you...
You call me...
We head bang to Black Sabbath
Don't you see, he left..
He left me...
"A woman will seek out her father"
So says Freud.
Love...What the **** is it?
There is one word for it in English
And over 80 in Sanskrit
The bond between husband and Wife
Between Father and Son
Between Father and Daughter
All blended into a subconscious array
But I...I live lonely
Being the strong one
And not the resting one
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whitewitch111
Knowflake Posts: 3734
From: Hillsboro, OR, USA
Registered: Jan 2013
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posted October 05, 2017 07:04 PM
I can write
You look approvingly
Ever since a small child
I clung to you
Above any other
She takes a million pills...
Wow, you even have his physique.
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Randall
Webmaster Posts: 86777
From: From a galaxy, far, far away...
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted October 06, 2017 08:34 AM
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mirage29
Knowflake Posts: 8513
From: us
Registered: May 2012
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posted October 06, 2017 10:24 AM
I know how much you needed your dad to be a positive part of your life. He SHOULD have been that to you, Whitewitch. In an ideal world, he should have been.And sometimes when people have been incensted, and abused by family members and extendeds, they throw that person 'under the bus' by taking them to psychiatrists, who blame the victim, attach nasty-labels, which compounds the problem at hand. It is rare when the victims of abuse get REAL people in their lives, who care, and Make Up The Difference, in order to normalize that victim, and step her out of her wounds, and BACK into society as a VALUABLE person who ADDS Much. You are an excellent writer Whitewitch. I pray that you have someone step INTO your life, and restore you while you are still young and have PLENTY of life ahead of you. As you know, I am a person of Christian faith system. I send you 'the vibes' of this song.... I am INCREDIBLY sorry all that happened to you Whitewitch.
You didn't deserve that. ...
It's not your fault..... Stay Safe, Be Well! {{Hug  }} (music) I Will Restore (God's Grace, scripture memory songs) [3:26] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mlgnd0EWFJQ IP: Logged |
whitewitch111
Knowflake Posts: 3734
From: Hillsboro, OR, USA
Registered: Jan 2013
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posted October 07, 2017 09:39 PM
Oh my Mirage...Thank you so much that touches me so much. I just miss him so much. He wasn't abusive to me, but he kind of just drifted away from me. And he was my solace from abuse.
Thank you so much for that song. I love it. <3IP: Logged |
whitewitch111
Knowflake Posts: 3734
From: Hillsboro, OR, USA
Registered: Jan 2013
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posted October 07, 2017 09:40 PM
It's actually meant to be a combination of someone I fell in love with because he is a lot like my father and himself.
The day was really strange when I wrote this. IP: Logged |
Randall
Webmaster Posts: 86777
From: From a galaxy, far, far away...
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted October 08, 2017 07:25 PM
Thanks for sharing the background story.IP: Logged |
mirage29
Knowflake Posts: 8513
From: us
Registered: May 2012
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posted October 09, 2017 01:40 PM
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Pearlty
Moderator Posts: 1745
From: Ohio
Registered: Jan 2012
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posted October 19, 2017 07:04 PM
quote:
Originally posted by Randall:
Thanks for sharing the background story.
Yes, thank you whitewitch for sharing your story
"I'm just no good" your beginning lines...
I beg to differ I feel/think you are good,
and I am in awe of the honesty in your recollections and writing. IP: Logged |
whitewitch111
Knowflake Posts: 3734
From: Hillsboro, OR, USA
Registered: Jan 2013
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posted October 19, 2017 07:49 PM
Thank you Pearlty  IP: Logged |
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