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whitewitch111
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posted October 20, 2017 01:24 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for whitewitch111     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Her Father came and looked at her in the hospital bed and gown. She had cut herself so bad that night that the ambulance had to be called. And now his gaze was drawn to the gauze around them stopping at the elbows, like white fingerless gloves.
He smiled at her. But wanted to cry. But if he did that he knew it would freak her out and cause a lot more harm then was already done. She had not once seen him cry thus far in her life.
"I got you a mocha with a double shot of espresso." He said cheerfully. And held it up.
"Hey thanks!" She declared.
"Sir she can't drink that right now." Replied a nurse.
"Hey what!" She yelled.
"Its all right, just heat it up later." Her father said.
"No, because then it won't be as good!" She wined.
"I'll get you another one."
"Everywhere will be closed!" And the tears were forming in her eyes that she tried to blink back and he sighed.
She felt as if she had so little power her whole life, and it wasn't the coffee, it was what her subconscious equated as a lack of control and now she was entering adolescence.
"Your Mom is here." He told her.
"Then send the ***** out the way she came."
From his twins he would have yelled at and possibly hit for that. But his youngest child was different. At thirteen years old, she had been diagnosed with Bi-Polar Disorder and was now on a mess of medications for it. As well as a sleeping med, and birth control pill for her Mother's worry of her young daughter's promiscuous behavior. And in a way it was natural for teenage girls not to get along with their Mothers.
But even as a little child she had clung to him more. And even clung to him more then most little girls to their father's. As a little girl she was the ultimate sterotype of a 'Daddy's Girl.'
"Be nice." He said firmly. He always said this to her when he caught a certain look or tone in her eyes and voice that only he could sense. Or when she was acting like a brat.
Sometimes she thought that her and her father weren't just that, maybe they were best friends to an extent.
She watched Saw with him at four years old after a heated fight with her mother to do so, and didn't flinch once, rather glued her eyes to the TV in fascination.
This was her third suicide attempt the first two she had tried to hang herself and her brother had stopped those. But now he was in the marines and her protection of herself was now solely dependent on her father.
"So we're to razor blades now then?" He said. And she laughed and so did he. His dark and cynical humor was what she loved most about him.
In a few hours she would be released and on the way home her mother sat in the back with her, combing her hair. At thirteen that was the only thing she bonded with her mother over, the way she could make elaborate hair styles and being a goth girl, she asked for these a lot.

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Ayelet
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posted October 21, 2017 06:03 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Ayelet     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
A beautiful and touching piece. It is the first work of yours I read which is contemporary. But I guess you have more of those I just haven't ran into...

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Ayelet
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posted October 21, 2017 07:25 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Ayelet     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
When I wrote I didn't ran into contemporary works of yours, I meant poems aside.
By the way, have you published anything yet?

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mirage29
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posted October 21, 2017 08:06 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for mirage29     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
{{Wow!... You've been through some super-tough things, Whitewitch. Simply Amazing. }}

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Randall
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posted October 23, 2017 07:52 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Randall     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote

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Pearlty
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posted October 27, 2017 06:22 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Pearlty     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote

Wondering how the rest of the story will go

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